Time...

[DragonflyMoon]

I was thinking about time this afternoon... about how slow this seems to be going; this living "one day at a time" in this WOE... (which really is all we can do sometimes, right?)

When i look at how quickly my daughter is growing, it seems that time passes us by so fast. When i think back to March, when i went off of this WOE, i think of how fast that time went by... and if only i had stayed on track - where would i be now?

How often do we look back at time and think how quickly it has passed us by? And how if only we started this last year, or even 6 months ago, how fast that would have gone by and where would we be?

When i look into the future, to... let's say my birthday - i turn 32 in January... where will i be then? That seems so far off... but really it is only 4 or 5 months away... where will i be? Why does everything seem so dreadfully slow in the moment? I know when i look back in January to where i am today, it will seem as though it went by in a flash... how odd...

I was sharing my thoughts with my mom who is doing Weight Watchers. We were talking about food and about how it isn't worth it to cheat because food is temporary. She said that the feeling or sensation that the food in question brings us is fleeting. It isn't worth it because it is so temporary. You consume this "forbidden" food and then it is gone moments later. And then you crave that feeling or sensation again... and again... which is where i was from March to July. Was it worth it? NO. Can i take it back - NO. But i can move forward from where i am now... and take that wisdom to heart...

When we make these lengthly slip ups we need not beat ourselves up over it. We are gaining wisdom. Wisdom in ourselves & what we need or do not need along our journey to health. I suppose what we really need to do is to look at the underlying cause of these slipups. What is going on in our life at the time? What are we trying to heal through food? And then... what can we do instead? Because really we are just retraining ourselves now, aren't we?

Well, i guess i am just rambling on tonight... i had a bad afternoon & finally i am left alone for some peace & quiet, and i just wanted to come to the board to share my thoughts & feelings. I guess right now instead of turning to food for comfort... i am turning to you! So that is a step in the right direction...

[Outback Jess]

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Oh I love it, Jenna, you are getting, deep, pondering all the things that are alive and real, right under the surface of all of this. Time heals, time, teaches, and eventually time rewards us with wisdom...Wisdom is knowing what to do and when to do it. It is the seasoning, well desperately need. It's that thing in older people, they smile at us as we are young, and ranting and raving and bouncing around, it's wisdom in them that looks across at table at us, or holds our hands, and smilingly encourages us to be patient, or wait and see, or give it a try. It's that tiny little place of knowing that guides them, while we hastily flip thru manuals, trying to get it done or get there faster. When I was younger, I read my bible it says wisdom is to be gained above all else, the references abound on that statement. In my practical mind, I thought "Ok, where do you get it???" I have found, you get it throught TIME.
Time and experience. Sounds like you were looking in all the right places...
Good times to you
Jess

[RachelnLa]

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I journal to get it all out! once it's out.. it's gone. I release it. I use to stuff it down.. then hold it down there with food. I agree, time passes so fast. I look back at July 4 when I started this WOE. It's been 7 weeks. It has. That's almost 2 months. Two months have just flown by! I remember doing Atkins years ago for 6 months and rarely I struggle with foods, etc. But at the time, I'm sure I was living day by day too. You know that saying.. "The hardest year of marriage is the year you are in." The others are behind you and you made it.. kinda like birth.. it's hard as the dickens when it's happening.. and hurts.. then the pain becomes a blur and we focus on the ending - our child. I guess OWL is our pregnancy, premaintenance is our labor.. and lifetime is our birth. LOL I'm silly this morning. Forgive me. But I do totally agree.. no food high is gonna last long enough to be worth it!

[Sarah1341]

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I love that post Jenna! I feel the exact same way!

[sofarsogood]

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These posts are great!

One thing I can't wait for is the day that I stop wasting so much of my time concentrating on food and excercise - you know, the point when it will just be a part of me. I will wake up everyday and be a healthy eater and an active person without even thinking about it. Then I will have so much time for more "important" things (playing with my kids, being creative, starting a business, painting the house, figuring out the meaning of life, etc.).

It's gotta happen some day - right?

[DragonflyMoon]

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Thanks for your thoughts guys ~ you make me feel that i am not alone! Love you!

Jess ~ you are so right ~ wisdom is gained through time and experience. And that is really gained on a personal level, in your own personal journey. My father & i had a little joke about "wisdom" ~ he would always say, "I just can't understand why you don't want to benefit from my wisdom!" and i would tell him that i needed to come into my own... Anyway, when he passed away, i got "wisdom" tattooed on the back of my neck as a Chinese character - in memory of the wisdom between my dad and me... here is a picture:



Rachel ~ i love your comparison of our journey and a rebirth... you are not silly - i think that was really profound! I think you are right that we are indeed rebirthing ourselves.

Sofarsogood ~ i like what you said about the day when it just becomes a part of you - i wait for that day too!

[RachelnLa]

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That is so special. What a great way to keep your dad with you. And you are so right about learning our own wisdom. If it's handed to you, you never learn from it. Nothing worth having comes easily.

The phone man came to bury the line - I carried our small dog across the yard walking really fast and never got out of breath! I just realized that!!!! wow!

[DragonflyMoon]

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Awesome, Rachel!

[boonie stomper]

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The past may seem a blur, but if you learned something while passing through it, it stays with you. What a wonderful collection of posts from the soul - 5 stars worth!

[La_La]

Great Post, as always

That is so true and right on the money
" You consume this "forbidden" food and then it is gone moments later. And then you crave that feeling or sensation again... and again... which is where i was from March to July. Was it worth it? NO. Can i take it back - NO. But i can move forward from where i am now... and take that wisdom to heart..."

I can remember in Jan 2006 my new years resolution like any year, lose weight to be 150 by Valantines day to go out for that romantic dinner... it came and went..

Ok, then by 4th of July we can go camping and that came and went..

Ok, Fine then by Memorial Day... uhmp...That in a few weeks and I actually way more today than I did in January

Time does fly by, I remember still thinking about losing weight when my kid was a few months old.. he's now 4 and in school... I want to be at that point where I just get up in the morning I don't dread planning my meals or going to the gym .. .. I want to get up and it FEEL like a normal everyday event not a chore..


Great posts! and very well said - thought provoking..