stressing out

[lisadallasr]

Im just having to post here i already posted in my journal but since a lot of people dont read it im going to post what is going on here. Ok im having the worst feeling of dread come over me because im feeling that same familiar feeling to binge not sure why and it scares me, i know that sounds crazy because im in control here but it is consuming my mind right at this moment, im not really hungry or anything and am not craving it just hit me though when i did some errands earlier and almost turned into a fast food restaurant that i literally forced myself to just keep on driving until i got home and could log on here. I know this morning i was upset because when i got on the scale it says i have gained 8lbs over the weekend now i know in reality thats not true that it could be a number of things for one i did not get all my water in over the weekend so i could be retaining and i forgot to take my blood pressure early yesterday which has a water pill in it so i just maybe have not released all the water but im not swelling nowhere so i dont really know if it is water retention or not, but i did stay on plan over the weekend as far as my food choices go, if anything i did not eat as much as usual because i ran around alot this weekend. I dont know what is going on with me, i have felt pretty strong to be honest but this feeling is worst than having a craving because i dont know where it is coming from and im not craving a certain thing here i just want to eat something that i know i should not eat. Im going to go walk to a walking video and hopefully this feeling will pass!!!

[kylie]

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I am sorry that you are having a rough morning. Hang in there - I think doing your walking workout is an excellent choice of activity. I hope it will do the trick and get your mind off of the other. As for the 8 pounds - if you didn't take your BP meds - I am betting that has a lot to do with it along with the lower water intake over the weekend...get to chugging your water today and get your meds in and I bet that 8 pounds disappears as quickly as it showed up! You're doing great! Just hold on through this rough spot and you will be even better for it!

[Miss Phode]

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Lisa. Go for a walk. Eat something high fat. Find something to do with your hands. You can do this. You are beautiful, and on your way to being thin too! (((((hugs))))) You deserve to succeed

[Outback Jess]

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Lisa, girl...You did a good job of getting here and sharing that binge feeling...it's a crazy one when it comes upon you....Remember that the scale is probably really reflecting the retained water from lack of BP meds... I agree, and hopefully you have had a good workout, which will actually decrease your appetite and surpress the physical, but you still have that mental and emotional to deal with! But you can do it, we are here for you, and you are sooo strong!
Hang in there and keep us informed...

[lisadallasr]

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Hi everyone, ok i did it and ate off plan, im so sorry you guys, i cant even begin to tell you how im feeling right now, i just sat there and kept trying to tell myself no not to do it and i ended up doing it before i could think about it anymore. Dont know what else to say i guess i thought i was strong but now i guess im not as strong as i thought, i need to really look at myself here, at my goals and really find some inner strength and get it together before i unravel all the way. I know i can do this but i really need to deal with my food addiction i guess because i know that i want to lose weight so this is not a moment where do you really want this or not this is a moment of feeling weak when it comes to food, i almost felt like someone on drugs today and was going through detox or something i dont know ive never been on drugs im just imagining that what i was feeling today was it, i felt as though i was fighting something on the inside of me and it won sad to say but it did and now im having to confront you all and myself because its easier to just walk away but that is something i know i dont want to do.

[ValidRouge]

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Don't you DARE walk away!!!! We'd have to come after you Mafia style...you don't leave the family yanno? LOL

Okay. You did it. What do you do about it?

You get yourself a big glass of water, and start drinking it and get yourself back on plan with the VERY NEXT BITE. You don't deprive yourself anymore today, but you don't allow any more of bad foods either. You make your next bite delicious and ON PLAN...and you don't throw in the towel. This is part of learning how to deal for the rest of your life. How are you gonna deal today, Lisa?

[lisadallasr]

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Oh joy im not going to walk away, believe me im here so you all will just have to deal with me and my craziness!!! I am drinking water and feeling like crap i guess i deserve that though i did it to myself and i really hate this feeling, im bloated and all but i knew that would happen and i guess if i look back at it i said i was not craving but i guess i was and it was bread, because the whole time i was thinking of going to a fast food restaurant that is what i was wanting was a burger with the bun and i made turkey burgers last night that i ate in a lettuce wrap so i still had 2 left here and that is what i ate off plan was i ate those on bread today instead of the lettuce which to me taste really good so not sure what the deal is with the bread and why i wanted it so bad. I did try the spaghetti squash last night that i thought was really good and i have some of that in there left over and i have salmon laying out so that is what i plan on eating for dinner so im going to get right back on plan but i know i will have a day or so of cravings come my way from this mess up that i caused.

[ValidRouge]

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My cheats have pretty much all revolved around bread. I'm not sure why except that there really isn't a substitute...I don't know. Just get back to your plan, Lisa. That's all you can do.

The worst that's going to happen is you might get knocked out of ketosis, and it'll take a couple days to get back to it...but that's okay.

[Lyssie]

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Hi, yeah, ditto to what Joy said. Back on plan with the next bite and drink that darn water!!!! Hook a hose up to the tap and stick it in your mouth if ya gotta!!

[PigsInSpace]

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Oh bread. Sweet, lucious, butter warm demon food. You can put a plate of chocolate delights in front of me or any sweet in the world and I could just stare at it and barely feel even a little bit of yearning to eat it. But you put a nice soft, warm loaf of steaming, buttery bread in front of me and I fall weak to my knees.

So what do you do, beat yourself up about it? Bread is delicious, everyone loves bread. Listen, Lisa, some bread on a turkey burger is NOT the end of the world here. Don't you dare stat beating your beautiful self up. You are trying to improve yourself here, that is the first step to recovery. You are to be commended for admitting, realizing and educating yourself about this problem. You seem like a fantastic mother with fashion sense and real brains to know that you need to get healthy. There are bumps and turns and twists all the time. Feel no remorse, just get back on track. Whenever I've gone off plan, I beat myself up about it so much that I used feeling crappy about myself as an excuse to contine eating poo food, as I call it.


I've gone off plan and had some bread before. It didn't knock me out of ketosis. It almost did, but it didn't. Just stop, right now, and don't eat anymore junk! Stay with us, we're ALL in this together!

[ValidRouge]

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One thing I want to add...

Lisa, you are to be COMMENDED for coming here and seeking support. That shows just how important this is to you. You are on the right track. Really.

When you are driving your car, sometimes you get distracted, you may even weave a little over onto the right side or the left side, but you immediately correct and keep going. Think about it like that.

[julirama723]

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Lisa, first off, it took major courage to come on here and post EXACTLY how you were feeling, what was going through your mind, and confessing to eating that darn bread. You clearly have the drive and the determination to do this! You WILL do it, because your heart is in the right place and your head is on straight.

You're drinking your water, you've got your legal food planned, you're all set! Way to go on making the next bite legal and not falling into a downward spiral.

Keep on going, Lisa! You can do it!