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  • I am not leaving

    I know many of you can relate to the day you wake up and say, "I can't do this any more, I've got to change my ways and get this weight off. I am so sick of being sick of myself"....

    I've had many of those days, and my last official one was on July 31st 2006. I said, "this is it, tomorrow I am changing". I grabbed for my Atkins diet because I knew then that it would really work for me. I could get moving in the direction I want, PRETTY FAST! I would see RESULTS PRETTY FAST...

    But at that moment I also knew that if I did not stay on it I would be right back there....fat, out of control and very unhappy with myself.

    All through induction which I had not done for 3 yrs, I suffered such headaches, but that meant the detox was working....I made it through the week and then the hunger disappeared and the energy clicked in and I was soaring high!!!

    Then the new thought appeared in my thinking, "I CANT DO THAT AGAIN"...I can't give in and quit, I can't do too much burn out and Quit"
    I can't afford to quit this all over again! I can't do the things that make me want to quit either, no "over kill"...

    I came to the reality that I do have a metabolic tendancy to be overweight.
    Because Atkins works so well, it highlights my metabolic tendancies. If I leave low carb-ville I GAIN MY WEIGHT BACK...BECAUSE I HAVE A PROBLEM OR TWO WITH FOOD ADDICTION AND METABOLIC TENDANCIES...

    pg217 of DANDR states at the opening of a paragraph, "YOUR METABOLIC TENDANCIES ARE NEVER CURED"...for me, this is true because if I stop Atkins I gain everything back and more!

    The light bulb went on this past year, I can't go back for many reasons. I do gain weight back. I've gained some weight back as I've allowed higher levels of carbs back in...now. I am seeking to get those carbs back down to a level that allows me to safely loose again.

    If you are here for the second or umpteeth time, maybe it's time to look into
    the deeper reasons you have gained weight back. Maybe looking at your metabolic tendancies rather than seeing this as a quick fix diet would be a consideration you should take the time to consider. Atkins is NOT a Crash Diet, see pg 223-224 "The Wrong Way To Do Atkins".

    Maybe not this week, but maybe next week when you start to feel right again, feel alive and thriving again, and when the hunger slows down and the energy picks up...Maybe right then and there you should face some deeper things.

    I don't know about you, but I am out for real change. Deep change. I don't want to leave here again and say I'm back....for one thing, I know I wouldn't be back for a long long time. So, I'm not leaving.

    I am not leaving again, I am staying here and finding my way. My body just cannot take another 85lb weight gain. Can yours?
    74 8/1/06
    SW225/CW142/GW135 83lbs GONE!
    2 YEARS and 9MONTHS!!! I've been here
    Jess Female/51/5'3

    www.jdudley.blog.com blog site

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    Re: I am not leaving

    Great Post.
    I am not leaving either.
    Quoting the book is so good for me on a day like this.
    Jan 2nd everyone makes a lot of promises to themselves and then die out soon.
    Its not a sprint. Its not a 48 hour fix.
    My goal today is to exercise and eat less 20 carbs today.
    Thanks Jess.




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    • #3
      Re: I am not leaving

      I'm not leaving I'm learning until I get it...No "once I get..." I'll. NONE OF THAT!
      74 8/1/06
      SW225/CW142/GW135 83lbs GONE!
      2 YEARS and 9MONTHS!!! I've been here
      Jess Female/51/5'3

      www.jdudley.blog.com blog site

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      • #4
        Re: I am not leaving

        Awesome thread Jess! I completely agree, I can't leave again, my body just can't take it. It is discouraging to lose the same pounds over again, I feel almost like I'm not losing because I had already been at a lower weight. This is it for me, I told my husband yesterday - its my way of life, not a diet and he completely understands now. When I had been sick in November and stumbled off Atkins, he kept asking sarcastically - How's that diet of yours going? - he didn't understand, he does now. I'm definitely not depriving myself of anything being on Atkins and following this plan for life, I feel great and when I eat sugary foods and loads of carbs not only do I feel nasty inside, I gain weight and I'm miserable because of that. I look at a "diet" as more of a deprevation... at least thats how I always felt being on WW in the past, it was like - get to goal so you can have treats or just cheat a bit on the weekend if you feel like it. I don't feel that way on Atkins, I don't feel like I'm missing out on anything at all - I just feel GOOD. I re-read the DANDR over the last few days from cover to cover and it was nice to take that time (while I was awake all night feeling like crud from detoxing) to remember why I made this change for myself in the first place.

