Hi.

[Lena May]

Many of you may remember me as Esteliana or Bekka. I guess I just want a fresh start with everything like that. I have clearly messed up and now I am paying for it by feeling sick and lethargic all the time. I can't go on like this anymore. I need to get back into the way of things, but it's so hard when this family can't even help me eat correctly. I want to bring food with me to work, but it's so hard to do because my dad takes like 3 servings of the dinner of the night before with him to his work, leaving me with absolutely nothing. Then of course, my motivation at home isn't all that great either, which I don't understand. My older brother moved back home with us and now he's being a major poopy head to me and saying that I am fat and all that stuff. I just can't stand it any longer. I also am motivated to start running and I want to shed a few pounds before I actually get started. I am glad that my boyfriend is helping me with that. We're going to run a marathon together next year and with his help, I know that I can do it, no doubt. Anyway, I am 18 years old and I am going to restart this once again, this time I can't give into any temptations. It's the end of cheating and the start of something new. I know this time I can do it and I know that you guys will help me get motivated. I can start right now and drink water and eat all that healthy yummy meat. I just feel bad, though, since I have been on this so many times and I fell into cheating mode. I feel like I am not an inspiration anymore and that I am a bad person. -sighs- I don't know. I don't want to be fat anymore, I want to be skinny and actually be healthy for once. I am so sorry that I have been gone for such a long time. I miss each and every one of you. -cries- :sadblinky

-Bekka

[ztachick]

Hi there- welcome to atkins and this board again
you dont have alot to lose so im sure you will make your goal in no time- set mini goals and strive for those everyday-
before you know it u will be reching each and everyone of them.
im sorry that you do not have a good support system at home- but you have an excellant one here- and we are all rooting for you and we know that you can do it congrats on coming back and even if it gets hard this time around, stay the journey, if you fall off the wagon just ask any of us for help and we can pull you on and get you started again- stay positive

[MintGreen]

You can do it :yes Think of how great it will feel to swim this summer in your new fit trim body. You should go find a swimsuit you like online and print out a pic. Hang it up, use it as modivation.

As far as your dad goes, I suggest you buy your own food. Make your own tuna, egg, or chicken salad to take to work with you. Those are even better w/out bread to dull their taste. If you cant stand eating it w/a fork, wrap it in some lettuce. If you have to, hide it someplace your dad will never go, like the bottom of the veggie drawer. Ignore your brother. Tell him his hairline is receding. It probably is anyway, and even if its not, if you say it enough he will start to believe you. Let him have a taste of his own medicine. :guns

Congradulations, I know you will stick it thru this time.

[lowcarbing4ever]

Don't feel that way

Hi, Bekka,

my name is juju. I have been on and off Atkins so many times, I have whiplash! I am re-starting today as a matter of fact and before I did, I wrote in my journal a promise to myself: that the past was the past and if I re-start this plan again that I would forget about all the prior attempts. I also talked to a very nice person who told me that just because I fell off the wagon, doesn't mean I am not low carbing or a low carber! If this is still the way of life I chose and then I am still on it; I just keep falling off. No biggie. Once I looked at it in that light, I didn't feel so bad anymore.

I know your enviroment is not the greatest because of your brother being a wanker and being mean to you but this actually could be a good opportunity to show your family a thing or two; that you can lose weight in spite of them. Maybe you could sneak and get a little food before your dad packs his lunch? Just a thought. I know how you feel about wanting to be thin and all. Don't worry, you will make it. Look at the support you got: your boyfriend and us! Welcome back and don't feel sad.

[cleochatra]

{{{{lena may}}}}

That's what a support board is for... to give you huggies (the non sexual harrassment kind) and tell you we're so totally here for you! And we are!

You are going through some tough times, but I'm so excited because you don't have all that much weight to lose, girl. Do you mind eating reheated eggs? I tend to make omlettes but eat them a few hours later, maybe cooking some bacon up ahead of time. Planning is everything on Atkins, and having a well-stocked kitchen. As well, if you exercise, that's over half the battle anyway. You could very well drop 40 pounds just by cutting your calories a little (if low-carbing is an impossibility) and walking 3 miles everyday.

[Lena May]

Aww, thanks to everyone who replied to this topic, it means a lot to me. My parents are also on the Atkins Diet, so getting the food will be somewhat easy for me, if I do get what I want. It's my dad that I am having a little problem with, but I looked over my options and what you guys wrote and I realized that it's not as hard as I deemed it to be. We have a lot of salad at home and also tuna, I really lurve tuna wrapped in lettace, YUMMY! I'll even ask my mother to buy home deli turkey and roast beef, since those are the best and aren't made with sugar, etc. (I asked the Deli people since I work at Vons and they told me exactly how they're made and stuff) Anyway, I can't buy food anymore since I am on a budget. I even got evil to myself and transfered most of my money from my checking to saving. No more money wasting for me. This will be hard, but in the end, it's worth it. Wee! Non-sexual harassment huggies, gotta love them. Here's one for each and everyone of you. :hug I will also start a journal, maybe tomorrow and have a fit day tracker, which I already have to keep myself motivated. And print out a piccie, rawr.

-Bekka