Im a failure.

[AmandaRae]

This is my second time on atkins. The diet is making me very depressed. Im overweight and I look it. As I got out of the shower i saw the rolls on my back and my gut hanging. I guess knowing im on this diet/life change just makes me feel like i have failed in the past and this is my punishment. Ive been through alot in the last few years. from my mom being diagnosed with cancer, my gram dying, and my father just passing away. I know i should be happy and i am but just now with my body. I have two beautiful boys and a loving husband who tells me he loves me and doesnt think i need to change, he just wants to see me happy. errr i really dont have anyone to talk to either..... errr I just dont know what to do, continue with this or stop and go back to my old ways.

[imagood1]

Re: Im a failure.

You need to get back on the plan and stay on it. Drink your water and exercise everyday. There is no reason you can't make this plan work for you, you are young, aren't on any medications that make weight loss slower and you know how to do it so just make up your mind and do it.

When you get out of the shower and see the rolls remember the reason you have them is the way you have been eating up to this point. You won't loose them without some struggle, unfortunately the weight doesn't just fall off because we want it to, it takes hard work to get it off. Wish I could offer sweeter words but you are the only one who can change your thoughts around. If I could take the weight off of you I would, along with the 60 pounds I still have to loose and all the weight everyone else here has to loose but that wouldn't teach you anything. You have to find the strength within yourself and want to loose the weigh enough that nothing gets in your way. Good luck!

[blueberrylady]

Re: Im a failure.

Dear Amanda, You are not a failure. We have all had setbacks and disappointments but as long as we keep trying, we are not failures.

You've been through a lot of heartache and it's only natural that you're feeling down, but remember that you can do this if you keep trying. We are here for you. You are not alone in this journey to better yourself, so just keep posting and we will do our best to help you stay the course.

God bless you.

[MrsM]

Re: Im a failure.

stick to the induction, it will drop off and u'll soon be happy

last time i did it i shed 16lbs in 2 weeks

tc

[carlae]

Re: Im a failure.

Amanda, when you look in the mirror, try to picture yourself as being lighter. It will happen. I also had rolls of fat. Now, I can see that they have gone down quite a bit, and are actually not as embarrassing as they were before. This WOE works like no others. Just drink your water, and don't eat things you aren't supposed to. I know it's hard, but you can do it. We all have been there, so keep posting! You are worth it!!

carlae
SW/206
CW/166
GW/145
Restarted Atkins 01/01/09
Female/53 yrs/5'4"

[Dorrie]

Re: Im a failure.

Hi AmandaRae!! You are not a failure darlin!!!! I had a hard time when I started up for the second time...I felt bummed and hngry and did not think I could do it...I felt disgusted with myself...I kept thinking that maybe I need a different diet and considered changing to low fat or something else...BUT...summer is coming and I do not want to hide anymore!! I want to go and have fun at the beach and get a tan and not worry about how I look. I am so tired of being preoccupied with what others think of me!!!!
When I was toughing it out in the last month since starting I hung in there...after a week or so it got easier and easier...I have dropped 13 pounds in the last month and feel WONDERFUL even though I am far from thin....
AmandaRae....please be patient...that is the key for me...give your body time to adjust...if your weight does not change for days....stay patient....it will happen for you!! I cannot explain how I feel...soooo good...I am sure that soon it will really start to show to the outside world as well and when other people start to notice it will feel that much better.
I tried the eggnog shake that is here on the boards today and WOW it was delicious!!! Devilled eggs are another thing that I love...diet jello...just a few tablespoons with cabbage shredded into it helps with cravings for me as well...I try to get on my exercise bike every day or two....even if I only put a little time in while a load of laundry finishes...it makes me feel good!!!
Hang in there Sweetie!! You will not regret it...patience...just keep reminding yourself!! You are worth it and how can you be a failure for trying to better your life..stick with it Hugs, Dorrie