my results are in

[lisadallasr]

Hi everyone, if anyone has visited my journal lately you all know im in such an emotional state of mind right now, worrying about my health is taking over my life here. WEll i had blood work done last week because of the dizzy feeling i got one day and i wanted all my numbers checked and just needed to get it done, so anyway they didnt even check my cholesterol which pisses me off, i fasted for that could be one test to get done, and i even told him i wanted to see if my hdl went up since it was low last yr. WEll the good news is everything else was normal, my gluclose was 100 last yr and they were concerned, well its 95 now so its on the way down, my liver and kidneys and thyroids were all normal, but i remember going to the ER and them telling me i have a fatty liver so i guess its not fatty i dont know of course i was talking to someone on the phone who was not nurse or a doctor, but anyway the one thing that alarms me is my urine test, they said he wants me to come back for another one, which i already knew he did for the extra protein but i guess there is 1 bacteria showing up whatever that means so now i get to stress about that and when i go back they will check my cholesterol then, so whoever was praying for me thank you, i still have a few hurdles to get through, i need to see a cardiologist and just get a heart check up, so i can quit thinking something is wrong with my heart with all these panic attacks im having, im starting to think its in my head and im freaking my ownself out, i told my husband i feel like im going to either have a nervous breakdown or im just going to go crazy, im so tired of worrying about my health, i know that its unnormal as much as i worry, and i know that it started after my aunt passed away 5yrs ago and has gotten worst when my dad passed, i guess you could say i dont deal good with death, but i worry so much about illness and cancer oh my god its ridiculous, i pray about it and now im thinking of actually going to talk to a pscyhologist about it because i know its not normal and its stealing my joy away, especially here lately. Well let me go and get into the rest of my day, i have kids coming over after school, they are going to bible study with us tonight, so i thought i would give the mom a break since she works that they can ride the bus home with my daughter and i will get them all fed so when she gets off she can just come on over before church tonight. Well i will check in later!!!

[CAbubba]

Re: my results are in

That's a lot to carry around on your shoulders! I could almost FEEL the stress in your post. I'm not that great at advice, but I know others here on the board are. Posting here is a good first step I think. Trying to calm down can be really difficult at time, but maybe a few deep breaths will help. Seperate what you just said into categories maybe. A good, lame, and super lame or some such. Then see them individually, and try to write out possible solutions to your problem. It always helps me, it's worth a shot maybe!

[Sheepie]

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WEll the good news is everything else was normal

Deep breath. This is GREAT news! Don't worry about the other stuff until you get more results and there's no reason to expect them to be bad. Bacteria doesn't sound like anything awful and easily treated if necessary. You got great results! That's a big deal! I don't have any advice on relaxing, but I wouid think that great test results, a great diet and some exercise could only help. If not, maybe talking to someone professionally would help. Death is a hot topic for me too, but I don't really have any good advice on how to handle it.

[obkbbby]

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Lisa, that is awesome news! We have all been praying for you and I will definitely be saying thank you's for you! Maybe now your stress will now settle down some. Keep writing in your journal because that will probably help.

[buffy67]

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Keep writing and getting your feelings out of your head Lisa. Great test results, that is a positive. I know that when I get stressed or anxious (I call it that the squirrels are running around in my head) I take deep belly breaths. This actually does something with the vegas nerve in the belly and it is a natural way for the body to relax itself.

Also, when I have negative thoughts or beliefs, I try to reframe them in my mind. I believe in the law of Attraction. Like thoughts seek out more like thoughts until it actually becomes true. If you believe that you are healthy, happy and at peace, you become healthy, happy and at peace. It's kinda like setting goals. Now, the converse is true as well. If you think you are unhealthy or fear something, it can potentially manifest. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to suggest that you are unhealthy etc, I just wanted to share with you that I feel sooo much better when I'm living in a positive state.

I was pretty depressed last year and I found some of these techniques helpful. I just wanted to share with you.

Keep your chin up!

All my best,

Buffy

[SandyL2002]

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Hi Lisa.. So far your test are good.. I know you are new at going to church and just getting baptized.. I personally think this is something you need to talk to your church about..and get some prayer.. God can truly help in this area...

I use to be afraid of dying..mainly cause I lost my mom when I was 9 and my dad when I was 32.. I have always been afraid.. Well a month or so ago I saw Mrs. Edwards (her husband is running for president) she was on Oprah and she has Cancer.. One thing she said was to LIVE UNTIL YOU DIE.. That has really stuck in my head... Its one of the reason I started Atkins.. Cause I wasn't truly living..

Hang in there Sweetie and pray!