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    having a tough day...

    I'm having one of those days.

    I worked really hard last week on tracking everything I ate and I got out for a walk ever single day. Then this week, I've been so busy that I barely have long enough to go home and eat dinner before I go to bed. No exercise time. We had our carpets clean so the house was a disaster and we're planning a camping trip for a WHOLE GROUP this weekend. I'm so sore from just not being able to rest enough for my body to recoup.

    I have been looking forward to the camping trip for so long, but now I don't even want to go. We're planning the food so we did some things that could be atkins friendly, which is great. But, while everyone else is eating tacos I'm going to be just eating the tri-tip. I am so sick of being different. I'm sick of being the fat girl in the group, always being on a diet and eating differently. Everyone will be drinking and doing smores, everyone but me. Everyone will be eating full meals, but me. I'm just so down on myself. After working so hard last week I lost 1.5 lbs which is GREAT! But I didn't do anything to work toward my own success this week (exercise, etc) so I already feel like I let myself down.

    I'm just sick of being different. I'm sick of going out and trying to find clothes that I feel good in AND are comfortable. If I get them really baggy so they're comfortable they dont look good because they're so baggy and if I get them tight then they just show off how heavy I am.

    God I'm miserable today.

    HW-194 CW-194 GW-150
    5'5.5 23 years old
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    Re: having a tough day...

    Don't beat yerself up like that, you said you didn't work towards your success this week but actually you couldn't with the schedule you had, so you know better than that. Your tired of bein' the fat girl? My wife is the size of an NFL linebacker and I love her to death. Its like that woman in the movie Shallow Hal said about slim hardbodied women, they're just well formed molecules, it's says nuthin' about the person inside. And you know what, that camping spot will probably be there for a long time, If you don't really feel like goin' then stay home and have some you time or whatever you want, if you wanna go, then go and don't worry about what everybody else is doing that you can't, just enjoy nature. When I'm in the woods (a lot lol) and see a squirrel skitter up a tree I don't get my feelins' hurt cause i can't do that to! (not since I was 12 anyways!). I understand bein' sick 'o things, and feelin' miserable, it gets the better of us sometimes, just don't let it get the BEST of ye!, you deserve better than that!

    hugs,

    Jim

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    • #3
      Re: having a tough day...

      Hey Snuggles,

      Take a deep breath and try to relax! It sounds like you're churning everything over in your head and lots of things are pressuring you.

      Try to step aside and think about the long term and what matters to you. I'm pretty sure you'd rather be planning ahead and being the odd one out foodwise if it meant you could get down to the size you want to be. I know exactly how you feel - my friends are all tiny and gorgeous. I can look more like them and be happy about my size but I can't eat like them. At first this is hard to deal with and it's very frustrating and you want to quit - it's not fair, right? But eventually, it'll click into place you'll be losing more and you won't want to eat normally because you like where you're at.

      If someone had told me I wouldn't want to eat normally when I began I'd have laughed in their face!

      Also not each week will be stellar - just try to do what you can and plan plan plan. It really does get easier. Don't give up because a day or week hasn't been perfect - learn from it.

      My Journal :rollerska :bouncy: 27 Female 5'7 :redsnoopy

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      • #4
        Re: having a tough day...

        I'm not going to quit. I know that each day I have to eat so I might as well eat the food on the diet plan.

        I'm just so sad. I'm sitting at my desk at work on the verge of tears. My lunch break I went to my car and cried. I am uncomfortable in my skin, uncomfortable in my life. I'm just so sad.

        I want to be a normal person. I want to eat like everyone else and be able to have fun like everyone else. I know the skinny girls in the camping group aren't worrying a week in advance what they're going to wear just to be comfortable with their heavy bottom halfs that isn't a dress!

        HW-194 CW-194 GW-150
        5'5.5 23 years old

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        • #5
          Re: having a tough day...

          Oh my gosh..you sound like an email that I just wrote around Mother's Day.. I was so ticked off that NOTHING there was planned for me to eat.. So I decided to say H*** with that I made my husband stop and get me something that I could eat..and everyone was going Man I wish I had that Julienne Salad.. Make sure you stick stuff to go that will satisfy you and hang in there..You won't regret it
          Sandy
          40th birthday June 27,2009


          Starting Weight 293 Highest Weight
          Current Weight 271
          Goal Weight 150
          Female/40

          Mini Goals
          #1-Get into 260's-
          #2-Get into 250's-
          #3-Get into 240's
          #4-Get into 230's



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          • #6
            Re: having a tough day...

            Wish I could give you a BIG HUG! God I have felt like that most of my adult life. The "fat one" in the family, always this-diet-or-that-diet..looking at my SIZE 3 sister who can eat me under the table and think GOD it is so not fair!!!

            But, it is what it is. I know telling you to look at the good things in your life sounds very flip, but it is true. Just focus on the good and fu** the bad! Even when you reach your goal weight, there will still be crap...so focus on the positive and remember..who you are NOT represented by the number on a scale.

            It's your soul that makes you beautiful

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            • #7
              Re: having a tough day...

              Thank you for all your wonderful comments. I came home yesterday to flowers, a sweet card, new york strip steak, salad and a cream/cream cheese whipped cream dessert prepared for me by my fiance yesterday. Between everyone's support and his love, I made it through.

              HW-194 CW-194 GW-150
              5'5.5 23 years old

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              • #8
                Re: having a tough day...

                Hey,

                Its ok! Relax a bit. You are exhausted. Slow down and try to regroup. You have to remember, you are changing your life for you! So what if your different, actually thats pretty cool because it would be boring if we were all the same. While everyone is porking out on tacos and probably gaining weight enjoy what you have and savor the flavors.

                Life is not about eating, its about enjoying the moments with each other and having fun. Who said we have to eat every where we go! Who said we have to eat all this sugar and garbage that makes us feel sick, and gain weight.

                I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS! I am glad you came here and posted. I am sending you a great big hug. Go camping and take a nice long hike, smell the air, relax and enjoy yourself. Drink lots of water, then you won't be so hungry.

                Hang in there Snuggles11, we are here for you to cheer you on.
                We can lose this weight! Hugs, Jenny
                Female 43

                Restart Induction: 1/4/08
                Weight:375
                Current Weight 1/16/08: 360.6


                This pic was in 2005, I weighed 372.

                This was taken October 2007, I weigh 375.

                I was on atkins last year in the early fall and lost about 30 pounds. I obviously gained it back...but I know this is the right diet for me as it works very good. So I am back!

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                • #9
                  Re: having a tough day...

                  Originally posted by Snuggles11
                  Thank you for all your wonderful comments. I came home yesterday to flowers, a sweet card, new york strip steak, salad and a cream/cream cheese whipped cream dessert prepared for me by my fiance yesterday. Between everyone's support and his love, I made it through.
                  What a sweetheart!!! I know you'll plan ahead for your trip, and enjoy being different! I love it! Hey, you can have taco salad and pork rinds for "crunch" if you need them. Totally a great meal for camping. I use ziploc storage bags for taking my salads on the go.

                  Have a great time. I know you will!

                  Cheers!

                  April 2007: 212
                  Today: 190:D :walking
                  1st Goal 189
                  Goal: 165




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