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i've been asked to start a new thread to introduce myself to you guys so here goes:
I'm a pro-photographer (see my website www.astonimages.com) and lost some 26 lbs on the atkins diet about 18 months ago. i've established without a shadow of a doubt that it is the only regime for me and my body type. i am an emotional eater...a comfort eater, if you will, and recently have had all my good intentions and coping mechanism really put to the test.
in july i developed pneumonia, whilst on a shoot in s.africa and became really, really ill, finally collapsing. i had to be wheel-chaired home to the uk. whilst i was recovering at home my husband became very ill, and was finally diagnosed with a form of lymphatic cancer. i lost my darling son 12 years ago, aged 18 with cancer, so the shock of discovering that this nightmare was happening again was almost too much for us. my husband started chemo instantly and i suffered a mini-breakdown for a short while, subsequently marshalling some form of help so that i could be strong and support my husband. one of the things that my husband's diagnosis has done, is for me to keep having flashbacks to my son's illness and subsequent death. however, and here's the crunch, after his diagnosis i took to food like a starving carbaholic. my husband had lost 22 lbs, and it was my mission to put the weight back on him, which i have done. the only problem for me was that all these forbidden foods were in the house, and i literally stuffed myself, as this was my only form of comfort, putting on 20 lbs.
anyway, the good news is that my husband has put all the weight back on and then some, due to the steroids he's taking, so all that forbidden food is no longer in my house. i have tried and failed 6, yes that's right....6 times to stick to the induction phase in the last few weeks, but for some reason, and i don't know why, i feel stronger these last couple of weeks, and am trying yet again....i'm on day 3 of the induction phase. i've stocked the fridge with induction friendly foods, and have slowly built my stamina up to my usual 4 mile walks which i do about 3-4 times a week. i'm slowly feeling that i'm in charge of my ife, not life bing in charge of me....and it's a great feeling. my husband is halfway through his chemo, and we don't know what the prognosis is yet, but i feel that in some small way, if i can take charge of my addiction to carbs, and do the exercise, then i will be a stonger person for it, and will perhaps be better able to cope with whatever life throws at me.
thank you for reading this, and thank you for giving me the forum to express my fears and my hopes.
I'm a pro-photographer (see my website www.astonimages.com) and lost some 26 lbs on the atkins diet about 18 months ago. i've established without a shadow of a doubt that it is the only regime for me and my body type. i am an emotional eater...a comfort eater, if you will, and recently have had all my good intentions and coping mechanism really put to the test.
in july i developed pneumonia, whilst on a shoot in s.africa and became really, really ill, finally collapsing. i had to be wheel-chaired home to the uk. whilst i was recovering at home my husband became very ill, and was finally diagnosed with a form of lymphatic cancer. i lost my darling son 12 years ago, aged 18 with cancer, so the shock of discovering that this nightmare was happening again was almost too much for us. my husband started chemo instantly and i suffered a mini-breakdown for a short while, subsequently marshalling some form of help so that i could be strong and support my husband. one of the things that my husband's diagnosis has done, is for me to keep having flashbacks to my son's illness and subsequent death. however, and here's the crunch, after his diagnosis i took to food like a starving carbaholic. my husband had lost 22 lbs, and it was my mission to put the weight back on him, which i have done. the only problem for me was that all these forbidden foods were in the house, and i literally stuffed myself, as this was my only form of comfort, putting on 20 lbs.
anyway, the good news is that my husband has put all the weight back on and then some, due to the steroids he's taking, so all that forbidden food is no longer in my house. i have tried and failed 6, yes that's right....6 times to stick to the induction phase in the last few weeks, but for some reason, and i don't know why, i feel stronger these last couple of weeks, and am trying yet again....i'm on day 3 of the induction phase. i've stocked the fridge with induction friendly foods, and have slowly built my stamina up to my usual 4 mile walks which i do about 3-4 times a week. i'm slowly feeling that i'm in charge of my ife, not life bing in charge of me....and it's a great feeling. my husband is halfway through his chemo, and we don't know what the prognosis is yet, but i feel that in some small way, if i can take charge of my addiction to carbs, and do the exercise, then i will be a stonger person for it, and will perhaps be better able to cope with whatever life throws at me.
thank you for reading this, and thank you for giving me the forum to express my fears and my hopes.
Micki!! 
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