Finally coming back

[msnicksmom]

ok, it hasn't been THAT long...but I can't WAIT to get back to this WOE. Does anybody remember me?

I lost 40+ lbs on Atkins in fall-winter 2004-5, and then got pg with my son. I did stick PRETTY well to Atkins maintenance plan, and at least stayed clear of refined sugar and flour until about 6 months pg, and then somehow fell off. And tell you what, that carb addiction thing? It's real. I didn't buy it, and certainly didn't believe it was ME...until once I started back on sugar, it was like I couldn't get enough.

Since I was pg,a nd then nursing, I figured what the heck, I'll deal with it later.

Well, later is HERE, and I can't wait.

When I got pg, I had about 25 lbs to goal, and I'm almost there again. So yes, I actually DID maintain, I think, I'm almost right where I left off. I want to do indduction a few weeks to get the dang sugar out of my body and get my exercise back on track, and then work pretty quickly back in to OWL.

Wish me luck (and stamina, energy, etc...)

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[chrisie_20]

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You can do it and we are all here to help. Although I can say that is one of the toughest times to lose weight after a baby (I have 3), if you ever need any help just IM me!

[Sirine]

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Welcome back, and trust me I also know how hard it is just after having one baby! I gained 60 LBS and thank God I found Atkins cuz I'm almost back

You will find the same support as you did last time you were here!!!!

You can do it....You can do it...ya ya

[msnicksmom]

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Made it through day 1. Snacks and kid food called me all day, but I made it. Got my water, my veggies and my exercise.


See you tomorrow!

[msnicksmom]

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Day 2, so far, so good. Cravings abating, still pretty hungry during the day though. May have overdone it on veggies by 15 slices of cucumber I forgot I had as an afternoon snack. Def still w/in 20 carbs though. Also started multi vitamin today. Did 1 mile walk DVD and good on my water.

On to Monday!

[Desertthorn]

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Hi Denise, welcome home my friend

[NickyD]

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Welcome back and congratulations on maintaining so well during your pregnancy and after. Best wishes.

[Chris]

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We're so glad you're back. Congratulations on the new family addition, by the way!

[msnicksmom]

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Thank you all for reading, and welcoming me back! That support is SO key to success on this WOE Thanks to for commenting on my pg and new kid. I'm really doing this for me, but also for them, and our future together. I have a 3 year old and a 6 month old, 2 boys, Nicky and Benji. And they're great.

Day 3 went OK, but got that terrible snowstorm, so wasn't as organized as I need to be for work. Didn't slip, but didn't enjoy foods the way I should when I plan ahead and stuff.

Got the 1 mile walk in and lunch prepared for rest of week. May have overdone on veggies a touch, I could feel the cheese getting to me so had an extra cup of lettuce tonight, so 3 cups salad veggies and 1/2 cup other veggies today. Made flax muffins tonight so I have an alternative, and kind of a treat, from now on.

On we go. See you all tomorrow...

[Tryin2lose]

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You are doing terrific Denise! Congrats on the new baby. And WOW, you are getting in excersize too! You're going to have super results on day 14!

~Good for you~

Erin

[Kent]

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I just wanted to welcome you back publicly, Denise. I know how are hard you worked the first time and am absolutely confident in your commitment to get back in control of this addiction. Very glad you returned and know you will have very successful first two weeks.

[msnicksmom]

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Well, Day 4 done and over with.


Fine on food, got my exercise in (even on meeting night!!!), OK on water even though I spilled a full 20 oz cup all over my desk. I never knock that thing over when it's empty Definitely less hungry today. Less cravings too, but it does seem like once I start thinking about a treat, it's all I can think about! Fortuntaely, they're legal treats. I haven't been truly tempted to cheat, but I have been drawn to the candy displays. BUT, the stories here and the idea of bike riding and swimming with my boys this summer keeps me in control.

More tomorrow.

[msnicksmom]

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OK, yesterday my boss had a graph project he just was not being reasonable about. And he was very grumpy and I was getting very frustrated. I wanted a twix bar or a handful or a dozen from the candy bag up front.



I didn’t. I didn’t actually have anything, because I recognized that what I wanted was “comfort” for lack of a better term, not actually food. Good job.


Then, I get home, and DH has new parts for both computers. And he’s really been looking forward to him and DS #1 fixing these computers. He’s got them pulled apart on the dining room table. So, fine, the two of them “work” on the computers. And I hear just a couple “No, don’t grabs”, etc. But mostly they do all right while I feed DS #2. Then DS #1 and DS #2 have a bath, and I CAN’T get both of them dried and dressed at the same time, so DS #1 runs around in swim trunks (I have no idea) while I get DS #2 in to bed. I get DS #1 in jammies, and DH says these new parts don’t fit the old parts just right, he needs to go to Best Buy. So he goes and I get DS #1 dressed and fed. He gets home, DS #1 and I “help” a couple more minutes and I get DS #1 in bed. So, upshot is I did everything while he did computer stuff, which I totally don’t mind in this case, but it’s still stressful. There is a bowl of Jelly Bellies on the counter, and I resist. I do eat a legal spoonful of cream cheese “frosting”.



