I did not think I would survive this weekend. I went to my boyfriends, and he has no idea I'm doing this. I know what he would say I shouldnt do it and I don't need to. I really only need to lose like 20 lbs and I'm 5'8 so you can't tell but I know it's there and I want abs and toned up so bad. I just like this diet. Anyways, when he comes to visit me it's fine bcz I can fix what I want (no carbs). Well this morning his dad made us breakfast sausage gravy... it gets worse it was on a piece of toast. I did not want to eat any bread but you can not say no to his dad. He asked if I wanted one piece or two and I quickly replied oh oh just one please so I made it through breakfast with some gravy and bread that's the only carbs I thought it's ok I can do this... well we go out to a party and I'm 21 and in college so yes I drink I'm no alcoholic so I don't want any replies saying I am well my bf asks what kind of beer I want and I said I'll just drink water that way I can drive us home. He didn't say anything, and I was so relieved, but he brings out two bottles of flavored water for me to drink at the party (AquaCal) flavored with aspartme grrrrr... He said I know how much you love this so here ya go. He doesn't know I haven't drank it since atkins but oh well I drank em, hoping they woudln't stall me. The next day we go to a fish fry, and I have no idea what the batter was. I ate very very little fish. I did eat the sourkraut salad, and regular salad. However, the sourkraut salad had carrots in it impossible to remove, and it didn't taste like strong sourkraut so I'm willing to bet there was sugar in it. Everything else I had at the picnic was atkins friendly (green beans, cucumbers) Other then the food, I had an awesome time with my bf this weekend. One thing really bothers me though. On the 14th of this month is Jamboree in the Hills. It's a huge 4 day concert and I want to look great for it because everybody wears bikini tops. So my time is running out. I have to really really really do good these next 11 days to tone up and be bikini top ready. I plan on writing down every last ounce of food that goes into my mouth, and exercising a whole bunch. I'm sorry this is so long, I tend to ramble but I could really use some support. I can't get it from my b/f because I dont want him to know and my mom is a nurse and I heard her talking about how bad this diet is. She would not be happy if she knew I was on it. You guys are all I got!




25 / F / 5'8"

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