Well...got my first week done on extended induction and I lost one pound. The voices in my head are of course talking to me...you know that ones...they say stuff like...ONE POUND??...ONE stinkin' pound???....You might as well give up now....it's going to take you FOREVER to get to goal.....Ya might as well be happy how you are and enjoy some chips along the way....
BUT...fortunately....there is a new voice in my head. And it is talking too. And even if it is new it has a strong voice that I am able to just barely hear above the other bad voices. This voice is saying things like....WAY TO GO!...3 weeks of eating healthy...Hey, that is like 4 1/4 pounds a week.....WOW!!....You can do this...Feel the new energy...Think about what you are going to be able to do with the kids....You are becoming stronger inside and out.
You know what? I think I like the new voice I am hearing. And you know what else?? I think...I really do...I think that new voice...is...ME! The real me..the one that I couldn't hear anymore when the bad voices started...after being molested by three different family members...after losing my Dad when I was nine...after never having my step dad accept me as his...after having my Mom choose to stay with one of my molesters. The bad voices got so loud...saying I wasn't good enough...not lovable enough..that I couldn't hear the other voice. I tried to shut them up with food...and more food. But the more food I ate the bigger I got and the louder the bad voices got. But I am hearing it now!!! I won't listen to the bad ones anymore...even when they are yelling at me. Because I am WORTH IT! I WILL BE HAPPY AND HEALTHY!
And those voices can kiss my ever shrinking butt because I will not let them rule me anymore! I am healing. HEAR MY VOICE ROAR!!!
BUT...fortunately....there is a new voice in my head. And it is talking too. And even if it is new it has a strong voice that I am able to just barely hear above the other bad voices. This voice is saying things like....WAY TO GO!...3 weeks of eating healthy...Hey, that is like 4 1/4 pounds a week.....WOW!!....You can do this...Feel the new energy...Think about what you are going to be able to do with the kids....You are becoming stronger inside and out.
You know what? I think I like the new voice I am hearing. And you know what else?? I think...I really do...I think that new voice...is...ME! The real me..the one that I couldn't hear anymore when the bad voices started...after being molested by three different family members...after losing my Dad when I was nine...after never having my step dad accept me as his...after having my Mom choose to stay with one of my molesters. The bad voices got so loud...saying I wasn't good enough...not lovable enough..that I couldn't hear the other voice. I tried to shut them up with food...and more food. But the more food I ate the bigger I got and the louder the bad voices got. But I am hearing it now!!! I won't listen to the bad ones anymore...even when they are yelling at me. Because I am WORTH IT! I WILL BE HAPPY AND HEALTHY!
And those voices can kiss my ever shrinking butt because I will not let them rule me anymore! I am healing. HEAR MY VOICE ROAR!!!





Started 08/29/05
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