ok
i fess up now
ive been bad
baaaaaaaad
and it's frustrating... i was in a stall, then I came to the states, and within the first 5 days, the scale said I dropped 4.5lbs, down to 168.5 wow!
and I got cocky. and started cheating
I hadn't cheated almost at all while I was at home!
I feel like I'm in the land of temptation here... one sinful treat after another... bombarded! It's really not like that in CR... I wasn't exposed to so much junk food!
and also, I'm back to living with my partner, and it's set way deep in my head that I like to pamper people, and that I like food for pampering... so I use that as an excuse....
been a terrible combination... I also got a bunch of coupon for free pies and desserts at a restaurant.... and they kill me... I'ma sucker for free food! I dont know why, but I dont have any resistance to free food... it's kinda gluttony combined with poverty/stinginess....
so, I've been away from the board for a while... I haven't even been lurking, i've just been ingoring the atkins side of me.
the only good thing is that I haven't DECIDED to go off, i just allow myself all kinds of outrageous cheats....
I also throw in emotional eating... being back in a place I dont like... in the middle of moving and finishing my thesis... great for excuses.
and I haven't even been getting my water in! on some days when I'm at school, it really gets hard, cause I dont wanto to be running to the bathroom every two seconds.
even the swimming has gone down....
bad baby
i dont know what it was, but I got really de-railed...
I haven't really decided to go clean either... I'm gonna be traveling to some very awkward places for a few weeks, and then moving, and then, and then, and then, and then....
i keep wishing i could get a nice steady routine going...
ok, so there's my rant, thanks for the ear!
i fess up now
ive been bad
baaaaaaaad
and it's frustrating... i was in a stall, then I came to the states, and within the first 5 days, the scale said I dropped 4.5lbs, down to 168.5 wow!
and I got cocky. and started cheating
I hadn't cheated almost at all while I was at home!
I feel like I'm in the land of temptation here... one sinful treat after another... bombarded! It's really not like that in CR... I wasn't exposed to so much junk food!
and also, I'm back to living with my partner, and it's set way deep in my head that I like to pamper people, and that I like food for pampering... so I use that as an excuse....
been a terrible combination... I also got a bunch of coupon for free pies and desserts at a restaurant.... and they kill me... I'ma sucker for free food! I dont know why, but I dont have any resistance to free food... it's kinda gluttony combined with poverty/stinginess....
so, I've been away from the board for a while... I haven't even been lurking, i've just been ingoring the atkins side of me.
the only good thing is that I haven't DECIDED to go off, i just allow myself all kinds of outrageous cheats....
I also throw in emotional eating... being back in a place I dont like... in the middle of moving and finishing my thesis... great for excuses.
and I haven't even been getting my water in! on some days when I'm at school, it really gets hard, cause I dont wanto to be running to the bathroom every two seconds.
even the swimming has gone down....
bad baby
i dont know what it was, but I got really de-railed...
I haven't really decided to go clean either... I'm gonna be traveling to some very awkward places for a few weeks, and then moving, and then, and then, and then, and then....
i keep wishing i could get a nice steady routine going...
ok, so there's my rant, thanks for the ear!






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