Goodmorning STACers,
Who has their christmas tree up? Made it through the holiday yesterday, today is all about family photos...Photograher is coming at 11. this is the 2nd yr in a row we are doing this...Mother wants them... its rather strange we have been a family that doesn't do this..I have a feeling now that I look "presentable" in her eyes, she wants to redo last years. My Mom has been very open in her displeasure about how I let myself go. She has been known to say, with my obesity, I am a failure. In that arena, I have been a complete failure, not to be trusted soul. Last year I was obsese. I was so unhappy, trying to make a smile. I was hiding behind my husband...irritated by the remarks constantly being made by my sister and her insecurities...
I just wanted to HIDE, embarassed and ashamed of myself. True to form, I bit the bullit and faced it in silence.
So, here we are again today, pictures. Finding something that fits will be the real challenge. I am at the last of my small shirts.
The holiday yesterday was a good day. I barely ate, as that food is not my favorite. My DD struggled all day long, she just wanted everything she cannot eat. Grumpy, mopy and hiding out in her TV shows...BUT SHE MADE IT THROUGH!!!!!! I am so proud of her, as she matures in this process.
Hey to all my friends here at STAC
Who has their christmas tree up? Made it through the holiday yesterday, today is all about family photos...Photograher is coming at 11. this is the 2nd yr in a row we are doing this...Mother wants them... its rather strange we have been a family that doesn't do this..I have a feeling now that I look "presentable" in her eyes, she wants to redo last years. My Mom has been very open in her displeasure about how I let myself go. She has been known to say, with my obesity, I am a failure. In that arena, I have been a complete failure, not to be trusted soul. Last year I was obsese. I was so unhappy, trying to make a smile. I was hiding behind my husband...irritated by the remarks constantly being made by my sister and her insecurities...
I just wanted to HIDE, embarassed and ashamed of myself. True to form, I bit the bullit and faced it in silence.
So, here we are again today, pictures. Finding something that fits will be the real challenge. I am at the last of my small shirts.
The holiday yesterday was a good day. I barely ate, as that food is not my favorite. My DD struggled all day long, she just wanted everything she cannot eat. Grumpy, mopy and hiding out in her TV shows...BUT SHE MADE IT THROUGH!!!!!! I am so proud of her, as she matures in this process.
Hey to all my friends here at STAC





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