Ok, now it's time to really kick my own ***!

[ChantillyLace88]

I initially started Atkins in December of 2008. I lost 35 pounds and loved it. Then my father died in March. I know I am an emotional eater and of course, that's what I did. But I did manage to jump on the bandwagon once I realized I needed to re-start somewhere.
Fast forward to a week ago, when my friend and her 18 month old were murdered, and once again I started to emotionally eat. Dammit, why do I keep doing this to myself???
I know I need to find something other than eating when I'm distraught. It's not like I can avoid the death of loved ones so I absolutely need to get my act together.
It just does not make sense to me. I'm a very disciplined person, I keep track of everything I eat, journal how I feel when I lose weight and/or gain, follow Atkins religiously (when I don't break down), etc.
I'm going to promise myself that any time I feel like eating that garbage that makes me fat, I will write it all down here for the world to see considering my biggest fear in life is failure.
Sorry, just needed to vent.

[JulieB]

Re: Ok, now it's time to really kick my own ***!

Sorry to hear about the cr*p going on in your life. I'm glad that you recognize your potential for failure in certain situations - I hope that you can find an alternative way to cope so that you can continue to succeed with your WOE no matter what life throws at you. Best wishes,

[Georgiana]

Re: Ok, now it's time to really kick my own ***!

(((((((Chantel)))))))

I hope you got things back under control and are doing better. Keep in touch and let us know how your Induction goes.

[imagood1]

Re: Ok, now it's time to really kick my own ***!

Don't beat yourself up over it -- its done -- don't look back, look forward. If something happens again find a new outlet -- food isn't the anwer, you already know that.

Post on the board often - let people here get you through the bad times as well as the good times.

[ChantillyLace88]

Re: Ok, now it's time to really kick my own ***!

Hey guys! I'm feeling a lot better than I did when I initially posted about all the crap going on in my life.
I am now on Day 3 of Induction and the scale reads that I''ve dropped 8 pounds. I know it was mostly water weight and I started in the middle of my TOM. But it's water weight I don't want so I'm glad!
I've written a list of things to do other than eat when I'm happy/mad/sad/bored. Boredom eating gets the best of me although I never go hungry with this WOE so it controls it. That's why I love it so much. I don't think about food at all; in a way I have to force myself to eat haha Weird coming from me.
Anyways, things are going good on my side. How is everyone else doing?!