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Hi I am Jess, I am fat. I am most likely obese. I weight 220ish...and am 5'3, and I am 49 yrs old. I have not done well by my body for some time. The worst thing is, I have allowed my 15 yr old daughter follow in my footsteps. I am ashamed of that... I am facing this smack in the mirror. Don't get me wrong I am not trying to pummel myself, I am just admitting a truth you would easily see if my family walked by you in Wal Mart....
Speaking of Wal-Mart, I was there today. Doing some big shopping for food. My husband drove the cart for the first time in over a yr. My daughter was filling her WW approved foods...I was reading labels and such...
then it happened, a fat person walked by me. I stopped and saw myself.
This person was really non-descripted, I could not pick them out of a crowd. Yet I recognized everything about them, tight shorts, not moving easily, breathing a bit heavier. Not looking happy. They walked by and I did not think a thing about it, until a few moments later I was walking around a similar corner, and I "felt myself" moving. I have lost a lot of weight off my face, and in that moment I felt it, then I noticed I was walking straighter, and faster, and will a confidence of someone doing the right thing in there life... I "felt myself" I realized my carriage was completely different than even the last time i was in Wal Mart. I felt empowered and organized, and in control as I walked around the food side of walmart. I just felt another "new feeling you get on Atkins"...
I also walked around with a smile on my face all day long. At Walmart everybody is shopping and getting ready for school, it's a crazy day to be in Walmart, yet I smiled through it all, and hey I wondered why everybody else was not smiling...
These things are real, they are transitional, they are part of my new journey, and every once n a while, I sense thing special...May you have a moment like this, whether it's a pair of pants that fit, or you catch yourself in the mirror and there is change...or you getup and feel like you are feeling different, part of you is melted away....
May you rest and gather your strength for another week...Tomorrow is day 14 for me...I have some decisions to make and a scale to buy. I am sure I will have some feelings to share on all of that as I begin to read and assess what to do next....
Jess
Speaking of Wal-Mart, I was there today. Doing some big shopping for food. My husband drove the cart for the first time in over a yr. My daughter was filling her WW approved foods...I was reading labels and such...
then it happened, a fat person walked by me. I stopped and saw myself.
This person was really non-descripted, I could not pick them out of a crowd. Yet I recognized everything about them, tight shorts, not moving easily, breathing a bit heavier. Not looking happy. They walked by and I did not think a thing about it, until a few moments later I was walking around a similar corner, and I "felt myself" moving. I have lost a lot of weight off my face, and in that moment I felt it, then I noticed I was walking straighter, and faster, and will a confidence of someone doing the right thing in there life... I "felt myself" I realized my carriage was completely different than even the last time i was in Wal Mart. I felt empowered and organized, and in control as I walked around the food side of walmart. I just felt another "new feeling you get on Atkins"...
I also walked around with a smile on my face all day long. At Walmart everybody is shopping and getting ready for school, it's a crazy day to be in Walmart, yet I smiled through it all, and hey I wondered why everybody else was not smiling...
These things are real, they are transitional, they are part of my new journey, and every once n a while, I sense thing special...May you have a moment like this, whether it's a pair of pants that fit, or you catch yourself in the mirror and there is change...or you getup and feel like you are feeling different, part of you is melted away....
May you rest and gather your strength for another week...Tomorrow is day 14 for me...I have some decisions to make and a scale to buy. I am sure I will have some feelings to share on all of that as I begin to read and assess what to do next....
Jess
...Was in HEAVEN -got to 150, for awhile, then got too busy, and gave in too much... and... OK holding pattern "keep it together..." 
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