Ashamed

[Shay]

I'm back here again. I went on to extended induction after slipping thinking I could jump back on...and here a week later I still have not. This forum really helped me out so I am back to the beginning again. I have newly diagnosed diabetes that I have been ignoring, and after a visit with my doctor Friday I am forced to face that nothing is getting better without me doing the work. I'm really depressed right now, feel like the biggest failure and like I will never be able o change myself. I'm only 28 years old, I shouldn't be worrying about dying do to my weight this young, why can't I do something about it? I actually had another doctor tell me yesterday (not my regular doctor, who is all for doing Atkins to control my diabetes) tell me that I shouldn't do Atkins because it is hard on the kidneys as is diabetes. My husband was with me when he told me this so now he is questioning whether I should start again as well. I know this is healthy and what I need so that doesn't bother me, I just don't understand why just when I make progress I sabatoge myself.

[BreakfastSurreal]

Re: Ashamed

I'm back here again. I went on to extended induction after slipping thinking I could jump back on...and here a week later I still have not. This forum really helped me out so I am back to the beginning again. I have newly diagnosed diabetes that I have been ignoring, and after a visit with my doctor Friday I am forced to face that nothing is getting better without me doing the work. I'm really depressed right now, feel like the biggest failure and like I will never be able o change myself. I'm only 28 years old, I shouldn't be worrying about dying do to my weight this young, why can't I do something about it? I actually had another doctor tell me yesterday (not my regular doctor, who is all for doing Atkins to control my diabetes) tell me that I shouldn't do Atkins because it is hard on the kidneys as is diabetes. My husband was with me when he told me this so now he is questioning whether I should start again as well. I know this is healthy and what I need so that doesn't bother me, I just don't understand why just when I make progress I sabatoge myself.

Shay, honey! Let me tell you my brother has a severe kidney disease called IGA Nephropathy...he did atkins, and his kidneys are actually BETTER than they were before. It may not be true of all cases, but honestly I have NEVER heard of anyone getting kidney problems because of being on Atkins...as far as I am aware this is just a speculation of a POSSIBLE problem, but has yet to really effect anyone...I screwed up last weekend myself, I had gotten down to 189, and ever since I cheated I have been stuck at 194 until this morning, I'm back down to 190. You just gotta keep at it and keep your head up. I think the reason I "sabotaged" myself was because I was on such a high from doing SO well in the first week and half...I had lost 12 pounds already! So I guess I took that 12 pounds for granted since it came off so quick...but this past week I have had to pay for it! Work just as hard with even slower results...You just HAVE to stick it out! You CAN do it, but believing in yourself is the first step!

[CathyR]

Shay,
Hang in there, you CAN do this. Don't look at the big picture. Take each day 1 small step at a time. Set, mini, mini goals. When you think you might slip, tell yourself you are going to think about it 1st. Go into a quiet room, look at yourself in the mirror and talk to yourself. Talk positive and give yourself encouragement. Then, log in here to the boards. Do all of this before you grab something you know will make you fail. After you have read a few posts, do some sit ups, or some deep knee bends. Or,, pick up good book. Make a list of all the things that make you feel good (besides food) write it down. When you feel like slipping, go to your list and start doing the things on it that you enjoy. Maybe its listning to a favorite song, or writing in a journal. Maybe its taking a walk, or calling someone on phone. For me, its working in my garden. I have lots of flowers in my yard that I have grown, and when I really feel like I want that candy bar, I go grab a rose our of my yard to mind me, this rose didnt bloom in day, and neither will I.

We are here to help and all feel the same at times. :hug

[wannabethintoo]

Don't give up Shay. You can do this. Are you the type of person who needs results to keep motivated. I noticed that you threw away your scale. Is not knowing what you weigh working for you? For me, I need to know my progress (either by weight or inches) in order to stay motivated. Are you keeping track of your inches? Where are you in your weight loss journey? How long were you following Atkins?

[Starmaker]

when I really feel like I want that candy bar, I go grab a rose out of my yard to remind me, this rose didnt bloom in a day, and neither will I.


Very poetic! Groovy! I am going to post that sentence on my fridge!

[CathyR]

Thanks Star, I wasnt trying to be a poet,,, OH and yeah,,, the rose.... it smells even better than that candy bar!

[Starmaker]

Indeed! Here Here!