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hello, gang! I am back after having been gone for at least a year or so and after having my beautiful "Atkin's baby", LOL, and I am ready to get back to lowcarbing again now that I am not BF'ing anymore and my little one is now going to be 1 yrs old on the 27th (wahoo!!!)! My life has been a battle of ups and downs but I am trying to get the pieces together. After yesterday, when I went on the bus to the store and when I got off at my stop, how hard and painful it was to get up and get off the bus; and after falling to the floor and realizing that I could not get up off the floor for 14 min. and only because I had to use a chair to hold myself up to stand but still could barely do that, I KNOW that it is time to get back to DANDR. I was so embarrassed that I fell off my chair and literally could not just get up and what was sad, was my baby was there looking at me as if to say, "what are you doing, mommy?" and all I could do was use the chair and struggle to get to my knees and then struggle to finally stand up. I looked at my son and it was a gut-wrenching reality check because I realized that I can't really get down on the floor and play with him, I can barely carry him and I don't have the energy I should have to chase him around and do fun things with him.
I can't be this way anymore not only for my sake, but my son's sake. I don't want him to have a big fat mommy who can't do anything but eat or him later being trained to bring me things from the kitchen and everywhere while I lay on the couch or in bed because I got so fat and lazy I can't do it myself. I can't do that to him. I WILL not do that to him. So, guys, this is it for me; I am really committing myself to getting on the train and not getting off because it is not only for me this time but for my son to have a healthy mommy. This may be the 10th time on but God willing, I want it to be my very last.
I can't be this way anymore not only for my sake, but my son's sake. I don't want him to have a big fat mommy who can't do anything but eat or him later being trained to bring me things from the kitchen and everywhere while I lay on the couch or in bed because I got so fat and lazy I can't do it myself. I can't do that to him. I WILL not do that to him. So, guys, this is it for me; I am really committing myself to getting on the train and not getting off because it is not only for me this time but for my son to have a healthy mommy. This may be the 10th time on but God willing, I want it to be my very last.
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