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Well, I've cheated. Was in induction for about 30 hours, was going great. Had a few cravings, but they subsided, and I made it through them. Than, about the worst thing happened.....I work 11pm-7am normally, and I start sunday night/mon morning, so I'm off for the weekend at 7am friday mornings. But, something that NEVER happens, happened. I got a call at 5pm friday night, saying I needed to work (I'm in the military). Apparently they have a plane that needs to get fixed this weekend, and I work support (handling tools, etc.). So we're working 12 hour shifts, and lucky me mine started that night at 12am fri night-12pm sat afternoon (I'm still currently here).
My induction flu had just started kicking in, was able to ignore it before work because I was playing my weekly poker game. Well, went from there to work, and it was getting horrible. At a little after 1am, I got really tired, and my head was pounding. Knowing that I had another 11'ish hours to work, I just couldnt' take it anymore. I tried so hard to eat the food I'd just got at walmart before coming here (ham, a 1carb beef jerky, cheese, and tons of water). But it just wasn't cutting it, and I was fading fast. NOW, if i'd been home, like any other friday night, I'd have just gone to bed, maybe slept in a while longer than normal, whatever. I'd have made it through. Seriously, this is about the first weekend in about 2 years that I've had to work the weekend, with 6'ish hours of notice. I know, it's just as much my fault, but I'd really planned this out, started at a time so that the worst of this would occur between now and when I went back to work.
So, like I said, I cheated, and had a Mt Dew and a reese's pb cup. It really didn't make me feel any better, and now I just feel HORRIBLE that I wasted almost a day and a half
. Guess it's right back to where I started. I'm so disapointed in myself.
My induction flu had just started kicking in, was able to ignore it before work because I was playing my weekly poker game. Well, went from there to work, and it was getting horrible. At a little after 1am, I got really tired, and my head was pounding. Knowing that I had another 11'ish hours to work, I just couldnt' take it anymore. I tried so hard to eat the food I'd just got at walmart before coming here (ham, a 1carb beef jerky, cheese, and tons of water). But it just wasn't cutting it, and I was fading fast. NOW, if i'd been home, like any other friday night, I'd have just gone to bed, maybe slept in a while longer than normal, whatever. I'd have made it through. Seriously, this is about the first weekend in about 2 years that I've had to work the weekend, with 6'ish hours of notice. I know, it's just as much my fault, but I'd really planned this out, started at a time so that the worst of this would occur between now and when I went back to work.
So, like I said, I cheated, and had a Mt Dew and a reese's pb cup. It really didn't make me feel any better, and now I just feel HORRIBLE that I wasted almost a day and a half
. Guess it's right back to where I started. I'm so disapointed in myself.
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No more beating yourself up. Falling off the wagon gets you a lump on the head, but you get to jump right back on. Weakness is a human thing. I also know about the midnight shifts. I did that for 11 years. It is very hard. Keep your healthy snacks handy and your water. You can do this. Think about what motivated you to a healthier lifestyle and see if that helps you. I know it does for me. Kick up you exercise a little and keep going forward. You can do it!!!!!
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