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Hello all,
This is my second time back, but really I didn't stick with it long the first time so I'm not even sure I can count it that I had a first. Oh well, time for change.
I'm really nervous that nothing will work anymore. I've by far screwed up my metabolism so badly for the past 15 years with borderline anorexia for years switched off with massive binge eating for longer than the anorexia so I would jump up and down a 100-150 pound yo-yo lifestyle which is, downright awful.
The last time I tried Atkins, I lost 10 pounds really quick and then I started gaining and I just flipped out and got mad. My husband does great on Atkins, and it was so annoying to watch him progress and I was going backwards. The one thing I can say that was different between us is that he would drink maybe a can of pepsi one, where I am severely addicted to caffeine and would go through a couple two liters, I just couldn't (no, wouldn't I guess is the right term) give up my soda.
I went back to yo-yo'ing, starving for days, only to eat several days worth of food in one day, inching my way back up as I gained more weight. Last year I dropped 80 pounds (not healthfully) but I gained back 40 in 2 months and have been stuck here ever since doing the same stuff over and over. It's like an insanity button, I keep pushing it over and over expecting a different result.
So, I decided finally to stop pushing my insanity button, lose the weight the hard way and keep it off. I threw out all my bad weight loss pills and other unmentionables and threw out my old journals that recorded my up and down weight and mood.
My goal has an overall weight loss goal but more of it is how I want my body to look at that weight with a lot of muscle and little fat. I want to have the type of body that it's required that I eat because I burn so much energy that I have to, not the other thought of "I can't eat this because it will make me gain." No, I don't want that anymore. I want "I have to eat something or I'm going to lose muscle." lol...
I chose to go back into Atkins because I feel that it's a plan that can actually be kept too without feeling like I'm sacrificing something. It also will be beneficial to body building because it's high protein, not high carb. So I'm back and this time I'm giving it time and effort before I make a final judgement of doing what I've been avoiding which is the band surgery because I really don't want to do it. I want to do it right and if I give it time, I think the results I want will be shown. Just praying that I don't freak out in a couple weeks if it's not as fast as my brain wants it to be.
As for soda, okay, truth be told, I've had 3 cans of pepsi one today.. in comparison to my 4 two liters of diet dew, and I've had 3 gallons of water. (Yes, I'm CONSTANTLY thirsty, which is what got me into the habit of drinking out of two liters in the first place when I was 15 years old.) I figure after a couple weeks, maybe my liver will stop focusing on filtering junk soda through my body and can focus on metabolism and hopefully my thirst will go down. If it doesn't, oh well, I'll just keep drinking tons of water.
Exercise is going to have to be limited to walking for now, I have weight equipment in the house but it's not put together and I don't have the slightest idea how to put it together. My husband has been meaning to do it for a month now but neither of us have had the time. If it's not up in a month, I"m joining a gym for weight lifting and swimming.
Anyway, enough about all that, just figured I'd set the plan in writing as it may help this time.
Thanks for listening!
Liz
This is my second time back, but really I didn't stick with it long the first time so I'm not even sure I can count it that I had a first. Oh well, time for change.
I'm really nervous that nothing will work anymore. I've by far screwed up my metabolism so badly for the past 15 years with borderline anorexia for years switched off with massive binge eating for longer than the anorexia so I would jump up and down a 100-150 pound yo-yo lifestyle which is, downright awful.
The last time I tried Atkins, I lost 10 pounds really quick and then I started gaining and I just flipped out and got mad. My husband does great on Atkins, and it was so annoying to watch him progress and I was going backwards. The one thing I can say that was different between us is that he would drink maybe a can of pepsi one, where I am severely addicted to caffeine and would go through a couple two liters, I just couldn't (no, wouldn't I guess is the right term) give up my soda.
I went back to yo-yo'ing, starving for days, only to eat several days worth of food in one day, inching my way back up as I gained more weight. Last year I dropped 80 pounds (not healthfully) but I gained back 40 in 2 months and have been stuck here ever since doing the same stuff over and over. It's like an insanity button, I keep pushing it over and over expecting a different result.
So, I decided finally to stop pushing my insanity button, lose the weight the hard way and keep it off. I threw out all my bad weight loss pills and other unmentionables and threw out my old journals that recorded my up and down weight and mood.
My goal has an overall weight loss goal but more of it is how I want my body to look at that weight with a lot of muscle and little fat. I want to have the type of body that it's required that I eat because I burn so much energy that I have to, not the other thought of "I can't eat this because it will make me gain." No, I don't want that anymore. I want "I have to eat something or I'm going to lose muscle." lol...
I chose to go back into Atkins because I feel that it's a plan that can actually be kept too without feeling like I'm sacrificing something. It also will be beneficial to body building because it's high protein, not high carb. So I'm back and this time I'm giving it time and effort before I make a final judgement of doing what I've been avoiding which is the band surgery because I really don't want to do it. I want to do it right and if I give it time, I think the results I want will be shown. Just praying that I don't freak out in a couple weeks if it's not as fast as my brain wants it to be.
As for soda, okay, truth be told, I've had 3 cans of pepsi one today.. in comparison to my 4 two liters of diet dew, and I've had 3 gallons of water. (Yes, I'm CONSTANTLY thirsty, which is what got me into the habit of drinking out of two liters in the first place when I was 15 years old.) I figure after a couple weeks, maybe my liver will stop focusing on filtering junk soda through my body and can focus on metabolism and hopefully my thirst will go down. If it doesn't, oh well, I'll just keep drinking tons of water.
Exercise is going to have to be limited to walking for now, I have weight equipment in the house but it's not put together and I don't have the slightest idea how to put it together. My husband has been meaning to do it for a month now but neither of us have had the time. If it's not up in a month, I"m joining a gym for weight lifting and swimming.
Anyway, enough about all that, just figured I'd set the plan in writing as it may help this time.
Thanks for listening!
Liz
...Was in HEAVEN -got to 150, for awhile, then got too busy, and gave in too much... and... OK holding pattern "keep it together..." 
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