Emotional Meltdown....

[Terry]

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Yep

What Megs said

I will be thinking of you and wishing you well. Post and let us know how you made out.

<hug>

[iamcrazy]

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that must have been so hard for you to read. I hope that everything turns out to be ok

[Elizellen]

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I will be thinking of you today Simoone and sending you cyberhugs.

Just think - some day you will be posting 'the doc told me I am overweight Hooray for me!'

It was great for me when I went from morbidly obese to obese to moderately overweight and now I am 'just' overweight!!! You will be there too in time I am sure.

[G-Mom]

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Hi, Simone, darlin'! Just want to give my support as well. I wanted to tell you that the last time I went off the wagon, about two weeks after getting back on, I developed a pain that would not go away for 2 weeks! I had numerous tests, but they found nothing. Have you fallen off the wagon in the last month at all? I fully believe that switching back to really bad carbs through my system through a loop and that is what the pain was.

Obviously, you may actually have something wrong, but I hope you don't. Please try to cheer up hon. I have been in your shoes and been called morbidly obese, and it feels awful. But keep going strong on your Atkins and you will leave that description in the dust, believe me!!

I will be thinking about you, dear.

[Finelly]

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I'll be thinking of you all day, so please post when the procedure is done to let us know you survived!

[Isabeau]

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Just sending some hugs and good thoughts your way. I hope everything went well today. *smiles*

[Sarah1341]

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Just wanted to say hello Simone! Hope today's appt went well!!!

[Terry]

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Thinking of you Simone!

[Simone]

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I did it!!!

Ok, you know that I am a writer by nature so I have to tell you the entire story. First of all I was given a valium (sp?) to calm my nerves. It didn't calm my nerves at all. So the tech had to find a Dr. to prescribe more meds to me. After about an hour and a half they found a Dr to give me one more. So I took it and went into the room, hoping that by the time I undressed it would have me under its control. I kept saying "I don't feel any different" over and over again. "The drug isn't working...I need more. Please can I have some more." They put me on my back and told me to just wait, that it would work. Relax, they said. I took some deep breaths and started trying to recite scripture...at first it just wasn't working for me. I got in about to my midriff when I started freaking out. I screamed so loud and cried like a plum fool. I felt like the biggest idiot. The tech never laughed at me though. He just said, Mrs. Rivers, this will be ok. Just calm down. I will take you out if you can't do it, I promise. Just trust me. The next time I went in up to my hips. The machine was bigger, but sill tight. I felt like I was being stuffed into a bottle. I freaked out again. This time I thought I would vomit. Then I imagined myself drowning in my own vomit. Gross, I know, but true. So again, I screamed for them to let me out. They had strapped me to the thing to keep me from moving. I knew that I had to have this procedure and at least I was with AMericans this time. We both understood each other. So then the guy asked me what I was afraid of. I said I feel like this thing is a coffin and I am going to die in it. I am going to suffocate to death because I am too fat and I will get stuck in it and you won't be able to save me. I said all this in hysterical tears. Still this guy never laughed at me. He asked a young lady to meet my head at the other end and soothe me. He said that he would move me through really fast so that I could see out the other end and that would make me feel better.

Then I realized that I really thought I was going to die. I mean really as crazy as that sounds. It reminded me of when I had my last son. I felt the same exact panic. Then I realized that I am a child of God. If I die, I go to be with him. So I regurgitated scripture...Jesus has not given me the spirit of fear, but of a sound mind. Even though I was acting like I was crazy, I knew he had given me a sound mind. So I told the tech to try one more time. He sent me through quickly and there was the lady at the other end. I could see her. She looked like an angel. She talked to me and asked me about my boys who she had met in the waiting room. My focus was on them and how much I love them....after a few moments of fright from the loudness of the machine, I relaxed. I told her my whole life's story and she listened attentively while calming me with her voice. And boom...it was over!

Hallelujah! I did it!

Thank you all for your well wishes and prayers. I truly believe they got me through this. I am so proud of myself.

[Terry]

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Woo Hoo

You did it!!!!!

Im glad that is over for you Simone. I have always feared having to do that at some point in time. My husband just had one done and I cringe at just the thought of it.

im happy for you. Now let us know how the results come out.

Best wishes!

[Finelly]

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I just cried when I read what happened today and about how you made it thru. I'm so proud of you! And I hope those two people who helped you thru get a raise!!!!!!!

[Elizellen]

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I am so glad you posted about what happened Simone as we were all worrying about your ordeal.
My husband said when he had his it was like standing pressed up against the tunnel wall while an underground train went past!!
How lovely that you had sympathetic technicians this time to help you through it.

[G-Mom]

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I am really happy you got through it too, Simone. My father-in-law has such terrible claustrophobia that he had a panic attack when trying to sleep in my son's bottom bunkbed! So, I have heard stories like yours before, and so have those techs. It is extremely common for people to be afraid of those dang MRI tubes, and thank goodness the techs at that hospital knew just what to do.

Please keep us updated on what they found out!