The jist of its in my journal somewhere, but I'm having some major nerve problems lately and for some idiot reason i'm cheating because I hurt.
I mean im not literally thinking "hey i'm in pain so I think i'll go have something I cant have" but you know what I mean.
I type all day long ad my job and I think its starting to catch up with me. About a week ago or so my hand went numb. I've had slight numbness in my pinky once in a while for years, but this came outta nowhere and is effecting mostly my 4/5th fingers, then up the top of my hand and up my arm to where now the muscles all feel like jello and evrything I do with that hand hurts. My elbow's throbbing and i'm really miserable, because I HAVE to type at work, and work Is busy, so i'm typing a LOT. I had a brace on, but I seriously can't type fast enough in it to get anything done, so my moods been really grouchy because im feeling frustrated with it because there's nothing I can do about it.
I have to go have an EMG next friday and I really dont feel like I can put up with this for another 8 days.So what do i do? I start cheating! wtf.
They aren't horrible cheats for some reason but cheats nonetheless. I had a normal breakfast this morning w/ eggs/sausage and water, I even passed on the coffee. Then I had a frustrating conversation with DH because hes giving the typical male response of "Well what do you want me to say, I dont know what to tell you" when im freaking out because it just aint normal how its feeling! so I got up and got a plate of veggies w/ ranch, and baby carrots were involved which are a no no. Then not 20 minutes later for some reason I got up again and came back with coffee (w/ splenda), a diet cherry coke and a mini bag of wheat thins and I wasnt even hungry. *Sigh*
someone slap me and keep me on track, it seems like every time I start doing well something idiotic comes up and "gets in the way" well things will always get in the way and I need to learn not to let them run my life!
I mean im not literally thinking "hey i'm in pain so I think i'll go have something I cant have" but you know what I mean.
I type all day long ad my job and I think its starting to catch up with me. About a week ago or so my hand went numb. I've had slight numbness in my pinky once in a while for years, but this came outta nowhere and is effecting mostly my 4/5th fingers, then up the top of my hand and up my arm to where now the muscles all feel like jello and evrything I do with that hand hurts. My elbow's throbbing and i'm really miserable, because I HAVE to type at work, and work Is busy, so i'm typing a LOT. I had a brace on, but I seriously can't type fast enough in it to get anything done, so my moods been really grouchy because im feeling frustrated with it because there's nothing I can do about it.
I have to go have an EMG next friday and I really dont feel like I can put up with this for another 8 days.So what do i do? I start cheating! wtf.
They aren't horrible cheats for some reason but cheats nonetheless. I had a normal breakfast this morning w/ eggs/sausage and water, I even passed on the coffee. Then I had a frustrating conversation with DH because hes giving the typical male response of "Well what do you want me to say, I dont know what to tell you" when im freaking out because it just aint normal how its feeling! so I got up and got a plate of veggies w/ ranch, and baby carrots were involved which are a no no. Then not 20 minutes later for some reason I got up again and came back with coffee (w/ splenda), a diet cherry coke and a mini bag of wheat thins and I wasnt even hungry. *Sigh*
someone slap me and keep me on track, it seems like every time I start doing well something idiotic comes up and "gets in the way" well things will always get in the way and I need to learn not to let them run my life!

You probably have a subconscious memory of feeling better when eating/drinking a high carb food. Maybe your mother gave you punch in a bottle when you cried.
...Was in HEAVEN -got to 150, for awhile, then got too busy, and gave in too much... and... OK holding pattern "keep it together..." 





so all the brace was really doing was keeping me from moving the things that hurt, but not helping the problem. My elbow doesnt rest on anything while im at work typing, but it is bent all day long and I tend to sleep that way too.


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