Cheating myself vent

[chicamarun]

I need to vent about my lil self pity thing I think is going on. I hurt my back. Don't know how - probably lifting feed bags with my back because my knees are awful and I am still working on strengthing them.

Anyway - I have been cheating myself of good food because of this. I'm not sleeping well (even with sleep aids) so I don't feel like doing anything during the day at all - and well COOKING?? excuse me but I'm just too tired to do that. OR I will cook a quick and easy meal and just totally leave out the veggies that I can eat.

Now, my reasoning has been that I haven't cheated at all - all the foods and my carb counts have been legal. That's been my justification BUT NO MORE!!

I know better than this.... I honestly do. We figured out I have been eating this way since October, right before Halloween and I have done a true cheat 1 night when I went to the cookie exchange and I didn't even have much there because it was too much for me. This past week though since right after christmas, I have been cheating myself out of all the good foods I actually have fun making. And some are super simple (I love the brocolli I just stick in the microwave and cook! 5 minutes they are perfect)....

So tomorrow I am finished with my lil pity party, even if my back still hurts. I'm hitting the grocery store and getting some good stuff - like lettuce! How can I run out of lettuce!?!? Maybe pick up something new to try out... and go from there.

Thank you for letting me vent. It was sitting hard on me - kinda like the legal taco dinner which would have been so much better as a taco salad is sitting heavy on my stomach at the moment.

I'll see you all tomorrow at roll call - I'm off to fill up my water bottle and go take a hot bath before I have to wake my husband up so he can go to work.

[jersey]

Re: Cheating myself vent

Speaking as the voice of experience, that's a slippery slope you're on...glad you realized it. I see in your sig that you homeschool - are the kids old enough to each take a night to prepare dinner? Being farm kids I know they're well rounded but I don't know how old they are.

I did the same thing you've been doing and then one lapse led to another and here I am for the 3rd time. Some days its hard to equate treating ourselves well with good cooking when it means extra work and planning....but I think feeding ourselves well may be the foundation for treating ourselves better too. JMHO.

Sorry to hear the Tylenol PM didn't work for you - sometimes I add Benedryl and I manage to get comfortable enough to sleep. Might be worth a try. Feel better soon.



Catherine

[LooseShoes]

Re: Cheating myself vent

I'm sorry you hurt your back. Can you get in to see a chiropractor? Try some stretches, sometimes that helps. Be careful with it, though, you don't want to make it worse.

I'm glad you're back on track with a good mindset. You CAN do this!

[SandyL2002]

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Hi Dana...You can do this... You know you need those veggies... I am sure you will get back on track!

[chicamarun]

Re: Cheating myself vent

Thank you everyone My kids are old enough to make some dinners and do it on occassion - they just make simple stuff it's ok.

It's just the fact that I haven't been eating my veggies - so I loaded up at the grocery store today.

Today I am just walking for a little while and doing some stretches to help my back.

[meena-beena]

Re: Cheating myself vent

About 6 and a half years ago I hurt my back too. It was right after I'd had my second child. I went to the dr who told me I had an overly tense muscle--probably from lifting my then 2 1/2 year old the wrong way. He prescribed a muscle relaxer and told me to take it easy for a week. It worked like a dream and I haven't had anything but mild aches ever since which I recognize early and take care of before aggrivating it again and going back to where I was. It got so bad that I was bedridden for three months before I took my rear to the dr.!

Take care of yourself because that's the only body you've got.