I'm incredibly overwhelmed, and angry with myself

[*KatNip*]

I was doing great, lost 40 lbs, I was well on my way and then I dunno what happened. I gained most of it back, and I didnt gaine more than I lost because I keep the house clean of junk food, so I gained all this just by binging on good foods

I have been trying to do inductionsince december and I keep screwing up. This time around I have been super prepared and yet again....Im out of induction becasue I decided to stuff my face with whole wheat bread, almond butter and a banana, oh and aglass of milk. It sure wasn't tasty enough. I'm moving forward after that, I had cheesy broccoli soup for lunch and Im having parm crusted telapia tonight. Even thoughI am organized I feel otherwise, WHY? Im so afraid of failing again. I simply cant afford it. Im so heavy, and so unhappy. Not tomention I make Dh look like alittle person (we are the same height) he's average and Im a whale. I really need help staying on track and I dunno how to start. What else can I do? maybe I needto read something I JUST DONT KNOW, but I cant keep messing up again and again.

I have all the induction foods I need, and I will be gorcery shopping again next week. I have made it to where the whole family eats like I do (and DH has NO clue lol he keeps praising my food LOL!) I just make sure they havet heir healthy carbs, like rice or their whole grain bread etc. ANYWAY, ough. I'm sure there's many of you like me, I really truly never thought I'd be starting over again, I was so commited last time Istarted, I just didn't forsee such failure. blah!

[Tumtum]

Re: I'm incredibly overwhelmed, and angry with myself

Hiya Hon

Wow.. big hugs.. I think we all know that cycle one way or another. I'm the same in the sense that last time I did atkins (3 years ago) I started and stopped so many times too.

This time I started and I saw another lady had started her own personal blog (all free and easy you don't have to know to much about computers) and it was like her journal thingy.. It was great.. so I decided to do the same and its turned out to be a massive motivation aid for me and project..so when I feel like cheating or anything or abit down, I sit an work on it, and it really helps me.

I know this might not be for everybody, but just thought I would share. Click on the link below to see mine, and if you want to start your own right now, (theres a link to begin - its all free)..

Good luck

[TexasExJen]

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Hey KatNip, we've all been there. I don't know why it's so hard to re-start sometimes. I can't tell you how many times over the last couple of years I tried, only to fail. It wasn't the WOE not working, it was me. I can't explain it either, but I know how you are feeling. I guess it took me getting on the scale and seeing that I was back to my highest weight ever to kind of shock me back into reality. I got it together in early December, and it's been good since then. My goal is to be healthy, and to postpone diabetes for as long as I can (I have a strong family history on both sides). I also don't want to be fat in pictures when my kids graduate from high school in May - that might sound vain, but it's not, I'm just being honest. I think that if you look inside yourself you can find motivation as well. It's different for everyone. I agree that blogging helps sometimes, or keeping a diary, or just talking here on the boards.

I wish you well on your efforts, come here for help/support/questions. We have all been there.

Blessings, Jen

[Ann Louise]

Re: I'm incredibly overwhelmed, and angry with myself

I was doing great, lost 40 lbs, I was well on my way and then I dunno what happened....I'm sure there's many of you like me, I really truly never thought I'd be starting over again, I was so commited last time I started, I just didn't forsee such failure.

"Many" of us like you, KatNip? How about ALL of us! I lost weight on Atkins, felt great, looked great, gave away my fat clothes, etc. And like another STAC member just posted...had to drag my sorry *** (wearing newly purchased larger clothes) back through the door. Thank God for ADBB -- it has motivated me to stay on track.

You did it once, you will do it again. Each day you'll feel better because you'll be back in control and losing weight. Maybe only a pound or two a week, but you'll be in control and not the food controlling you. That's a good feeling, I think.

Welcome back. You're among friends.