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...and I'm really fighting the urge to eat all the sugary carbs I can get my hands on!!!
Ugh, it does take willpower. It was an old habit, eating a very starchy dinner and then finish with two bowls of ice cream. Junk food through out the day, of course.
But I don't give in, I resist, reminding myself I'm eating now for fuel, not anxiety. Alas, the food does get boring sometimes, although I'm doing several recipes and trying new food combinations (hamburgers with mustard is a recent revelation when out fast food eating).
And I remember that eating all those carbs is such a short fix if I do give in. I mean, its not worth the guilt, and the fact that the carbs are such empty and meaningless foods. And I just want more anyway, its evenutually not satisfying, that crazy sugar/insulin roller coaster.
I have to say, its getting easier overall, but it does seem that some of these urges get stronger the closer I reach my goal weight. Not just a coincidence, I'm thinking.
Anyway, the proof that the struggle is worth all this is the scale (down 24 lbs), my belt (on the last hole), and fitting in my old clothes. Oh, and all this newfound energy!
Ugh, it does take willpower. It was an old habit, eating a very starchy dinner and then finish with two bowls of ice cream. Junk food through out the day, of course.
But I don't give in, I resist, reminding myself I'm eating now for fuel, not anxiety. Alas, the food does get boring sometimes, although I'm doing several recipes and trying new food combinations (hamburgers with mustard is a recent revelation when out fast food eating).
And I remember that eating all those carbs is such a short fix if I do give in. I mean, its not worth the guilt, and the fact that the carbs are such empty and meaningless foods. And I just want more anyway, its evenutually not satisfying, that crazy sugar/insulin roller coaster.
I have to say, its getting easier overall, but it does seem that some of these urges get stronger the closer I reach my goal weight. Not just a coincidence, I'm thinking.
Anyway, the proof that the struggle is worth all this is the scale (down 24 lbs), my belt (on the last hole), and fitting in my old clothes. Oh, and all this newfound energy!
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