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Hello everyone,
I've never really been much of a poster around here, I did a lot of lurking and I joined a few challenges, but that's about it. But lately I've been feeling and seeing some changes in myself and I REALLY don't like what I see.
First up, a little about me (I'm not sure if I've ever posted an introduction here?) I'm 30 and I teach special education for 3rd - 6th grades. I've been teaching for 6 years and I love it. In Summer of '07 I was given a grant to get my masters degree in Teacher of the Visually Impaired (TVI) with an additional certification in Orientation and Mobility. I'm currently taking Braille II and "The Blindfold Class", both very difficult classes. I'm applying for a new job in another district next year to be a TVI for 5 kids, so I may have a whole new load of stress and fun ahead of me.
Now onto my health. Recently I've noticed that my body and my health in general has gone downhill. I'm not overweight, I'm 6' and I weigh 160 and according to the "charts", I'm at a healthy weight. But I don't FEEL healthy. That's my problem, I think. I just turned 30 in November and all of a sudden, I've started to notice that it's getting harder and harder for me to walk up a flight of stairs. I have no energy to chase around my 3 year old daughter. I can't find the motivation to do my homework or even get things done for my job. I don't want to do anything and I HATE THIS FEELING.
I want to get back into low-carbing. I've been doing this "on-again, off-again" ride for too long and I want to get back ON AGAIN. I loved the way I felt when I was following Atkins. I had so much energy that I popped out of bed at 5:00 every morning, ready for the day. My skin and hair and nails looked great and I never got sick. I want that again!
But as of right now, I have an obstacle that I must get over. I am almost 100% sure that I have adult ADD. I can't concentrate. I can't focus. It's very difficult to damn near impossible for me to finish any task that I start. When I sit, a part of me is always moving, whether it's my feet or toes or I'm drumming my fingers or bouncing my knees. I have a very hard time following conversations and when I talk to others I jump all over the place. I feel I am on the verge of shutting down completely and I can't do that. I have a family and a job and school that I have to hang on to. My first goal, before all of this other stuff, is to see a doctor and figure out what I can do to straighten my head out. I'm going to get myself right.
My husband and I are going shopping this weekend to stock up on our low-carb favorites. I'm heading over to Linda's recipes right now to get some ideas for meals next week. I'm planning on starting Induction on Monday and I'm hoping to get in to see a doc sometime this week. I hope that I can find some support here because I desperately need it. I'm in a dark place here and I'm finding it very hard to crawl out.
All the best,
Jilly
I've never really been much of a poster around here, I did a lot of lurking and I joined a few challenges, but that's about it. But lately I've been feeling and seeing some changes in myself and I REALLY don't like what I see.
First up, a little about me (I'm not sure if I've ever posted an introduction here?) I'm 30 and I teach special education for 3rd - 6th grades. I've been teaching for 6 years and I love it. In Summer of '07 I was given a grant to get my masters degree in Teacher of the Visually Impaired (TVI) with an additional certification in Orientation and Mobility. I'm currently taking Braille II and "The Blindfold Class", both very difficult classes. I'm applying for a new job in another district next year to be a TVI for 5 kids, so I may have a whole new load of stress and fun ahead of me.
Now onto my health. Recently I've noticed that my body and my health in general has gone downhill. I'm not overweight, I'm 6' and I weigh 160 and according to the "charts", I'm at a healthy weight. But I don't FEEL healthy. That's my problem, I think. I just turned 30 in November and all of a sudden, I've started to notice that it's getting harder and harder for me to walk up a flight of stairs. I have no energy to chase around my 3 year old daughter. I can't find the motivation to do my homework or even get things done for my job. I don't want to do anything and I HATE THIS FEELING.
I want to get back into low-carbing. I've been doing this "on-again, off-again" ride for too long and I want to get back ON AGAIN. I loved the way I felt when I was following Atkins. I had so much energy that I popped out of bed at 5:00 every morning, ready for the day. My skin and hair and nails looked great and I never got sick. I want that again!
But as of right now, I have an obstacle that I must get over. I am almost 100% sure that I have adult ADD. I can't concentrate. I can't focus. It's very difficult to damn near impossible for me to finish any task that I start. When I sit, a part of me is always moving, whether it's my feet or toes or I'm drumming my fingers or bouncing my knees. I have a very hard time following conversations and when I talk to others I jump all over the place. I feel I am on the verge of shutting down completely and I can't do that. I have a family and a job and school that I have to hang on to. My first goal, before all of this other stuff, is to see a doctor and figure out what I can do to straighten my head out. I'm going to get myself right.
My husband and I are going shopping this weekend to stock up on our low-carb favorites. I'm heading over to Linda's recipes right now to get some ideas for meals next week. I'm planning on starting Induction on Monday and I'm hoping to get in to see a doc sometime this week. I hope that I can find some support here because I desperately need it. I'm in a dark place here and I'm finding it very hard to crawl out.
All the best,
Jilly
I will lose weight, I will lose weight, I WILL LOSE WEIGHT! 
all for one and one for all
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