Back again....oh I could cry!!!

[Alaskansonya]

I posted this message in the induction section but Carole suggested that I should check you all out over here....I will just copy and paste my original post so that you all know where I am coming from, and where I stand (crawl, grovel, etc) lol

Hello everyone,
Some of the folks who are on here a lot may remember me, then again, maybe not. I could just cry right about now as I have to start all over again...Let me explain.

Years ago, I was doing fine, losing weight...started at 286 lbs and lost down to around 245 and started feeling better...Then I lost it somewhere...My husband worked on the north slope of Alaska, 2 weeks gone, 2 weeks back. I got to where I didn't want to take away from his time here so we went out alot.. to restaurants, drank beer, and traveled on road trips a lot!....At first I was sort of ok, I would go back on plan when he left and lose what I had gained while he was gone...back and forth, back and forth....Then, at the beginning of this year he stopped working on the slope and started working closer to home...both of us were used to eating a certain way when he was here and that never changed...what changed was that I found I wasn't able to do my original woe while he is here. I have gained almost all of my weight back now!!! I am back to 279.2 lbs as of this morning.....Now I know I have no choice and no direction left but to do this woe! I have to do this not only for my mental health but for my general health overall. My stomach hurts all of the time and I feel tired and just plain useless! Its going to be tough at first, but I know I can do it as I have done it before...Hubby is just going to have to tough it out whether he likes it or not! lol....

I am going to use fitday to help me track my carbs, I have the paid version on my computer. I am a 40 year old college student and start back on August 24th and I am hoping to have the energy to really keep up and actually fit in those stupid chairs eventually. (maybe not that fast huh? rofl) Anyhow, I just wanted to share my stupidity and hope to get some support in here. (smack me if you need too! rofl) So today, June 9th, I am starting all over!

Hugs to all who read this!

[SandyL2002]

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Welcome back Sonya you can do this!

[EW78]

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Welcome back! I'm on Day 2 today for the 100th time and will gladly join you. I have posted my story before but just quickly - I went from 199 to 123 in 9 months in 2003. My low weight was a bit too low so I got back to 130 and felt perfect. Fast forward a few years and I have put back almost all of it on for various reasons - health, big geographical move, career change etc - but regardless - here I am at 187 lbs on Day 2 - so we will get back on track together!!! Post every day - the Roll Call is great!

[darn75]

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Hi, Hope it's ok if I jump in here too - because I think I'm back for about the 100th time also! I was down to 145 in 2003 but not I'm back to 170 and am finally really tired of feeling and looking like I do. I know I feel so much better when I eat low carb but have a terrible sweet tooth and go along with the crowd when I know I shouldn't! Anyway - I'm restarting induction again today 7/12 for what I hope is the lasat time ever! Good luck to all of us!

Deb

[Alaskansonya]

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Hi everyone! Well, today is day 4 and I have lost 7 lbs so far...I am feeling a bit better but still having the beginning headaches and such...

For now, i am sticking to pretty much the same foods for morning and lunch...dinner is always different...I usually have bulk sausage with eggs scrambled in. Then for lunch is a salad with meat....I have been to an american restaurant and ordered wings for appetizer, hamburger steak with mushrooms and a salad for the meal...then at a mexican restaurant I ate salsa with a spoon (kept that waitress busy refilling those little dishes! giggle) for the appetizer, and ordered fajitas for the meal...I ate the fajitas with no tortillas and topped it with the guacamole and sour cream. Last night we had delmonico steaks and caeser salad (minus croutons)...for dessert last night I had some jello (made with sucralose) and whipped cream.
I am drinking my water, a bit of iced tea (unsweetened) and I have black coffee in the mornings. I am not doing any exercise at the moment other than just getting up and doing stuff around the house and stuff.

I feel that old stubborness coming back too! lol I get really ornery these days and I am sure its because of the withdrawels....does anyone else have that?? I mean, my poor kids!!! rofl I am the ogre-mama these days! Does this go away I wonder?

[bubbantinkerbell]

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Sonya, I just restarted the induction my self. Stopped drinking my never ending pot of coffee and am going on day 4. I felt confident enough to put it all away today so I wouldn't see it sitting on the counter. My withdrawls have eased up alot. Still not the nicest person to be around, but not the monster I was a couple days ago. It will get better and easier, you just have to stick with it and not cheat. Good luck.

[Mick2360]

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Hi Sonya and all others. I'm a second timer and lost about sixty pounds ten years ago. It all came back and brought some major health issues with it. I found this website, did my shopping and made the commitment to begin the induction again. I will think of each of you when I start and send up a prayer that tomorrow morning, my fresh start, finds you well and in peace about yourselves. I wouldn't speak for anyone else but I know I can be very harsh in my self assessment. I have to remember to show myself the same patience and kindness that i regularly show to others who fall short of perfection.