Atkins Again

[Uniquely_Ambi]

I know I keep doing this and I'm sorry. I come on here, say I'm back on Atkins, within days I fall off the wagon and dissapear and then I come back a few months later and do the same thing.

Not being on this WOE has made me go from 180 lbs. to 303 lbs. in a year and a half. I can't believe I weigh over 300 lbs, but I do. I am on Atkins again.

This is very hard for me. I'm very angry that I let myself gain that much weight when I was only 30 lbs. from goal. I'm very angry that I can't eat the carbs that I want. I'm angry that I have an unhealthy relationship with food. This time I will succeed.

What's different this time? Well, I HAVE to lose weight. My hubby puts on my socks and shoes because I just can't anymore *cries*. It's only getting worse. I am only 26, not that it's okay to weigh this much at any age.

I've joined Overeaters Annonymous (I guess posting this doesn't make me very annonymous). They support this WOE and believe that carbs are the downfall of a compulsive overeater. I have found my home in this group. I feel like I'm around people who understand me.

I'm here again and almost done with day 4 of induction. I saw a cheesecake recipe that looks delish that I might try this weekend. This is very hard being on induction because I have a bad attitude. I don't "want" to be on Atkins I feel like I "have" to be on Atkins. Once I lose some weight and get rid of the cravings, I know I'll love Atkins as much as I did my first time around. I am working on an attitude adjustment.

I am also bipolar. I'm on meds, which helps, but I can still be pretty moody. Gotta make sure I don't fall off the wagon during my highs and lows.

I want to thank you all in advance for all the support you'll be giving me. I hope that when I start losing weight and feeling better about myself I can give back. One day at a time!

[Laurenfra]

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Welcome Back Amber. I am glad to see you again

[PigsInSpace]

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I so know what you're talking about when it comes to being angry. Food addiction is harder than meth, crack, coke, and heroin combined. When you committ to this lifestyle change, your life changes for the better. You've done it before, you can do it again. Get back on that wagon, you're with good company. I become angry all the time that I can't have bread and pizza. You simply have to allow for the anger to happen, make room for it, and work through it.

You don't have a choice. People are depending on you. Stay with us and check in everyday. AND...........

CONGRATULATIONS on being 3 days in! You are probably just about in Ketosis now and then it's alllllll working FOR YOU!

Please keep your head up. We are ALL in the same boat!!

[dreamof145]

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Hi Amber. Welcome back. You're not alone here. Getting serious about losing the weight is easier when you are among friends...thats why this board is so great. We are all learning as we go. If you make a mistake...jump right back into the WOE the very next meal. Don't quit on yourself. You can do it.

Make a plan to include this WOE/exercise into your life that fits around your schedule. Join the journals and make committments to yourself - discuss it with the other members. Do some of the challenges - get involved and stay motivated. Write out the reasons that made you quit previously and make solutions to those occassions now. Don't wait for an obstacle to come up and then not have a plan to conquer it. We are at our weakest point when we are without a backup plan. We are all here for you. Atkins really works...we just have to become comfortable with the program and change our bad habits into healthy ones. Best wishes!! Keep us posted on your progress!

[Wonder Woman]

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Amber,

Yup, I know exactly what you mean about the anger. It took me 3 years to come back to this WOL and during that time, I had so many mental things to work through: why do I have to eat this way and some people don't? why don't I get to have a choice - why can't I just cut back on serving sizes? I really had to except that I have no choice. Just like someone who has a food allergy and can't eat something, *I* can't eat certain things and some of them, I might never get to eat again. But I still didn't want to except that. All the weight I gained over those 3 years made me realize that Atkins IS the only thing that works for me and I just have no choice to do it. I have a SUGAR addiction and the only way to break it is to get off of sugar.

I think a lot of us have gotten to that point where we realize that we have no choice and we just have to do this. We find the foods we love that we can't eat on other diets and we are thankful that we get to eat those wholesome, nutrition, delicious food.

Now, whenever you are feeling down or feeling like eating something that you know you shouldn't, PLEASE come here and post! We are here for you!!!!

[Uniquely_Ambi]

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Thank you all so much for the welcome. It's nice to know I'm not alone in all this. Day 5 is almost over!

[Outback Jess]

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Hi Amber! I am proud of you girl. You Rock! As your avatar says! We know the struggle, and the anger and the "deal-making" that doesn't work. I've been to OA. I lost all my weight there too. I've been with Atkins 3 times, and lost all the weight before too, got with in 20lbs too. I can relate to "this time"...

I have a list of "this times" they are all based on the "last times"... My biggest point is, "THIS TIME, I'M NOT DOING IT LIKE LAST TIME". Lifestlyle is my goal. I know I am addicted to foods and have a long history of an unbalanced relationship with them. That's my knowledge that use to empower me to move towards a better place.

I am so proud of you because you are using this same type knowledge to move yourself thru 5 days. To begin to get ahold...I believe soon your anger will be replaced by relief that Atkins brings, and joy at weight loss. ATKINS DOES GIVE US SOMETHING IN REPLACEMENT FOR THE CARBS WE ARE GIVING UP! Cling to the things you are getting...soon energy will be there and diminished appetite will be there and cravings will subside. Weight loss will begin to occure and you will be more satisfied on the foods you are eating. Control will start to take root in your life again! That's the best part of all, and then you can see the POSSIBILITY OF THIS BEING A WAY OF LIFE. Thats what's up ahead, as you leave your disappointing past behind...

[HeidiE]

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Oh honey I am glad to see you keep on trying!!!

so you start and stop ..there must be something about this that keeps you coming back

hmmmm let's review....

1. it works
2. you get to eat really really well
3. it works
4. you can always come back and try again ..no one is going to judge you at all for your efforts
5. it works
6. it works

welcome back

[Wonder Woman]

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Anger turning into relief....that is a great way to describe it! I definitely feel that way this time. It takes time to get to that point but it's so great to be there.

[iPamela]

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Welcome Amber!
I read your story and so much of it sounded just like me. I was on Atkins well over a year ago and lost 67lbs! Then things happened and I stopped my plan - went back to my old ways.

I know I am truly addicted to food. No doubt about it. I have gained all of my weight back plus a few more extra pounds.

It makes me so angry with myself. I almost hate myself for allowing myself to go back and gain all this weight. I do am having trouble with moving around, getting short of breath and feeling like crap. I'm not as young as you are but still no one should weigh as much as I do. It's just not healthy and it certainly doesn't make me happy.

I am so happy you are back. I restarted my plan this past Tuesday. So far it's going well. I just keep thinking about how I looked before - when I had lost that weight - how great that felt - and I compare it to now....

I know I have to lose weight or I will probably die young. I have 3 children. I don't want to die and leave them and never see what becomes of them.

You have your entire future ahead of you - take hold of it - embrace. Accept the fact that you slipped - just like many of us - but the best thing is that you recognize that it's time to start again. You know the power of Atkins!!!!

We are all here together - in the same boat. I can feel your pain and anger. But just take one day at a time and keep coming to this board for support and advice.

I look forward to hearing your success story in the days and months to come!!! I know you can do it!!!

Best wishes!!!

Pamela