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I initially started Atkins about 3 years ago. I was a whopping 284 lbs then (same as now). I lived the Atkins way of life for a couple of months. I got taken in by the BS though. My family and friends were completely against me using Atkins to lose weight and become healthy. It was so bad that my friend tried continually to sabotage me.
I managed to keep off the 45 lbs I lost for about 2.5 years. Recently, I started putting the weight back on. In the past 4 months, I have put on all 45 lbs. I knew it was happening, but just couldn't figure out how to stop it.
Recently, my friend decided she wanted to start Weight Watchers and asked me to join her. I did, for a month. I starved the whole month and lost barely anything. But even that didn't wake me up.
My wakeup call came in a couple of forms. First, I decided to take my blood sugar on a whim. It was almost 140 fasting! That is really high for me. Second, I was laying in a bath, and my 3 year old came in to use the bathroom. She looked around the curtain and said "mommy, you're really fat." I got really upset. Not because I didn't already know this, but because someone else was telling me.
I had been deluded for so long that I was still attractive, still healthy, still everything. I'm not though. I don't like what I see in the mirror anymore. I have no energy to do anything. I don't like to go out in public because I hate the way people look at me. I won't let my kids take pictures of me because I don't see myself in them. It is some other woman in the camera.
I restarted yesterday. My plan is to eat on plan, drink my water, get out and walk more (for a start), post here as much as possible and just try to find ways to stay motivated.
My goal is to be a thinner, more confident me. I have a family vacation in November 2009. I would like to show up and blow my parents minds. I can do it!
I managed to keep off the 45 lbs I lost for about 2.5 years. Recently, I started putting the weight back on. In the past 4 months, I have put on all 45 lbs. I knew it was happening, but just couldn't figure out how to stop it.
Recently, my friend decided she wanted to start Weight Watchers and asked me to join her. I did, for a month. I starved the whole month and lost barely anything. But even that didn't wake me up.
My wakeup call came in a couple of forms. First, I decided to take my blood sugar on a whim. It was almost 140 fasting! That is really high for me. Second, I was laying in a bath, and my 3 year old came in to use the bathroom. She looked around the curtain and said "mommy, you're really fat." I got really upset. Not because I didn't already know this, but because someone else was telling me.
I had been deluded for so long that I was still attractive, still healthy, still everything. I'm not though. I don't like what I see in the mirror anymore. I have no energy to do anything. I don't like to go out in public because I hate the way people look at me. I won't let my kids take pictures of me because I don't see myself in them. It is some other woman in the camera.
I restarted yesterday. My plan is to eat on plan, drink my water, get out and walk more (for a start), post here as much as possible and just try to find ways to stay motivated.
My goal is to be a thinner, more confident me. I have a family vacation in November 2009. I would like to show up and blow my parents minds. I can do it!
Everything and anything is possible, and one step down, is one stepper closer (no matter how bad or good the day will be). Just keep persevering and you will get there.
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