Why do I even try to fall off the wagon?

[kellymch2006]

I hate every minute of it. Eating forbidden food is nowhere near as satisfying as NOT eating it is. (Does that make sense?)

So after two weekends of eating crap and wake-up call on the scale yesterday morning, I'm back in purple today.

I think about how good I've felt the first seven weeks and how crappy I've felt the past ten days.

Also, I did that spit test for Candida this morning and that was pretty nasty. Clearly had tentacles. GROSS! I have to figure out if I want to KISS and all that goes with fighting yeast...

Anyway, it just seems like the high school reunion was my motivation for doing seven weeks without any slip ups. I'm realizing that my motivation needs to be my health and positive state of mind instead of a big "event" sometime in the future.

Rambling here...Thanks for listening.

[shaunawa]

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***I hate every minute of it. Eating forbidden food is nowhere near as satisfying as NOT eating it is. (Does that make sense?)


I can totally relate to this statement. Everytime I cheat it feels good for the second I am doing it, and then I beat myself up for doing it for the next 2 or three days. I feel defeated.

I am staying strong and I will not let this happen anymore. I am going to stay strong this time around.

I have been thinking about the yeast deal too. I dont get the spit test though...even though I am sure I am there without even doing it. I have all the symptoms. There was a check list you could go through and score yourself, and well my score was through the roof.

I just dont know if I can cut out all of that right now. I just made it through my first day of induction...(second time around) and I was clean. I didnt eat a lot of cheese in fact it was all motz. cheese so I am still on plan. Also I didnt eat any mushrooms and they are my favorite. So, in a way I am trying to keep the yeast beast at bay.

My highschool reunion is coming up next summer. I would love to walk in there with wings. I also know it is totally possible if I stay on plan. It will be my 20th year away from school. Hard to believe as I remember the last day like it was yesterday.

Good luck. No cheating...k. Stay strong - we can do it.

[ditien]

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cheating totally wipes me out, i binge like there is no tomorrow, i lose control and im all about control. we can all totally relate, i know this sounds cliche but what the heck you got up thats all that really matters and immediately not after 3 months or year or years like me.

What drives me is i want to remove this goal of 100 pounds off my list its been there for the last ehhh 10 yrs its about time i got to it off and kept it offright? . lol

you can do this!!!! we are here for you

[kellymch2006]

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That's why were here in the STAC, huh?

[steady as she goes]

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what's the spit test for candida?

and I so hear you about 180 becoming 200 in the blink of an eye. I know how that works only too well!

[shaunawa]

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I am not to sure. I checked in the book and didnt see anything. I also looked on the site under the yeast catagory and they just talk about doing it. So, maybe I need to PM Sherri and see if she can fill us in a bit.

Oh yeah, 180 - 200 in a flash. How is this possible when it took me forever to loose the darn stuff. Just a doughnut here and a doughnut there and wham... my butt got way huge.

I am back though and stronger this time... I have more determination to succeed this time around.

[shaunawa]

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I found the info we were looking for...

First thing upon arising in the morning, (even before clearing your mouth), spit into a glass of water. If your spit remains floating, in a nice, cohesive "blob", you're probably pretty much Candida-free. However, if after a moment, your spit begins to develop long strand-like tendrils that dissolve down into the water, or if your spit spreads out over the surface of the water, you probably have a Candida condition.

I guess I might as well try it and see what happens. - I sure hope it stays all up on the top. I dont know if I could restrict even more food.

[Hopeful1]

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I completely understand where this is coming from.

Been there, doing that! I have got to get on the ball!