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I made lunch for the ranch crew today. On the menu... crock pot round steaks, salad, green beans, and homemade mac & cheese, with a banana cake for dessert.
The main problem with this menu? Lack of sleep last night. I'm at my very worst when I'm tired and carbs call to me for that sugar rush. I know it's exactly what I don't need... but they call anyway.
After everyone left, the mac & cheese sounded soooo good, and the cake was looking unbelievably yummy. I dished up the meat and salad, plus a bit of mac and cheese. Just a little wouldn't hurt, eh?
While eating the meat and salad I kept eyeing the cake and arguing with myself. Trying to figure out how much I could get away with eating (1/2 a slice wouldn't be AS bad... or maybe just 1/3? ...knowing it always leads to a binge)
The good stuff (meat/salad) was slowly working on bringing me back to my senses. And it was a fight! I love flaxcakes with berries and cream -- but I didn't want that.... I wanted the cake. Finally an old visualization technique kicked in from out of nowhere (well, not really. From my good, thin, healthy, atkins-fanatic self I knew in the past
) ....and salt and pepper were mentally covering the cake. Then dirt. And then little sugar ants scurrying through it!!
Gross enough with just the salt and pepper, but now that cake is safe in the freezer for next time I need it for others. For me... there is NO WAY I'm getting near that cake with all those insects in it!!!!!
btw- I must have a guardian angel looking after me today. This morning I had picked up a cookie to eat (stressed, tired and busy) and the phone rang. I put it in my mouth to hold (didn't bite it) as I picked up the phone and put something else down. (funny - why wasn't the cookie the thing I put down?? yeah, right...) So who was on the phone but my mother... my saving grace I report to on how I'm doing! I instantly threw the cookie in the garbage, was embarrassed and laughing at the same time.
And yep... still went on to almost cheat later. Knowing I couldn't lie to mom, but maybe I could avoid talking to her for a while??? Sheesh!!
Two victories today (one by default). They seem huge to me and I am thoroughly enjoying them. Dished up some green beans and added fresh creamy butter to finish off my lunch, and will be having either flaxcakes or berries and cream for a snack this afternoon.
~ Linda
The main problem with this menu? Lack of sleep last night. I'm at my very worst when I'm tired and carbs call to me for that sugar rush. I know it's exactly what I don't need... but they call anyway.
After everyone left, the mac & cheese sounded soooo good, and the cake was looking unbelievably yummy. I dished up the meat and salad, plus a bit of mac and cheese. Just a little wouldn't hurt, eh?
While eating the meat and salad I kept eyeing the cake and arguing with myself. Trying to figure out how much I could get away with eating (1/2 a slice wouldn't be AS bad... or maybe just 1/3? ...knowing it always leads to a binge)
The good stuff (meat/salad) was slowly working on bringing me back to my senses. And it was a fight! I love flaxcakes with berries and cream -- but I didn't want that.... I wanted the cake. Finally an old visualization technique kicked in from out of nowhere (well, not really. From my good, thin, healthy, atkins-fanatic self I knew in the past
) ....and salt and pepper were mentally covering the cake. Then dirt. And then little sugar ants scurrying through it!! Gross enough with just the salt and pepper, but now that cake is safe in the freezer for next time I need it for others. For me... there is NO WAY I'm getting near that cake with all those insects in it!!!!!
btw- I must have a guardian angel looking after me today. This morning I had picked up a cookie to eat (stressed, tired and busy) and the phone rang. I put it in my mouth to hold (didn't bite it) as I picked up the phone and put something else down. (funny - why wasn't the cookie the thing I put down?? yeah, right...) So who was on the phone but my mother... my saving grace I report to on how I'm doing! I instantly threw the cookie in the garbage, was embarrassed and laughing at the same time.
And yep... still went on to almost cheat later. Knowing I couldn't lie to mom, but maybe I could avoid talking to her for a while??? Sheesh!!
Two victories today (one by default). They seem huge to me and I am thoroughly enjoying them. Dished up some green beans and added fresh creamy butter to finish off my lunch, and will be having either flaxcakes or berries and cream for a snack this afternoon.
~ Linda
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