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I was that person who did Atkins for a year straight without one cheat. I was exercising 4 times a day, a complete zealot about my food. I lost 50 lbs, and got down to only 7lbs away from goal. I looked and felt amazing. I was an active member of ADBB. (Look: My last before and afters). And I couldn’t understand – maybe even looked down on – those people who weren’t able to follow the program and who were caught in cycles of cheating.
HAH. Talk about eating my words.
When I realized that I was going to finish this year about 7lbs heavier than I was when I started it, I realized how bad a year this has been, Atkins-wise. I decided when I hit pre-maintenance that I could be more liberal with the good carbs… the quinoa, the wild rice, the Scottish Oatmeal. The carb-a-holic came roaring back to life as soon as I started that. I haven’t been able to shake her since. And the carbs I began ingesting became considerably worse than those good carbs… lets just say that for the first time in over a year I ate donuts. And french fries. And CORN SYRUP (in a cake I myself made). Yes, I know. How did I ever get to that place?
I’ve tried dozens of times to get back on track. One of those times I did really well for a month and a half, and actually got amazingly close to my goal weight. But the long-haul ahead of me, in terms of re-climbing the rungs, got the best of me. It was a month and a half without the berries I had become so used to, and the legumes I had gotten used to, and I eventually decided, screw this, I can figure out my “own way” that will allow me to eat those foods.
Needless to say, my NUMEROUS attempts at my “own way” does not work. I realized again this morning that I really and truly am a carb-o-holic. I’ve been in denial for almost a year. I hope this is my wake-up call.
I weigh today what I weighed in August 2005. 155.5lbs. At my lowest, I was 137 lbs. My goal weight is 130 lbs. Good lord, that’s 26 lbs I have to re-lose. I’m so angry with myself!
I could really use a buddy, who will essentially ride me each day to ensure I’m keeping on, keeping on. Any takers?
HAH. Talk about eating my words.
When I realized that I was going to finish this year about 7lbs heavier than I was when I started it, I realized how bad a year this has been, Atkins-wise. I decided when I hit pre-maintenance that I could be more liberal with the good carbs… the quinoa, the wild rice, the Scottish Oatmeal. The carb-a-holic came roaring back to life as soon as I started that. I haven’t been able to shake her since. And the carbs I began ingesting became considerably worse than those good carbs… lets just say that for the first time in over a year I ate donuts. And french fries. And CORN SYRUP (in a cake I myself made). Yes, I know. How did I ever get to that place?
I’ve tried dozens of times to get back on track. One of those times I did really well for a month and a half, and actually got amazingly close to my goal weight. But the long-haul ahead of me, in terms of re-climbing the rungs, got the best of me. It was a month and a half without the berries I had become so used to, and the legumes I had gotten used to, and I eventually decided, screw this, I can figure out my “own way” that will allow me to eat those foods.
Needless to say, my NUMEROUS attempts at my “own way” does not work. I realized again this morning that I really and truly am a carb-o-holic. I’ve been in denial for almost a year. I hope this is my wake-up call.
I weigh today what I weighed in August 2005. 155.5lbs. At my lowest, I was 137 lbs. My goal weight is 130 lbs. Good lord, that’s 26 lbs I have to re-lose. I’m so angry with myself!
I could really use a buddy, who will essentially ride me each day to ensure I’m keeping on, keeping on. Any takers?
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