Cheated...feel horrible!

[BiggestDawnEver]

OK, well I cheated today because it was more convenient than bringing my own. I could explain the whole thought process, and all my reasons and excuses, but that's what it boils down to. I didn't want to drag around a cooler all day, and I didn't want everyone to think I was a freak.
So I ate the provided lunch - sandwich, chips, and two cookies - and after lunch I was feeling a little tired, lethargic, headachy, and weak. Not overwhelmingly, but it was there nonetheless. So in my infinite wisdom, after my day at the team building course was over, and pretty pleased with myself because I had indeed gotten over the 14 foot wall, I had to go to ****-Mart and pick up stuff for work, and I thought well I've already cheated. Might as well go all the way. So I got a pint of Ben & Jerry's which I didn't even really want, I wasn't craving it. But I ate it ALL when I got home. I can't remember feeling so sick to my stomach. My stomach hurt, my head hurt, all the muscles I pulled today hurt, my sunburn hurt, my back and shoulders hurt...you get the picture. I am so miserable. I guess I learned my lesson. Back to square one (almost) tomorrow.
And my husband says...why do you have to start all over? I guess I just don't understand your diet! I said to him, Look. I just ate a WHOLE PINT of ice cream. That's going to take a while to work itself out of my system!
And I'm also planning on doing an extended induction but I was too miserable to go into a full explanation so I went and wandered the house in search of pain killers and maalox.
I can't WAIT to get back to eating right!!!! I now have a whole new and deeper appreciation of this WOE. I was unhappy before because I felt I wasn't losing weight fast enough, now I just want to get back to my real food!

[2big4mysize]

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actually hubby is right you could just go from where you are. Extended induction is just regular induction with added one ounce of nuts if you want them so just continue your induction eating, your daily exercise, water drinking, needed supplements and since you love WALMART shopping get a fanny cooler pack so you will look hip lugging your healthy Atkins food around with you and you too will be a big loser.

I have to ask couldn't you have done some preplanning by contacting the HR department before y9u went and discussed your dietary needs. I know cookies and such werent forced on any diabetics in your group.

happy low carbing

[Outback Jess]

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Hey Dawn, this was a hard day for you. The best thing you can do is face it. Question yourself and learn from it. You are very honest and that will serve you and your program. This was hard to read. I cannot imagine how hard it was to write...
Move on. I really want to encourage you to ask yourself why. You are bright, you will find your way thru.
Thanks for sharing it with us.

[Elsie150]

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((Dawn)) please remember how yucky you are feeling right now. Even journal it....or print out what you wrote and the next time you are tempted reread it and remember. You can do this.

The other thing I want to say is to not be afraid of starting to climb the rungs. It doesn't mean that you are going to stop losing. I KNOW this because I lose most of my 60 pounds last year climbing the rungs. It is a great place for adding variety to your diet and learning what works for your body. And gives you the most chance of success for keeping it off.

And one more thing. If you don't stand up for you and your health why should anyone else? You are WORTH IT! Stay strong!! You know you can do this.

One more hug before I go ((Dawn))

[futurefitbabe]

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We've all been there! Just learn the lesson and don't repeat the mistake!! (Talking to self...) You can do it!!!!

[BiggestDawnEver]

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Thanks everybody. I'm ashamed to admit what FFB and OJ already know...I cheated AGAIN. And I have been doing a LOT of thinking about why. No planning. I knew before I started induction this time that was a big part of it for me. If I have food ready then I will just eat that instead of what everyone else is eating or what is readily available. I even could have said NO at work and told my boss that I was going home for lunch. She would have been totally OK with that. But did I? No. I let the stress of moving and arguing with my husband over the stupid storage space take over and that old familiar, "Go ahead. Why do it the hard way? You deserve this." came back. So I took the path of least resistance which was eating the chips and salsa and fajitas.
Of course I know this food is not forced on anyone...one of the ladies in the accounting dept. can't eat anything with white flour in it, so she didn't eat anything, and another lady just picked out her fajita meat and mixed it in to her Lean Cuisine. I could have brought my salad fixins and put the fajita chicken on top very easily.
I didn't take the time to plan. I let my stress tell me what to eat. I messed up big time.
I'm coming back, though. From right now. I'm going to start again and not let this turn into a big downhill slide.
I have to make planning, and my own health, a priority, because like 2B said, no one else can or will.
Thanks so much everyone...for the suport, the encouragement, the tools you suggest, and the hugs. I needed it all!

[Slim-in-06]

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It is hard not to cheat for me too. So far so good but it is hard.

It is way easier to just give in and then say "I'll start over tomorrow..."

But tomorrow never comes for me. Ha,Ha.

Now this time I have been okay so far and I am just taking it day by day.

Don't beat yourself up though...just pick up and go again.

At least you are trying.

[Elsie150]

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Fail to plan, plan to fail.

I think you got it now! You can do it.

[Outback Jess]

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Biggest Dawn,
You are so good to come on here, and be open and honest. I look forward to hearing from you today, Sunday. I want to encourage you to take the time this weekend provides and get one step ahead of this next week...grocheries, cooking, preparing snacks, researching breakfast options...to go the receipt forum...that's where i found some differen things to try to eat.Read about ketosis, make that this weeks goal, getting there. Buy keto sticks and work towards that mini goal...
You can do this, I believe in you...but YOU have to do it, we can't...
WHen you start to plan, and get a string of days under your belt a new empowering will rise up, from the control, from the order, from the stepping out and getting ahead... You have to get up and step up and get ahead of each day...once you get that rthym going, once that motivation gets going, along with ketosis, you will feel incredible...Ketosis takes three days usually but the organization and new habits take a bit longer...Daily I feel on top of the world, but I am paying a price to get there...Up at the crack of dawn, while every one is asleep here. Up very early to have time here, to focus and plan to get ahead of my day. It' costs me my sleep time, but there is nothing more important than this time in my day, it's sets me up for success!
Set yourself up for success!!!