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Here I am sulking back with my tail between my legs its been along time and about +30 pounds since I was here last 
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I got on the scale this morning to find I'm at my highest weight EVER even higher that when I was preg with either one of my kids Arggg I am 5'1 and as of this morning an even 185 pounds I was only 181 at the end of my preg with DD !!!. So here I am and I'm ready to give it another try.
I am so sick of being over weight and hiding from people I want to like my body again and not feel like everyone is looking at me and thinking "boy she got fat !" I want to feel self confident again I want to have more energy and feel healthy and I want to fit back into my old clothes ect...
This WOL worked for me before and I hope it will again.
I know I have to start enjoying what I can have food wise and not obsessing with everything I can't that's my biggest problem and the main reason I left this WOL before. Its so easy to talk myself into food and why its "okay" to eat all the junk I mean one little cookie cant hurt right ? Wrong !!! man can a persons mind play tricks with them and I'm sure before this first 2 weeks are over I will have to fight the selfdestruction side of myself more than once but I know the rewards of sticking with it will be far better than what will happen if I don't I just need to practice telling myself that during the cravings.
I am sick with an ear infection at the moment and I wasn't going to start this WOL till I was better but then I realized that I was only using that as an excuse to keep eating the way that I am and once I get better I'm sure I would be able to come up with another excuse and another after that ... so today is the day ! NO MORE EXCUSES !
I feel like I'm out of control with my eating and as of today I'm taking back hold of the wheel. I know its going to be hard I just have to learn to stick with it. I am ready this time and I know I can do it.
You know I just reread what I wrote before I posted and reading this I would think I hard everything under control. I know what I need to do and how I need to do it so why is it I forget all of this during a craving ??? Why am I at the weight I'm at right now ??? Why do I fight myself over food ??? Why is it I feel the need to feel stuffed and not satisfied ??? Why is it so hard ??? .................. I hope I find the answer so that I can finally get control of my life again.
So today is day 1 and I will weigh myself again next Thursday.
.I got on the scale this morning to find I'm at my highest weight EVER even higher that when I was preg with either one of my kids Arggg I am 5'1 and as of this morning an even 185 pounds I was only 181 at the end of my preg with DD !!!. So here I am and I'm ready to give it another try.
I am so sick of being over weight and hiding from people I want to like my body again and not feel like everyone is looking at me and thinking "boy she got fat !" I want to feel self confident again I want to have more energy and feel healthy and I want to fit back into my old clothes ect...
This WOL worked for me before and I hope it will again.
I know I have to start enjoying what I can have food wise and not obsessing with everything I can't that's my biggest problem and the main reason I left this WOL before. Its so easy to talk myself into food and why its "okay" to eat all the junk I mean one little cookie cant hurt right ? Wrong !!! man can a persons mind play tricks with them and I'm sure before this first 2 weeks are over I will have to fight the selfdestruction side of myself more than once but I know the rewards of sticking with it will be far better than what will happen if I don't I just need to practice telling myself that during the cravings.
I am sick with an ear infection at the moment and I wasn't going to start this WOL till I was better but then I realized that I was only using that as an excuse to keep eating the way that I am and once I get better I'm sure I would be able to come up with another excuse and another after that ... so today is the day ! NO MORE EXCUSES !
I feel like I'm out of control with my eating and as of today I'm taking back hold of the wheel. I know its going to be hard I just have to learn to stick with it. I am ready this time and I know I can do it.
You know I just reread what I wrote before I posted and reading this I would think I hard everything under control. I know what I need to do and how I need to do it so why is it I forget all of this during a craving ??? Why am I at the weight I'm at right now ??? Why do I fight myself over food ??? Why is it I feel the need to feel stuffed and not satisfied ??? Why is it so hard ??? .................. I hope I find the answer so that I can finally get control of my life again.
So today is day 1 and I will weigh myself again next Thursday.
I feel your pain on that one. Just take it one day and one pound at a time. We can all do this!!
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