I am back...again...and I have lost count on how many times this is.

[chrisie_20]

I am am back! I stepped on the scales about 10 minutes ago and it weighed in at 248.2. That is the most I have weighed ever (with the exceptions for my pregnancies). I am very depressed. I have got to do something about this. I thought that I would do better on a low cal diet and I tried that route, but I need structure. I need discipline. I need the NO YOU CAN'T HAVE THAT! I hope you guys welcome me back with welcome arms...because I need the support. I am in a severly depressed state over my weight. I feel like I can't do anything about it. I know better in my head, but then again my head is telling me you have been trying for years and still haven't done it. Why keep trying? I am so tired of being fat, tired, lazy, stared at, not being able to wear the clothes I want to wear, etc. I want it! I want it so bad. I just need to get my mind set back right again!

[prissy]

Re: I am back...again...and I have lost count on how many times this is.

Hi~have you read this sticky, “Don't give up. You are worth fighting for!” By cleochatra? It’s just at the bottom of the stickys for this page. It says it all.

Well, except that I'm right there with you . . . we will never need to restart again . . . this is it for us both and everything up to now has prepared us to succeed.

[Laker75]

Re: I am back...again...and I have lost count on how many times this is.

Hi Christie!

Welcome back! If you've been through this pattern as many times as you say you have, then you already know that getting all angry and disgusted with yourself serves only as a TEMPORARY motivator. It is those self-depreciating thoughts that lead to the cheats - which lead you right back to where you started. Looking down at your scale in horrified amazement , wondering where all the progress you worked so hard to maintain, went.

Do I sound like I've been there? Sure have, many MANY times. The kinder I am to myself (note: that did not read PERMISSIVE) the easier it is for me to keep sight of my goals and not let one mistake, slip or moment of weakness turn into a day, week, or month's worth of binging, guilt and desperation.

Just a suggestion. I hope you know how much you are worth the hard-won benefits.

S.

[chrisie_20]

Re: I am back...again...and I have lost count on how many times this is.

Thanks guys, it is nice to know that I am getting a support team back!