        So, to answer the original question - my body definitely can't take it. Even regainging 10lbs from November 19th to December 29th - my body couldn't couldn't take that, it definitely took a toll on me and I hate that I allowed that to happen. I had the power to turn around after I was feeling better from the stomach bug/ear infection/course of antiobiotics that made me feel terrible and just get back on... I waited too long though. Ah, what's done is done though - lesson definitely learned and I will NOT allow myself to do that again.
        Karen - SAHM to C&C
        3/8/2010 - Starting weight 216.4

        Mini Goal #1 - ONEderland

        My Journal

        March Abs Challenge - 740/1500

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        • #5
          Re: I am not leaving

          GREAT post, Jess
          Catherine (jersey)

          Re-Start: 12/14/07
          SW 261.5 CW 237.0 GW 189


          The Second Half - my journal
          http://www.atkinsdietbulletinboard.c...ad.php?t=52408

          Induction: 11/16/04
          SW 274 (6'1")
          female

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          • #6
            Re: I am not leaving

            This is just in time, Jess. I hit that point on 12/31/07 and that's why I'm back. I do have an addiction and Atkins is what helps me eat and live right while I'm working on the reasons why I eat.

            Carnie Wilson, after she had stomach stapling surgery and lost all of her weight, admitted to becoming an alcoholic. She was on Oprah and she explained that having her stomach stapled was only a "band-aid" and it didn't treat the real problem - the underlying reasons why she ate in the first place. Since the surgery took away a way for her to feed her addiction, she turned to alcohol to fill that empty space. That really shook me. It reinforced to me the need to heal all of me - the mental as well as the physical. Getting past the addiction is the first step...
            cheri
            (formerly "obkbbby")
            My Journal

            "Yesterday I dared to struggle. Today I dare to win." Bernadette Devlin

            "We are beautiful in every single way. Words can't bring us down." Christina Aguilera


            F38 270/254/150
            Restarted 010/01/09

            Miles Walked - 0/50
            Crunches - 0/1500
            Push-ups - 0/300
            Pilates band - 0 m/120 m
            Squats - 0/300

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            • #7
              Re: I am not leaving

              Great post Jess! Im not leaving either. My body cant handle it. This 30lbs that Ive put back on needs to go, for my home life with my kids and for my work life with the residents I care for. And for the most important reason...MY HEALTH!!
              SW~215
              CW~ 205
              GW~ Whatever I feel good at!!

              Its not about what I have to lose...its what I have to Gain!!!

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              • #8
                Re: I am not leaving

                Great post, Jess.

                It makes me think about how thankful I am that I made the choice to detox 7 days ago instead of waiting until yesterday or today....it's h3ll and I don't want to leave this energy filled life that I'm regaining. I'm not leaving.

                April 2007: 212
                Today: 190:D :walking
                1st Goal 189
                Goal: 165




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                • #9
                  Re: I am not leaving

                  Wow Jess...

                  Sometimes I think I am the only who is on the rollercoaster and then I read some of the posts including yours. It is so easy for me to fall into old habits and dwell in my pitty pond but you are absolutely right. I can not look at this as a sprint but a life long marathon. I staying!

                  Sincerely,
                  Tara
                  HW 281
                  Starting Weight 238
                  Current Weight 234
                  Mini Goals
                  #1 220
                  #2 210
                  #3 200


                  Created by MyFitnessPal.com - Free Calorie Counter

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                  • #10
                    Re: I am not leaving

                    For the record, I have years and years and years of gaining and loosing the same pounds....
                    This is the firs time ever I've ever ever ever been where I am let alone THIS LONG...
                    So more than weight it's TIME, TIME HERE...forget weightloss, if I can't stay here it doesnt matter because the weight will be back no matter what I do, if I leave Atkins. I have a metabolic disorder and tendancy to gain weight! Carbs also have a highly addictive nature for me.
                    74 8/1/06
                    SW225/CW142/GW135 83lbs GONE!
                    2 YEARS and 9MONTHS!!! I've been here
                    Jess Female/51/5'3

                    www.jdudley.blog.com blog site

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