No longer in denial!

[funkyangel]

I now know for sure that I am an out and out carb addict and will have to stay away from them for good. Yesterday I went out for lunch and ordered a cheese omelet it came with salad............and chips! I ate the omelet and the salad and then for some strange reason I broke and ate one chip with mayo, before I knew it I had eaten them all, and then the little biscuit that came with my coffee. Then either due to my state of mind (fed up for eating the chips and bicky?) or the fact that I was in the grip of addiction I then ate four chocolate bars in the car on the way home. I didn't even taste them, I just HAD to eat them and as fast as possible. Boy did I feel physically bad about 30 minutes later. Coming down from the sugar overload and whilst on the 'high' I felt shaky, foggy and ill. That feeling was not a nice one and not one I am going to repeat. I literally felt drugged and the scary thing was that once in the grip of the sugar addiction I couldn't stop. That for me was a real wake-up call, and a small taste of how I must not have noticed before that I often felt like that.....I am powerless against the demon of sugar and will just have to keep thnking back to the moment and just how physically ill I felt afterwards. At least it will keep me on the straight and narrow from now on

[Elizellen]

Re: No longer in denial!

Are you back on plan now? Well done if you are

Now you need to develop some strategies to stop it happening again

The first plan to put into action is that you know next time to ask for no chips

I always quiz the staff about what exactly comes with the meal I am considering ordering so I can say 'no carrot pieces or sweetcorn on the salad' if they usually include these. Though I am no longer on induction I got so used to asking this that I do it automatically and don't really like raw carrots or cold tinned sweetcorn so don't want to 'waste' any carbs on them

One place we eat at I always have to say - 'a salad with only chicken, cucumber, tomatoes and lettuce on the plate and no coleslaw please' otherwise they try to do me a favour by adding their 'special extras' to make it (in their minds) more interesting

BTW did you have those chocolate bars stashed in the car or did you stop and buy them? If the rest of the family is still eating highcarb non-Atkins foods you need to get a plan in place so 'their' food is not to much in evidence to tempt you when you are in the wrong frame of mind.

You will probably experience more cravings for the next few days so have enough prepared 'legal' food available so you don't have to think about what to eat.

[funkyangel]

Re: No longer in denial!

Thank you so much for the advice, and yes definitely back on plan now, it was such a shame as I was doing so well. I actually had to stop and buy the chocolate bars which makes it even worse . Have been out and shopped for small allowed snacks to keep in the car just in case and although OH is not on the plan he's not a sweet eater so dont have them in the house now. His big thing is bread and pasta which I can happily avoid without too many problems (so far) and wine which is more difficult!

[2big4mysize]

Re: No longer in denial!

Hi Funkyangel welcome to carbohoilics annoymous, well not so annoymous.

It is a hard row to hoe cause unlike drug addicts and alcoholics we have to take our addiction out every day for a walk at every meal and hopefully get it back in the cage without getting mauled. I can tell you doing your atkins cheatfree is the best what to control your addiction.

if you can remove all high carb not legal for your phase foods from your house and desk at work. give them to a neighbor or a food pantry.
then replace them with legal whole foods so you always have something you can legally eat.
Make an Atkins emergency kit and keep it handy so when the high carb sireens are calling your name and saying eat me you want me you can plug your ears avert your eyes and have a defense they can't get through to your mouth.

[funkyangel]

Re: No longer in denial!

Hi 2big-thanks for the welcome to carboholics not so anonymous!! I can see that this board is going to be a lifesaver

Great idea for the emergency kit, will do that and keep in my bag at all times.
You are so right about the carb addiction thing it is very hard to know that just one taste of something could set off the chain reaction-I NEVER want to do that again or feel that way again.

I went through my pantry this afternoon and got rid of everything unnecessary, boy am I going to be sticking to the plan and not cheating-I got out some old pics of the old (soon to be new) me and put one in my wallet. Now every time I get a craving I'll get it out and have a look at it, may even stick one to the dashboard of the car at the risk of being thought slightly mad just in case when I stop for petrol I am tempted to buy chocolate or crisps at the same time.