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I've written so many introductions here -- I'll spare you all one more. So here I am again. Two years ago, I lost 70 pounds in a year by being faithfully religious to Atkins. I mostly stayed in Induction, with cheats back and forth. I started at 289. Finished at 220.
I was doing so well. I'd reached the point where I didn't want things like bread or sweets. I can remember going to a restaurant and crying because my best friend was trying to make me eat a hamburger and french fries. It meant that much to me. I knew that cheat would set off a two week binge. And it did. Friends kept telling me to eat more fruit, more vegetables, that the body needs carbs, etc. They wouldn't listen when I explained my body WAS getting carbs -- in the form of vegetables.
They told me simply cutting back calories and eating whatever I wanted, I would still lose weight. But it didn't work that way. I wouldn't eat just 300 calories of macaroni and cheese or whatever. I'd binge it hard and feel like crap about myself.
I had a strong/wrong incentive to lose weight quickly before my friend arrived, so I fell into the Kimkins crowd. And I shot my diet to **** and back. For some reason, Kimkins totally broke what was left of my motivation, though it really shouldn't have.
So here I am two years later, back to 240. I'm terrified as I watch the weight creep up. I feel so very alone. I can't find the motivation I once had. I'm 35, 5'1" and I weigh 240 pounds. I'd like to get to around 116, but I'd be happy at my high school weight of 140. I was nice and curvy then. Kids picked on me and called me fat but when I look at the pictures, I seemed small enough.
I really could use support. People who will hold me accountable. I have no support system in my real life world.
I'm skimming the forums, and I don't even know where to start. I'd like to get into a daily accountability thread or ... I don't know. I don't know where I belong. I just know I don't like where I'm going.
Thank you all for having me back, one more time.
I was doing so well. I'd reached the point where I didn't want things like bread or sweets. I can remember going to a restaurant and crying because my best friend was trying to make me eat a hamburger and french fries. It meant that much to me. I knew that cheat would set off a two week binge. And it did. Friends kept telling me to eat more fruit, more vegetables, that the body needs carbs, etc. They wouldn't listen when I explained my body WAS getting carbs -- in the form of vegetables.
They told me simply cutting back calories and eating whatever I wanted, I would still lose weight. But it didn't work that way. I wouldn't eat just 300 calories of macaroni and cheese or whatever. I'd binge it hard and feel like crap about myself.
I had a strong/wrong incentive to lose weight quickly before my friend arrived, so I fell into the Kimkins crowd. And I shot my diet to **** and back. For some reason, Kimkins totally broke what was left of my motivation, though it really shouldn't have.
So here I am two years later, back to 240. I'm terrified as I watch the weight creep up. I feel so very alone. I can't find the motivation I once had. I'm 35, 5'1" and I weigh 240 pounds. I'd like to get to around 116, but I'd be happy at my high school weight of 140. I was nice and curvy then. Kids picked on me and called me fat but when I look at the pictures, I seemed small enough.
I really could use support. People who will hold me accountable. I have no support system in my real life world.
I'm skimming the forums, and I don't even know where to start. I'd like to get into a daily accountability thread or ... I don't know. I don't know where I belong. I just know I don't like where I'm going.
Thank you all for having me back, one more time.
Kat
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