Ugh! I'm restarting again :(

[clogger]

I posted this in Century Club, but will re-post here since I think I'll be coming to Second (or fifth) Time Around Club too since I definitely, but unfortunately, have re-re-re-started Atkins. We'll see how it goes to try to keep up with both.

I feel frustrated and overwhelmed! It boggles my mind that over the past few or more months I've stopped and started Atkins a few times. When I originally started at the end of February '08 I did sooooo well for months. Each time I restart it seems that I stay on for less time than the time before. The turning point today was when I stepped on the scale (which I had been avoiding) and it showed 227! My start weight was 249 (in Feb) and my lowest was 207 (in July?). Of the 42 I had lost I've gained 20 back. That makes me so sad and disappointed . When I'm eating the Atkins way I feel so good, so in control. My mind is not controlled by thoughts of food. My body feels energized. I don't feel bloated. I never stuff myself. My moods are more stable. I don't want this to be a game. I don't want to stop and start and stop and start over and over and over! I'm not trying to use Atkins as a temporary fix until I reach my "goal weight". I KNOW that Atkins is a GREAT match for me. I know that I cannot eat normally if I eat a non-low-carb-diet. If I eat non-low-carb I'm completely OUT OF CONTROL! I hate it! I'm scared though. I'm afraid that I won't last. I don't want to fail again.

Prayerfully, I hope I stick around this time...

[caroann]

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Christine,
It's just so hard sometimes to keep at it when people around you are eating what you USE to eat - high carbs and all. Do you have good support with friends and family? I'm starting induction Monday and feel apprehensive about it. I don't want to fail. I've got too much to lose to keep getting heavier. I've done it before and can do it again.

Good luck on your re-start. You'll make it this time.

Caroann

[clogger]

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Thanks for posting Caroann! My family and friends are completely supportive - especially my husband. The vast majority of the time I could care less when there is non-Atkins food around. It doesn't appeal to me. I'm very content with my low-carb choices. Then every once in awhile I cave (for whatever reason) and eat crap! Then once I eat crap I want more crap and the spiral begins.

Good luck to you! Success is very possible as many on this board can attest to - I had great success earlier this year. The biggest thing is to follow the rules of Induction and read and re-read DANDR 2002 (Dr. Atkins' New Diet Revolution). Like Dr. Atkins says if you're hungry - EAT! Be careful not to go overboard on cheese - limit it to 3 to 4 ounces per day.

Have a good night!

[OzLover]

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Great to see you back Kristine! Good luck on your journey!

[clogger]

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Thanks, Glenda. It's good to have somewhere to go for support !

[OzLover]

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We have plenty of support here!!

[lilfloppysocks]

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Hang in there. Be proud of yourself that you're restarting, and that you recognize what works for you, and how you feel when it works for you.

[Lisa]

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((Christine)) My C25K buddie! I'm so glad you're here .

I've been MIA too...life and stuff.

One thing for sure, we learn that we are not invensible to the life-stuff.

[clogger]

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Thanks for the support, Cory!

Lisa, it's good to be back! Even though it hasn't even been 24 hours yet I already feel so much better. I'll have to pop over and visit you all in the C25K room.

[focus83]

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Hi Kristine, well done for coming back!! i know how hard it is to get off track and then it almost impossible to diet again. Ive done it millions of time lol. Good luck and keep posting you know if you keep your fingers and mind busy you wont want to cheat.

[Al Trip]

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Hi Kristine, I am relating to your situation. As I said in another post I am re-re-re-restarting. I am taking a different approach this time and that is, given that I will eat a food that I have forbidden myself to eat, how will I get back to eating the reduced carb diet that seems to be the healthiest way for me to eat? Now I am thinking one of the things I can do, is remember this time of starting new, and realize that it is always possible to start new again. It is a good feeling for me.
Good luck to you,
Al

[clogger]

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Thanks for your posts focus and Al! I really appreciate all of the support I get here ! What would we do without each other?

[Al Trip]

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Hi Christine,
Yes, I relate to being scared. I got so big last week that for the first time I really saw health problems creeping up as might weight spiraled. Particularly my blood pressure was getting too high. And I every time I made an attempt to lose weight, I put off my effort to lose till just this one more jelly sandwich, and then I saw some more weight gain and I said, "I won't get heavier." Now I know I might get heavier. Even when I did the Atkins diet fairly successfully several years ago I thought that was the end of needing to watch my weight, because I had a method. Now I know that I need always to keep watching what I eat, and know that it's very possible and almost certain that I will back slide again.
I am thinking now that I did this years ago with alcohol. I quit drinking, but for years after I would go on little binges. Now I can drink alcohol in moderation if I want, but I am just not very interested. Maybe eating carbs will become like that, but right now, approaching 60 it looks to me like I will be keeping a very close eye on my carbs for the rest of my life, particularly since my body is very sugar sensitive.
So, yes, I am scared for my well being at this time, but I am also more hopeful, because I am having more compassion for both myself and the predicament of others in their attempts to gain some measure of control in what they eat.
Good luck to you,
Al

[Lisa]

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Lisa, it's good to be back! Even though it hasn't even been 24 hours yet I already feel so much better. I'll have to pop over and visit you all in the C25K room.

It's snowing outside and I don't have snowshoes to run on it. I sold my treadmill and succumb to walking outside....before it snowed. Can you hear the excuses just pile up? lol. I need to start going again! It's the best weight loss tool with Atkins (in my humble opinion....lol).