Back again more determined than ever

[booklady]

If you could kick yourself around the block, I would do that. I am so sick of going on and off plan.
I left in July of 2008 absolutely positive that low carb was not the way for me to go. Again.
I am back feeling miserable knowing that I threw away a year and a half of eating right and getting amazing support here.
I appologize for just leaving as so many people were so good to me here and I was wrong to just leave.
So, I am back on day one, yes, just a week before Christmas, a Christmas were I will finally have all six grandkids here, determined to get through the holidays carb free.
So, again I appologize for leaving and I plan to work hard this time around to make up for my total lapse of any kind of sense last July.
I am just so relieved and happy to be back.
Stephie

[liv]

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Nice that you are back.
What is making you come back? I hope everything will work out great.
Yes this is an interesting time to start. More power to you!!!

[English-bulldog]

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Hi, glad to see you are restarting.

how much did you loose before you went off the track?

[booklady]

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Health reasons mainly are why I came back. All the discomfort I am feeling right now always goes away on low carb so I know it is something I eat normally that I give up on low carb. I am not sure what, but right now I do not care, some day I will do an actual elimination diet, but for now, I know I will feel better eating this way and I want to feel good and lose the weight that is hurting my health.
The most I have ever lost on low carb or any diet is about 25 to 28 pounds. I need to see myself get lower than that. I am starting at 247 and need to lose well over a hundred pounds, closer to 120.
I know it is stupid time to start but I am to the point I cannot take the pain and not being able to use my hands. About four days I should start to feel better and within about two weeks it should be gone.
I will make sure I keep things around to get me through Christmas eve and Christmas day. I picked a bad time, but I cannot put it off anymore. I am tired of feeling bad.

[Georgiana]

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some day I will do an actual elimination diet

Well, as you add foods back in OWL, you will likely discover the culprit.

Unless it's just junk food... in which case I hope you'll never "discover" it.

[mission to lose]

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I know it is stupid time to start but I am to the point I cannot take the pain and not being able to use my hands. About four days I should start to feel better and within about two weeks it should be gone.
I will make sure I keep things around to get me through Christmas eve and Christmas day. I picked a bad time, but I cannot put it off anymore. I am tired of feeling bad.

Hey there booklady!

Welcome back! This is a GREAT time to come back. You said it best yourself...don't put it off anymore. You did the right thing.

A BAD time for you would be feeling worse if you went through Christmas eating more things and started later.

[booklady]

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Yeah, I figured it would be more painful to be in the state I am then to watch everyone eat what I cannot eat and eat what I should. I want to be creative again and when my hands hurt I can't do anything. So, I will deal with not eating more crap to get through the holidays and will come here and post in my journal when I have a rough bump to get over.
Nope, I will only add some things back in when I should and only what i should , good healthy foods but I understand that I may not be able to add much in , ever. I am an addict and I know I cannot go back to eating the foods I did.
I just have to take the one day at a time attitude over this. That is all I can do, just concentrate on doing things right today, and then get up and do that again tomorrow. No more living in the past or future, I have to start living in each day as it comes. That is the biggest change I have to make. Not get discouraged and work hard one day at a time.

[Elizellen]

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Hi Stephie
Welcome back to your ADBB family

I just have to take the one day at a time attitude over this. That is all I can do, just concentrate on doing things right today, and then get up and do that again tomorrow. No more living in the past or future, I have to start living in each day as it comes. That is the biggest change I have to make. Not get discouraged and work hard one day at a time.

This is a great positive way to approach getting back on plan
I look forward to seeing your posts over the next few weeks as you recommence your Atkins journey

[Elizellen]

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Yeah, I figured it would be more painful to be in the state I am then to watch everyone eat what I cannot eat and eat what I should.

Do you have the time to sort out some delicious recipes for food you CAN eat so you will not feel so deprived?
Maybe you can budget for some special luxuries for yourself that you do not usually have - I find that if I know I have some yummy brie or a crayfish salad or maybe even some caviar to eat on celery or flax crackers that their humdrum carby food does not appeal to me

[sham]

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All the best with the restart and wishing you success!

