wth is going on with me! a love and a hate

[Jellybean1984]

Soooo....love the diet love the food, loved my mood, love the loss for the first few weeks and now week 3.5 till now (im in one month 5 days) I hate my moods, I think its kicking my relationship in the *** its making me mad, i am not mean, just depressed...it is off and on like a switch. this morning happy happy happy now blah, what do I do this is killing alot of things I have worked hard to get. I half think it is due to having no control over my life right now, i never relised how 'list' dependent I was, and it is like I am getting worse. My social life is crazy but I hate saying no cause well I come home and my moods will vary, where as out i dont think bout my moods. I dont want to make another D*** list...I hate lists but I am incomplete without one, I dont get things done, I dont know what I need. and worst of all i need to know the list has been made, but I dont care if I look at it.
I sound crazy.... This is what I am becomming... I love the diet, but it is killing anything good for me...I won't leave the diet...I just hate seeing everything fall apart.

[sunflowergrl]

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I am so sorry! I don't have any answers, but you are in my thoughts and prayer!

[dreamof145]

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What you are describing is how I always felt when I was dieting in previous attempts to lose weight. I felt sorry for myself because I could no longer eat what the people around me were eating. I felt deprived and angry. I was angry over everything and blamed everyone for my unhappiness. I really believe that in order to make any changes in your life, you first have to have an attitude adjustment. You have to have a talk with yourself, write down why you want to lose the weight and what it is going to do for you. How is it going to impact your life? You have to list the changes you are going to make and look at those changes as a positive thing in your life. If you continue to beat yourself up over 'having' to change your ways, then you will resent the changes and be miserable. You will lash out at others and make everyone around you miserable.

I hope this makes sense. This is how it was for me for many many years. This time around, I made plans to lose the weight, I thought positive thoughts, walked to keep my positive emotions in gear and made friends here that I could talk to so that I didn't feel alone in my journey.

[Sheshy]

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Hi Jen,

Sorry to hear you're having a rough time. But, really you do have control of something(s), your health, your menu's/WOE, your exercise and how you treat yourself!

You're doing great and you're so worth getting through this tough patch!

Keep taking good care of you, the rest will work itself out!

[killerbombshell]

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Can I just say--I really think this is a February thing. Everyone I know, myself included, is having a really shitty time mentally and physically. It seems to be some pond-jumping collective bad karma.

[Elmark]

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For me it was a december/january thing....in February it is fading off....

I know what you are talking about....I make tons of list/plans, but never look at them.
I have lined out a lot of little mini-goals, and whan I first started Atkins I made food lists.
I don't do that anymore....now I eat what I feel like, (within the list of induction legal foods) and I feel great! I no longer feel deprived, since I just eat what I feel like....

I hope you will find what works for you....

[Jellybean1984]

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Hey guys thanks, woo Im not alone and not going crazy...well i am not alone anyways going crazy perhaps..I dont miss the carby food the thought makes my tummy turn to be honest and people eatting in front of me has no effect. I love the diet and everything. I just em turning into a mental case!! hehe they say people get depressed in the winter maybe ive just had enough of winter..not that it is a good thing but I am glad that there r other people feelin what I am, but I am not, cause it sucks..

[Elmark]

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Jen.....Let us know whenever you need support, that's what we are here for....
Today the sun i shining here, and tomorrow it is gonna snow....I just thought that Spring was here....I hope my head doesn't turn to winter-time again....

[ttdriver]

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I really believe that in order to make any changes in your life, you first have to have an attitude adjustment. You have to have a talk with yourself, write down why you want to lose the weight and what it is going to do for you. How is it going to impact your life? You have to list the changes you are going to make and look at those changes as a positive thing in your life. If you continue to beat yourself up over 'having' to change your ways, then you will resent the changes and be miserable. You will lash out at others and make everyone around you miserable.

Now *that* is excellent advice!!

Also .. are you exercising? I know of no other MOOD ENHANCER like it! And yanno .. if you're not exercising .. ahem .. you're not doing Atkins.

Betty

[dreamof145]

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I agree Betty. Everytime I take a walk or do my exercises...I am thankful to be able to do it. So many people are bed-ridden and crippled. It also gives me 'my time' to be able to think things through and get a grip on my ideas, problems and achievements.

[Isabeau]

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Yeah, those endorphins are our friends physically and emotionally.

[Jellybean1984]

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hehehe, oh betty of course I am exercising. I havent been able to enjoy it as much it is more like a chore right now cause I am so busy. I think it is the weather. Ive been thinking about it and well my mood switched when winter came back...I donno. I am good today though heading out Imma make my friend go for a walk with me. you all r so kind it felt good to vent and clear my head. I am going to try and settle my life down some take some me time...not tonight though cause I gotta go, but some night you all r to kind.

[sombersusie]

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*hugs* jen! sorry to hear about your rough patch. Hopefully it's just a temporary thing and you'll feel better soon.

[penniedo]

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Jen, Could it be PMS?? I have noticed since I started this WOE I have terrible, terrible PMS. Pms has never been an issue for me in the past but now--HOLY---- Watch out!! I get mean and so emotional over the smallest things and have such depressing thoughts. But then it passes and I'm fine again.

[Jellybean1984]

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I wish it was pms, im not moody just depressed it is off n on. I donno it is impacting my life though cause I am generally like WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO a happy person hehe. I talk to my guy bout it and he said it will pass and hes not concerned, so thats better. Went and got my hair cut.. long layers and bangs...oh bangs...havent had those for years, i love it so maybe i just need a change, or some control I sat down with me and sorted everything out with lists and budgets and the whole nine, org my fridge so i feel a bit better we will see. I appreciate everyones imput. I think I mostly needed to talk about it.