I have to tell you. I have been doing atkins for 4 years now (well almost) and was a member of another board before I found this one. It simply amazes me to go back and read some of my posts. I feel exactly the way I do this time, than all the other times I have started before. What is the difference this time? Probably nothing. But like this time, I feel so motivated and ready to do this (like all the other times). I guess its better to keep trying than to totally just give up. But sometimes I wonder about myself. I wonder how do I get to the point where I just go off it after doing so good? Do I think I am not worthy of it? I don't know. Do I psych myself out so much, that I am setting myself up for a major let down? I don't know. Do I try to do something I expect I will fail at? Not at all, when I start, I feel like I could do atkins for ever, but usually around a month (2 months tops) something is happening there that is preventing me from wanting to continue. Honestly, I think it is food addiction. I love everything about food. But the food I really love eating, is killing me.
I went to the hospital about 2 months ago, my girlfriend made me go cause she was worried my sugar was high. Well she was right. They kept me in there for 4 days to get my sugar/blood pressure "normalized" even tho when I left it was still very high. When I went in the doctor checked it and it was just under 400. And he said to me, "I use to be a paramedic and we would get patients like you from time to time. You know what we would call these patients? Ticking time-bombs." He told me its only a matter of time the way I eat, that it will all catch up to me and have a stroke, coma, or even death. As he was leaving the room he said "You're a dummy" and took one last look at me as he was leaving the room as if to say, I am serious.
I checked my blood sugar last night, finally got a tester, and it was 326, I haven't been taking my meds and eating whatever I wanted to. Although I stopped drinking my cherry pepsi, and went to diet caffine coke, and it has kept my weight down about 10 pounds or so. I know I shouldn't even be drinking that. So when I left the hospital my sugar was arounf 180 or something, don't remember the exact. But I am getting in the same situation I was a few months ago. Someone my age shouldn't have to worry about strokes comas or death, but I am. I hope this is the motivation I need to keep me going good this time. Even though I have been in the hospital for this before, and it didn't change my ways.
Sorry about the novel I just needed to get this off my chest and I really hope this is my time to shine, I really do.
I went to the hospital about 2 months ago, my girlfriend made me go cause she was worried my sugar was high. Well she was right. They kept me in there for 4 days to get my sugar/blood pressure "normalized" even tho when I left it was still very high. When I went in the doctor checked it and it was just under 400. And he said to me, "I use to be a paramedic and we would get patients like you from time to time. You know what we would call these patients? Ticking time-bombs." He told me its only a matter of time the way I eat, that it will all catch up to me and have a stroke, coma, or even death. As he was leaving the room he said "You're a dummy" and took one last look at me as he was leaving the room as if to say, I am serious.
I checked my blood sugar last night, finally got a tester, and it was 326, I haven't been taking my meds and eating whatever I wanted to. Although I stopped drinking my cherry pepsi, and went to diet caffine coke, and it has kept my weight down about 10 pounds or so. I know I shouldn't even be drinking that. So when I left the hospital my sugar was arounf 180 or something, don't remember the exact. But I am getting in the same situation I was a few months ago. Someone my age shouldn't have to worry about strokes comas or death, but I am. I hope this is the motivation I need to keep me going good this time. Even though I have been in the hospital for this before, and it didn't change my ways.
Sorry about the novel I just needed to get this off my chest and I really hope this is my time to shine, I really do.









and wish you well in your Atkins journey

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