I make myself tuna salad and clean the kitchen. I ask DH if he’s ready to eat something, no, and he’s clearly frustrated, something is not going well. I watch American Idol taped from Tuesday. If you skip the commercials and the fluff, it only takes like 25 minutesJ



I go down and work out, and read a bit, and unload the dishwasher. I ask DH if he wants to tell me what’s up. So he does, and the bottom line is nothing is going to work, probably because he had help from the 3 year old. The Mama Bear in me is like “WHAT?” Yes, he touches things after you tell him not too, and he desperately wants to be a part of the project. But you’re the dad. It’s not HIS responsibility, or even CAPABILITY, to not touch. YOU introduced the whole idea, and maybe YOU should have known to wait til 7:30 when they were in bed. Regardless, YOU are the grown up. I am still incensed that he said that. I didn’t say anything to him then, just prayed to Jehovah to help me let it go. I’m still praying that. I still want jelly bellies. I drink water.



So, I go to bed, and my head hits the pillow, and I hear DS #2. So I give him a bottle and go to bed. I hear DH come to bed at 1:30. DS #2 gets up at 3 for a bottle, I get him back to bed (where he talks and babbles for at least 20 minutes, hilarious), and I do down to check email as is my custom, and the computers are both still pulled apart.



DS #1 wakes at about 6, so we get up, and I get DH up at 6:15 to snow blow. And he ignores me and yells at me. Boy do they (men in general, but particularly computer people) get grumpy when the fixing does not go right. DS #2 gets up shortly after and I get me and the kids ready while DH blows snow. He also scrapes the ice off my car and gets DS #2 in his snowsuit. He also snaps at me when I ask him what he’s doing when he takes his laptop back inside. I NEED CHOCOLATE. I eat nothing and take 5 deep breaths before I get in the car with the kids.



So we brave the snow to get to Deb’s, and DS #1 WHINES the whole way because he wants different underpants . I get to work on time (small miracle)…and there are donuts in the break room. And, I’m starving because all I had for dinner last night was tuna salad because I wasn’t real hungry then. BUT I RESIST. I microwave my cabbage roll pie that was supposed to be for lunch to make sure I get enough to eat and enough fat. Yum. It actually was better than the donuts would be, they’re just Dolly Madison, not even bakery.



Sigh. I’m doing better now. The moral of the story is I control what I eat. I really can. And food is NOT comforting, and will likely make me feel worse about yourself in the long run. Controlling your food IS in fact comforting, and empowering.

On to Day 6

[msnicksmom]

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Day 6 light bulb

“First, and perhaps most important, be clear on this: Whatever you do to lost weigh is what you must do for the rest of your life to keep it off. And if carbs are a health problem for you now, they will continue to be a health problem for you until the day you die. Get it through your head that there is no finish line.



Because you’re in this for life, don’t focus on losing your weight as quickly *** possible. Instead, work on making low-carbing the enjoyable lifestyle it can be, while still achieving your goals…You need to incorporate the widest variety of low-carb foods you can, to add flavor and interest, not to mention vitamins, minerals and fiber.”



These sum up my constant harping about changing the way you look at food. If you think that you can lose what you want to lose and then go back to “just watching what I eat” and not gain back, you are kidding yourself. Sugar is (almost) a drug, with no redeeming qualities, and will never be truly a part of your life again if you don’t want to gain these pounds back, with interest. And I hear it’s tougher to lose every time. Now, I personally am not going to commit to NEVER having a brownie again. But, I am committing to never being more than 5 lbs above my goal. Ever. And if I can have a brownie and eat induction like the rest of the day, and eat low carb lifestyle like the rest of the MONTH, great. If I find it triggers cravings, makes me sick, makes me gain (there are some who GAIN from just one slip!), I’ll deal with that then.

[msnicksmom]

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See above posts for why I didn't journal days 6 end, 7 or 8. Today is the end of day 9 and I thought I would lose my mind with out my computer!!!


Day Nine
Happy to report all is going as planned. Down 8.5 lbs in 1st week of induction, though that is kind of falsified by the enourmous ammounts of salt I atet hte days before. But 3 lbs at least is real.

Missed just one workout and made my water and vitamin every day. Got my veggies in, if anything may have overdone veggies on occassion. It's tricky though, I have to plan veggies in advance, but we'll get there.

Also, the sweet tooth appears to be at least on vacation, I have had NO sweet cravings, if anything the opposite, since the vent above.

Clothes fitting a touch looser throught the butt, and it was already JUST about time for new stuff anyway. Shopping next weekend after the two week mark! Yay!

And it's only 5 days away! On to tomorrow....