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Good morning STACers...
I am sore from head to toe! Weak in all my limbs. I swam a mile yesterday, a personal feat almost akin to the triathlon. I was sick afterwards and now deep fatigue has settled in my limbs....I pushed myself to a new level...to me it was like running a marathon-in-the-water. The great thing about swimming and biking is they are non-weight baring and can be endured as you begin your weightloss journey.
This morning I was thinking about "being here". I re-read a bunch of last yrs journals and I wanted to "be here" more than weight loss. I figured if I was still around and working it, I was not gaining weight back!
I am a yo-yo dieter. If I allowed myself a "this or that" it would trigger a downfall, a head of over heels downfall and I was slip away!
But what I've wanted at the age of 50 was a way of living, so I could keep the weight off and live a more active healthly life with confidence and esteem. I desperately wanted consistency....
So, since that is what I really think is the higher prize, I've taken a higher road ever day that I could.
Coming here
Drinking water
Exercise daily
Eating low carb
Got involved here as a supporting member hostessing
Volunteering to be a part of things
Met with others with like-minded goals.
Kept my goal of consistency constantly visualized.
In January I realized I needed to do something to keep my interest up, so I started talking about entering my first road race. It was almost unthinkable. 6.2 miles....In March I registared for that race and paid 28.00 for an entry fee...Unthinkable... I knew I needed to engage my interest or I would get bored and slip away...Challenges always help me.
In July I ran that race. I started to think about "what else can I do" and a friend laughingly invited me to a triathlon. Unthinkable, and I laughed back.
Of course you all know it bit me in the butt and I love triathlon training and have now participated!
To be here I had to do things differently, than I always did them. Im in my 14th consistent month here. I've been through a heck of alot this last yr. I don't want to say, "I'm back" I don't want to leave, it's like if I were to slip badly, I'm not sure I'd have any self belief left. It's a day to day thing with me. I've thrown this away so many times. I know and understand the deep struggles we all go through when it becomes a battle almost too hard to win alone. I've lost that battle so many times....being here is my most cherished possession right now...consistency is my most valuable charm. I wear it so close to the heart! It cost me dearly to achieve!
For those who are struggling, fight, fight with all your heart, because I know you too want to win this personal battle. Keep coming back, we'll be here for you, dust you off and make room for you. We've all been in this battle. We are all wounded by our own bad choices. Let's continue to strengthen each other, believe together we can build consistent lives, the ones we truly crave...and that weight, well IT'LL TAKE CARE OF ITSELF!
I am sore from head to toe! Weak in all my limbs. I swam a mile yesterday, a personal feat almost akin to the triathlon. I was sick afterwards and now deep fatigue has settled in my limbs....I pushed myself to a new level...to me it was like running a marathon-in-the-water. The great thing about swimming and biking is they are non-weight baring and can be endured as you begin your weightloss journey.
This morning I was thinking about "being here". I re-read a bunch of last yrs journals and I wanted to "be here" more than weight loss. I figured if I was still around and working it, I was not gaining weight back!
I am a yo-yo dieter. If I allowed myself a "this or that" it would trigger a downfall, a head of over heels downfall and I was slip away!
But what I've wanted at the age of 50 was a way of living, so I could keep the weight off and live a more active healthly life with confidence and esteem. I desperately wanted consistency....
So, since that is what I really think is the higher prize, I've taken a higher road ever day that I could.
Coming here
Drinking water
Exercise daily
Eating low carb
Got involved here as a supporting member hostessing
Volunteering to be a part of things
Met with others with like-minded goals.
Kept my goal of consistency constantly visualized.
In January I realized I needed to do something to keep my interest up, so I started talking about entering my first road race. It was almost unthinkable. 6.2 miles....In March I registared for that race and paid 28.00 for an entry fee...Unthinkable... I knew I needed to engage my interest or I would get bored and slip away...Challenges always help me.
In July I ran that race. I started to think about "what else can I do" and a friend laughingly invited me to a triathlon. Unthinkable, and I laughed back.
Of course you all know it bit me in the butt and I love triathlon training and have now participated!
To be here I had to do things differently, than I always did them. Im in my 14th consistent month here. I've been through a heck of alot this last yr. I don't want to say, "I'm back" I don't want to leave, it's like if I were to slip badly, I'm not sure I'd have any self belief left. It's a day to day thing with me. I've thrown this away so many times. I know and understand the deep struggles we all go through when it becomes a battle almost too hard to win alone. I've lost that battle so many times....being here is my most cherished possession right now...consistency is my most valuable charm. I wear it so close to the heart! It cost me dearly to achieve!
For those who are struggling, fight, fight with all your heart, because I know you too want to win this personal battle. Keep coming back, we'll be here for you, dust you off and make room for you. We've all been in this battle. We are all wounded by our own bad choices. Let's continue to strengthen each other, believe together we can build consistent lives, the ones we truly crave...and that weight, well IT'LL TAKE CARE OF ITSELF!
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