[booklady]

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Thanks for the support. I had thought about having some special foods but then realized two things.
One, I am in my induction phase, don't want to mess with that and
Two, I need to break from the need for fun foods at holidays and such. It is my addiction to food that has me here in the first place and I need to disconnect from food to some degree. I can enjoy meals, don't get me wrong, but I need to get past having special treat foods for holidays and just eat healthy all the time. Maybe in time, with weight lost and a healthier attitude I can add back in some low carb treats, but right now if you give me inch I will take a mile, I am an addict. so, for now, no fun stuff for my holidays, just eating good healthy tasty food like every day. That is the mistake I have made each and every time. Found low carb treats and sweets and they were great, but they kept my sweet tooth alive and ultimately led to the demise of my low carb plan.
I will make a nice pot roast or something like that while everyone else is eating tamales and rice and beans, and that will be a safe treat. Side of nice veggie. But no low carb goodies. Just cannot take the risk.
I want to get healthy more than anything and I have to fight my impulses to eat wrong to do it. I think in time it will get better but addicts never really recover so I can never let my guard down. Just keep taking that one day at a time. That is all I can do and just get over the fact I can't eat my traditional holiday food. I will have to allow myself to experience any grief or anger that I can't eat that, and just get over it. I can't eat what I want and be healthy and I want to be healthy. It will not always be easy, but if I keep my choices limited to my strict low carb diet, it will help it to be a bit easier. No wiggle room.

[stephinextremis]

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It's hard to do ANY weight loss plan or change to your way of eating during the holidays...I started in September and it's still tough for me Welcome back! Your determination and dedication will take you far. Congratulations for choosing what's right and healthy for YOU!

Stephanie

[booklady]

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Thanks, I really appreciate the support !! It really was not hard to make the decsion to eat right, I am just too tired of feeling tired and achy and miserable. It will be worth anything I give up to feel good again !! Wow, Sept, you have been on tract a while, that is great !!
I am enjoying getting to know everyone and relearn how to eat !!
Stephie

[imagood1]

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Welcome back! Keep the determination you have and you'll do well! Remember, this is a way of eating for a lifetime - once you believe that it's so much easier.

Eat the proper food, drink a minimum of 64 ounces of pure water and exercise! Good luck to you - check the Second Time Around Club for extra support!

[booklady]

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I fell off the wagon yet again. My addiction to carbs is fierce. I sometimes wonder if I will ever be able to beat it, but I cannot give up.
I have had a bit of stress in my life as our 26 year old daughter moved in with her two kids due to an impending divorce and we went from almost empty nest to a very full nest again. The irony was, within a couple of months of them moving in, our youngest son moved out, and we just kind of looked at each other and smiled, we almost got to be empty nesters. I know have a two year old that is very very busy and rough and tumble and his nine year old sister who is oblivious and exhausting as she feels it is her job to get him whipped up. We are exhausted and worn out as when Mommy is working we have them full time.
I am tired, worn out, exhausted, do you see a theme ?? My eating is out of control and I am starting to have some yeast issues. I do not want to go down this road again and I am tired of being tired. I figured it was time I got back here and started reading and posting and get accountable again.
I have not eaten yet today but plan to go in and make some eggs. I have to really talk to myself and get through this addiction. I am stressed, I want sugar, bread and other comfort foods.
Anyway, here I am, back on track after a couple of months of acting stupid , yet again. I am going to be fifty this year and do not want to spend another decade unhealthy and fat.
I am ready to be the best me in this coming new decade , I have spent most of my adult life unhealthy and unfit. I cannot wait until the stress goes down, our daughter plans to become a nurse and she could be with us for up to five years, I can't wait that long to be healthy, I am getting to the point where my good health is starting to get a bit ragged around the edges and I do not plan to let it get any worse while I wait it out. I have to take care of me while the stress continues. I deserve to be happy and healthy and fit.
I do have to eat low fat as I was diagnoised with gall stones and despite having the option of surgery mine are not bad enough to need it if I watch the fat and eat healthy. I have boughts of glall bladder attack if I eat wrong but watching the fat will take of that.
So, I plan to post here every day, keep motivated and read read read.
I am so grateful for this safe haven to come to.
Stephie