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Well it is 8:45 am in Germany and already I have taken my husband to play golf with his coworkers, walked two miles, and praised God for a new day.
I looked in the mirror this morning while bearing all. I really looked. I noticed bones around my neck and shoulder area. Of course I think I am imagining things so I yelled for my husband. "Baby does it seem like my neck is thinner? I mean would I look good in an off the shoulder top now?" He smiled at me and said, "yes you do look thinner up top." Well of course he said that. He wants me to stay with him and raise his kids, cook 3 meals a day and clean his house. What else is he going to say?
...my inner voice was talking.
So I looked at myself again...this time at my back. I had counted the rolls in it and written it down. Now it just seemed different. Like I would not be so resistent to a halter or low back shirt. I asked him again...does my back look thinner. He said your upper body looks thinner to me. He said he noticed that my bra and panties just looked nicer on me these days. Well, again...he is supposed to say all that.
Then I went to the scale. Same scale I have been using for 6 weeks now. Same scale that shows no weight loss at all. I got on it and I was at 260 down from 263.
Three measly pounds in 6 weeks. I was so disappointed. I had 3 clean weeks of induction, resisted Paris indulgences and still...not losing weight. I have read the book. Dr. A says to look at inches but he also states plainly that he "expects weight reduction too." Anywhoooooo
After all the body inspections, I got that size 20, nonstretch regular denim shorts and put them on. I mean I put them on. They were tight as the dickens, but I put them on. The waist of them was too BIG!! They were tight on my hips, butt and thighs. Then I put on the jeans I had on the day my husband asked me to marry him. The last time I tried them on I couldn't get them above mid thigh. This time I got them all the way up. They were about 4-6 inches from fastening. They were cutting off the circulation in my body, but I got them up higher! Then I tried on a pair of jeans that I only wore once in 2001 called slim fit. I have round hips and bought these jeans to make them look more square....I got them up and almost fastened. I couldn't even get these far above the knees the last time I tried them. At this point I was feeling pretty darned good. so I ran to my "skinny lingerie" drawer and retrieved a pair of bikini panties and a sexy matching bra that I hvaen't worn in God knows how long.
Now I didn't look like a lingerie model in them, but if not for that last roll just below my belly button and above my groin area, I looked pretty darn good in this by my standards. 
Ok....so that helped me to get out and walk this morning. And no I didn't cheat last night. I cried a lot, ate some ham and red peppers, but no cheating.
NOw I am am still disappointed by the scale. I really am, but I have evidence...at least I think I do...that I am getting smaller. I wish I had taken pictures before now! Then I would not have to rely on my twisted memory warped by my emotions.
Anywhoooooo I feel a lot better today. Like I made it through a night of withdrawls (back to the crack addict analogy) and now I am ok. Like Ray Charles in that movie where I made through weeks of pain and agony and then he freed himself of the drugs. That is how I feel. My walk was faster. The morning was cold about 60 degrees adn I was sweating after about a mile.
I Feel like maybe...just maybe I will get to be normal size at some point in my life. And while that is not a roaring cheer....it sure as **** beats feeling hopeless. Hopelessness is reason to give up. I found a reason not to, and for that...I am so grateful.
Thanks.
I looked in the mirror this morning while bearing all. I really looked. I noticed bones around my neck and shoulder area. Of course I think I am imagining things so I yelled for my husband. "Baby does it seem like my neck is thinner? I mean would I look good in an off the shoulder top now?" He smiled at me and said, "yes you do look thinner up top." Well of course he said that. He wants me to stay with him and raise his kids, cook 3 meals a day and clean his house. What else is he going to say?
...my inner voice was talking.So I looked at myself again...this time at my back. I had counted the rolls in it and written it down. Now it just seemed different. Like I would not be so resistent to a halter or low back shirt. I asked him again...does my back look thinner. He said your upper body looks thinner to me. He said he noticed that my bra and panties just looked nicer on me these days. Well, again...he is supposed to say all that.
Then I went to the scale. Same scale I have been using for 6 weeks now. Same scale that shows no weight loss at all. I got on it and I was at 260 down from 263.
Three measly pounds in 6 weeks. I was so disappointed. I had 3 clean weeks of induction, resisted Paris indulgences and still...not losing weight. I have read the book. Dr. A says to look at inches but he also states plainly that he "expects weight reduction too." AnywhooooooAfter all the body inspections, I got that size 20, nonstretch regular denim shorts and put them on. I mean I put them on. They were tight as the dickens, but I put them on. The waist of them was too BIG!! They were tight on my hips, butt and thighs. Then I put on the jeans I had on the day my husband asked me to marry him. The last time I tried them on I couldn't get them above mid thigh. This time I got them all the way up. They were about 4-6 inches from fastening. They were cutting off the circulation in my body, but I got them up higher! Then I tried on a pair of jeans that I only wore once in 2001 called slim fit. I have round hips and bought these jeans to make them look more square....I got them up and almost fastened. I couldn't even get these far above the knees the last time I tried them. At this point I was feeling pretty darned good. so I ran to my "skinny lingerie" drawer and retrieved a pair of bikini panties and a sexy matching bra that I hvaen't worn in God knows how long.
Now I didn't look like a lingerie model in them, but if not for that last roll just below my belly button and above my groin area, I looked pretty darn good in this by my standards. Ok....so that helped me to get out and walk this morning. And no I didn't cheat last night. I cried a lot, ate some ham and red peppers, but no cheating.
NOw I am am still disappointed by the scale. I really am, but I have evidence...at least I think I do...that I am getting smaller. I wish I had taken pictures before now! Then I would not have to rely on my twisted memory warped by my emotions.
Anywhoooooo I feel a lot better today. Like I made it through a night of withdrawls (back to the crack addict analogy) and now I am ok. Like Ray Charles in that movie where I made through weeks of pain and agony and then he freed himself of the drugs. That is how I feel. My walk was faster. The morning was cold about 60 degrees adn I was sweating after about a mile.
I Feel like maybe...just maybe I will get to be normal size at some point in my life. And while that is not a roaring cheer....it sure as **** beats feeling hopeless. Hopelessness is reason to give up. I found a reason not to, and for that...I am so grateful.
Thanks.
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