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Good morning STACers, it's Sunday morning, I'm up early and have been pondering a thought. Many of you don't know, but I've been in a health crisis cycle with my mother since Christmas. Before Christmas I was "Scooter", in that I came here everymorning and started the post...Since Christmas, as my Mom's primary caregiver, I've been in and out of the hospital with her 3 times, been through 2 nursing homes and now (after an amazing turn around, where we all thought she would die) I've brought my very bed-bound mother home to care for her. In the course of this 4 month odyssey, I have clung to Atkins, eating low carb, finding low carb options, loosing more weight, I've clung to exercing each day, even when I was sleeping in the hospital I would climb stairs, and I have worked hard to maintain at least 50% water intake.
I have never cheated on sugars, never broken down and eating anything outside the program-NO WHITE STUFF!, period, never gave up because "its too hard at this time". But at times, I have allowed myself more carbs, and every once in a while frankenfoods.
I never missed more than 2 days of exercise in a row. A few times I could not exercise due to extreme exhaustion.
I have eaten things for comfort and enjoyment and or convienence and yet I've still lost weight in the midst of this extremely trying time.
Now we are home and I am seeking to restore control, no more sodas, no more sugar free gum, no more "treats" less eating on the run, and now focusing on creating good meals again. But it's taking alot of effort. Because my carb count has been unmonitored and higher, I've struggled alot with cravings (because I'm out of that lovely Ketosis!)...and its been a mental battle.
Last night I made mexican stuff, and had some low carb tortillas and I said to myself, "well in order to have that, you are going to have to pay for it with extra exercise" (a new personal rule that does two things, makes me pay, and allows me to slowly rebuild my fitness levels)...I went down and did the elliptical. My family rolled their eyes, and I said, "it about keeping control in my life".
Normal people use exercise often to help hold their weight so they can eat...Runners are notorious for running so they can eat anything. I'm not going to do that- run to eat anything, because there are things I can't eat without loosing total control....
For me control is everything, managing control, using things I like to do-exercise wise- to keep control and or add control.
Some people use water as a control factor, it keeps them full and occupied...its agressive. Some people extend induction for control sake. My friend Lisa, who recently lost control as she lost her father, has regained control by committing to daily exercise and she is now back in ketosis, get my point here? It's a 3 pronged deal, food, water, exercise....one of those places it's probably easier to grab hold of, and then the others tend to follow. But, it's about control, getting it, and staying in control!
What I don't want to do is be here next year saying, "Oh I was here for a long time, then my mom got sick, and I just couldn't do it!"....See, I can do it. I can keep myself on plan, work hard, maybe I can't loose weight right now, but I certainly don't have to throw it all a way because it's hard in my life...The trick is maintaining in the daily challenges...maintaining!
I have never cheated on sugars, never broken down and eating anything outside the program-NO WHITE STUFF!, period, never gave up because "its too hard at this time". But at times, I have allowed myself more carbs, and every once in a while frankenfoods.
I never missed more than 2 days of exercise in a row. A few times I could not exercise due to extreme exhaustion.
I have eaten things for comfort and enjoyment and or convienence and yet I've still lost weight in the midst of this extremely trying time.
Now we are home and I am seeking to restore control, no more sodas, no more sugar free gum, no more "treats" less eating on the run, and now focusing on creating good meals again. But it's taking alot of effort. Because my carb count has been unmonitored and higher, I've struggled alot with cravings (because I'm out of that lovely Ketosis!)...and its been a mental battle.
Last night I made mexican stuff, and had some low carb tortillas and I said to myself, "well in order to have that, you are going to have to pay for it with extra exercise" (a new personal rule that does two things, makes me pay, and allows me to slowly rebuild my fitness levels)...I went down and did the elliptical. My family rolled their eyes, and I said, "it about keeping control in my life".
Normal people use exercise often to help hold their weight so they can eat...Runners are notorious for running so they can eat anything. I'm not going to do that- run to eat anything, because there are things I can't eat without loosing total control....
For me control is everything, managing control, using things I like to do-exercise wise- to keep control and or add control.
Some people use water as a control factor, it keeps them full and occupied...its agressive. Some people extend induction for control sake. My friend Lisa, who recently lost control as she lost her father, has regained control by committing to daily exercise and she is now back in ketosis, get my point here? It's a 3 pronged deal, food, water, exercise....one of those places it's probably easier to grab hold of, and then the others tend to follow. But, it's about control, getting it, and staying in control!
What I don't want to do is be here next year saying, "Oh I was here for a long time, then my mom got sick, and I just couldn't do it!"....See, I can do it. I can keep myself on plan, work hard, maybe I can't loose weight right now, but I certainly don't have to throw it all a way because it's hard in my life...The trick is maintaining in the daily challenges...maintaining!
You are AWESOME! That is a huge accomplishment to have stuck with this during such a sad, trying time!! 
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