finding my footing

[RachelnLa]

I'm on the upswing of a few bad days. Nothing major.. just feel like I lost my footing and was having a hard time gaining control.

For the two week no weigh challenge I totally pushed myself and it worked. After I reached the goal.. well.. I relaxed a lil too much I guess. I spent so much time focused and achieving that I just needed a rest at the end. I need to pace myself. My weight loss journey is far from being over. I need to regain my inner strength and hold on tight again. I want that "nautural high" from working the program, exercising and drinking my water. I want that control.

I have written in my online journal and paper one.. I have been in deep thought and deep conversation with hubby about this. I feel myself gaining control again. But I want to understand what made me slip.. why did I relax so much? I don't want it to happen again. It's not a good feeling.

I"m over the hump.. . climbing back up again.. I will continue I can feel that inner core of strength coming back. This board is a great tool for success.

Have a great weekend everyone!!!

[cleochatra]

Re: finding my footing

Talking things through really helps you see things from a 'third party' perspective. I know it woke me up to read what I was writing. I'm so glad to see you're on the upswing! you're doing great!

[RachelnLa]

Re: finding my footing

Thanks.. this changing my way of eating has me working on and through things I never dreamed of! There is so much more than just losing weight

[dreamof145]

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Congratulations on taking the time to figure out what makes you slip and what you can do to prevent it from happening again. Whooopppeee, welcome back!!!

[cleochatra]

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I honestly believe weight loss or gain is a sympton of other, greater issues. You're figuring out the things which wilkl, then, affect your weight! In some ways, the weight loss is the least effort of the bunch! {{{you}}}

[2big4mysize]

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glad you are searching for the cause and getting back.

one thing we need to understand is our brains have food stored as drugs based on the reaction they give us when we are feeling certain ways cause many foods contain chenicals that mimic neurotransmitters so when you journal your eating remember to add the Ws who what when where why and how you felt before during after and again about an hour after eating the foods. you will be surprized what patternes emerge both people and even legal foods can trigger bad eating wantings as Dr Brain tries to fix what is bothering us.

[RachelnLa]

Re: finding my footing

one thing we need to understand is our brains have food stored as drugs based on the reaction they give us when we are feeling certain ways cause many foods contain chenicals that mimic neurotransmitters so when you journal your eating remember to add the Ws who what when where why and how you felt before during after and again about an hour after eating the foods. you will be surprized what patternes emerge both people and even legal foods can trigger bad eating wantings as Dr Brain tries to fix what is bothering us.

This speaks volumes. Daughter and I were talking and I was explaining how it was not THE food that I was after.. it was that high you get.. that feeling of .... comfort? high? satisfaction? etc.. that glorious feeling I was looking for.. that "pat on the back" for doing so well and losing 9 pounds! Well.. I never achieved that feeling. It never came. What did come was that feeling of despair, self hatred for messing up, and feeling of worthlessness. I freaked once I realized 9 pounds in two weeks.. I could jump almost 20 pounds in a month if I really worked on it!! I only need 21 more to be back where I was when I did Atkins the first time! That freaked me out. I dunno why though! Maybe cause that's where I was and just stopped? Relaxed too much? Then gained it almost all back?

I'm working on it.. I'm working.. I gotta change my way of thinking! In a month I could be back where I left off and CONTINUE losing and feelign better Positive thinking.. that's what I gotta do!

[2big4mysize]

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post here needing pats and folk will give you them

and while you are waiting for all the replies go work out!!!! that will produce some cool geting high on life chemicals in your body that will effectivly pat you on the pack for the great job you did.


One thing about ignoring Dr Brain when he prescribes food as medication is you have to give him an alternative "drug" so whatever you do decide to do when these things happen be consistant and your neural links to the food as drug for that will weaken and those to the new nonfood onew will strengthen. That saying about exercising your will power will make it stronger comes from this concept.

Make sure you identify the feeling cause if you corect for stress but were feeling tired you could make doc brain go into hypoerdrive prescvribing foods cause you didn't cure the original issue it was prescribing for.

[RachelnLa]

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Exactly 2Big! I think I'm freaking because I finally DO have control of my weight and it's scary. I am looking for other ways to pat myself.. but when I tried on smaller jeans while shopping.. it really freaking me out ..IT'S HAPPENING, IT'S REALLY HAPPENING!

This is what I've wanted.. now I have it.. why is it scaring me so much? I'm loopy

[2big4mysize]

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no you are not

check out the topic called psychological obesity GIna posted it way back in 2003.

it talkes about hiding in our "fat coats" and some for the reasons we do this and some of the distress we feel when we start to emerge from them.

[RachelnLa]

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I'm searching.. but coming up emtpy. That sounds very interesting! I really didn't think anyone else would understand.. though I don't know what I'd think that way!

[Elizellen]

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Here is a link to the post 2big mentioned
http://www.atkinsdietbulletinboard.c...ogical+obesity
It is in the Women's forum, so to access it you will need to become a member of that forum.

To do that first alter your signature so it states clearly you are female then pm Bren and ask her to subscribe you to it.

Or go to your 'User CP' and click on the 'Group memberships' link then click beside the forum's name to join the group.