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Okay, started again yesterday. I am quite determined this time to stay at it. Over the weekend I realized that my kids and wife are suffering because of my weight. What do I mean by that?
Well, I feel totally inadequate as a man, husband and father, because I feel like I cannot keep up with my own family. My kids suffer because I do not like to take them anywhere because if we go to carnival or amusement park I am too big to fit comfortably on many of the rides. At restaurants I always have to squeeze uncomfortably into booths (tables are off limits because we cannot keep control of the kids without the help of the walls that surround the booths). My wife suffers because I am always tired and don't want to do much of anything when I get home from work.
Also, I am turning 34 in a couple of days and I feel that with my age, my weight and the way I feel I may not survive long enough to watch my kids grow up. That is a pretty sobering thing to think about.
I Sunday night and really though hard about this and asked myself, what is more important, food or family. I am ashamed to say it was a hard decision to make. I obviously have an unhealthy relationship with food. I constantly think about food. I find myself sometimes planning meals for the next few days, like I need a plan to absolutely ensure I will not miss one single meal. Whenever we do go out somewhere, a stop to eat must always be included. Can't just go see a movie, have to have dinner first. I sometimes find myself making excuses to run to the store just so I can stop and grab a cheeseburger (cause my wife tries to help me by admonishing me when I indulge too much, which means she's constantly admonishing me).
But I have made my decision. I am going to do this for my family. When I think about eating the wrong foods, I'm going to think about my kids. When I get lazy and want to stop on the treadmill after only 15 minutes, I'm going to think about how that would be failing my family.
So I say one more time. And I say that with all luck this will be the last time.
Well, I feel totally inadequate as a man, husband and father, because I feel like I cannot keep up with my own family. My kids suffer because I do not like to take them anywhere because if we go to carnival or amusement park I am too big to fit comfortably on many of the rides. At restaurants I always have to squeeze uncomfortably into booths (tables are off limits because we cannot keep control of the kids without the help of the walls that surround the booths). My wife suffers because I am always tired and don't want to do much of anything when I get home from work.
Also, I am turning 34 in a couple of days and I feel that with my age, my weight and the way I feel I may not survive long enough to watch my kids grow up. That is a pretty sobering thing to think about.
I Sunday night and really though hard about this and asked myself, what is more important, food or family. I am ashamed to say it was a hard decision to make. I obviously have an unhealthy relationship with food. I constantly think about food. I find myself sometimes planning meals for the next few days, like I need a plan to absolutely ensure I will not miss one single meal. Whenever we do go out somewhere, a stop to eat must always be included. Can't just go see a movie, have to have dinner first. I sometimes find myself making excuses to run to the store just so I can stop and grab a cheeseburger (cause my wife tries to help me by admonishing me when I indulge too much, which means she's constantly admonishing me).
But I have made my decision. I am going to do this for my family. When I think about eating the wrong foods, I'm going to think about my kids. When I get lazy and want to stop on the treadmill after only 15 minutes, I'm going to think about how that would be failing my family.
So I say one more time. And I say that with all luck this will be the last time.
But my life constantly revolves around food, always planning and anticpating the next meal... sometimes stopping to eat fast food on my way home only to eat dinner at home an hour later. I know exactly where you are coming from. Atkins is the ONLY thing that has worked for me and I KNOW it can work for you too. I'm sure you know this too and that's why you've come back. When you feel like cheating just remind yourself how good Atkins makes you feel, the feeling of control it gives you. If you have over 100 pounds to lose make sure you stop by the Century Club forum. We have daily roll calls to check in with each other and support each other along the way. Welcome back and HAPPY LOSING! 
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