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Well, I first of all can't tell you how much it means to me that I have someone out in the ether to whom I can report my success/failure. If I didn't have this, I'm not sure I would make it.
As to my week... still no joy with the ketosis sticks. Strange. Sticking around 15 carbs per day average. Average caleries, 1600. Not because I'm watching... it just gives me that info. Hunger level - next to nul. Especially in the mornings when I'm usually ravenous. (except for wanting a little bit of something before bed which is unusual for me) Started exercising intensively this week. oww... !
Next week - think I'm going to up my carbs to 20 ish. More veggies. (since I'm trying to exercise a LOT more!)
My husband - well, he has stopped harrassing me (sort of) and has 'designed' his own diet. He is not eating white bread, butter, or drinking alcohol. White bread as the basis for something (like pizza) doesn't count. He's going to 'show' me! (last night he ate ice cream with whipped cream on it right in front of me - asking me if I wanted any) He has, however, started eating my breakfast (in addition to his own) and some of the dinners I cook - 'because he doesn't want to cook his own'. So maybe we are getting somewhere. When I tell him how much I've lost, etc. he professes me 'lucky'. So for this week anyway - he's decreased the likelihood that he is going to be among the non-living!
Hardest non-cheat time this week? Our son is 25 months old. He cannot walk without assistance and he cannot really talk at all. We've had hundreds of tests - all showing nothing. (MRI - fine, blood work - fine, etc.) We went for 3 days of observation this week and they declared him 'definitely brain damaged' even if you can't see it on the MRI. They said he is at a 14 month old level and they can't say if/when/how he will progress. On the way home, ALL I WANTED was to drink and drink and drink - until I didn't have to think about it anymore. I'm ashamed to say that if there had been wine in the house - I would have done it. What did I do instead? I read a journal by Brook who also has a handicapped child - and some of her points sunk thru my sadness and I went to bed early so that the next morning I could wake up and look at things differently. (like he (our son) doesn't know he's 'sick', and he is not ill, and he doesn't feel bad, and he's happy, and as far as we know there is no tumour or cancer, etc.) Bed/sleep was a good way not to give in to unreasonableness and escape-ism! (I'd feel like crap the next day and Mathias wouldn't be any better.)
So, the good news for the week:
Weight - Total lost in 3 weeks = 8.35 pounds / 3.8 kilo
Measurements - Total for 3 weeks = 9.25 inches / 23.5 centimeters
I'd like to lose more... But at least I'm still losing!!!!
Thanks again for the support! Week 4 here I come!
Kacey
Well, I first of all can't tell you how much it means to me that I have someone out in the ether to whom I can report my success/failure. If I didn't have this, I'm not sure I would make it.
- If I'm hungry (or think I am), I come to the recipe forum. I spend so much time deciding which recipe looks the best (because they are all amazing) that I realise I'm not really hungry - just bored/angry/frustrated/depressed, etc.
- When I don't think I can do it - I go and look at others who have done far more than I ever hope to - and have succeeded.
- When I can't figure out why the heck I eat or sabotage myself - I read others inspirational journals, comments, etc.
As to my week... still no joy with the ketosis sticks. Strange. Sticking around 15 carbs per day average. Average caleries, 1600. Not because I'm watching... it just gives me that info. Hunger level - next to nul. Especially in the mornings when I'm usually ravenous. (except for wanting a little bit of something before bed which is unusual for me) Started exercising intensively this week. oww... !
Next week - think I'm going to up my carbs to 20 ish. More veggies. (since I'm trying to exercise a LOT more!)
My husband - well, he has stopped harrassing me (sort of) and has 'designed' his own diet. He is not eating white bread, butter, or drinking alcohol. White bread as the basis for something (like pizza) doesn't count. He's going to 'show' me! (last night he ate ice cream with whipped cream on it right in front of me - asking me if I wanted any) He has, however, started eating my breakfast (in addition to his own) and some of the dinners I cook - 'because he doesn't want to cook his own'. So maybe we are getting somewhere. When I tell him how much I've lost, etc. he professes me 'lucky'. So for this week anyway - he's decreased the likelihood that he is going to be among the non-living!
Hardest non-cheat time this week? Our son is 25 months old. He cannot walk without assistance and he cannot really talk at all. We've had hundreds of tests - all showing nothing. (MRI - fine, blood work - fine, etc.) We went for 3 days of observation this week and they declared him 'definitely brain damaged' even if you can't see it on the MRI. They said he is at a 14 month old level and they can't say if/when/how he will progress. On the way home, ALL I WANTED was to drink and drink and drink - until I didn't have to think about it anymore. I'm ashamed to say that if there had been wine in the house - I would have done it. What did I do instead? I read a journal by Brook who also has a handicapped child - and some of her points sunk thru my sadness and I went to bed early so that the next morning I could wake up and look at things differently. (like he (our son) doesn't know he's 'sick', and he is not ill, and he doesn't feel bad, and he's happy, and as far as we know there is no tumour or cancer, etc.) Bed/sleep was a good way not to give in to unreasonableness and escape-ism! (I'd feel like crap the next day and Mathias wouldn't be any better.)
So, the good news for the week:
Weight - Total lost in 3 weeks = 8.35 pounds / 3.8 kilo
Measurements - Total for 3 weeks = 9.25 inches / 23.5 centimeters
I'd like to lose more... But at least I'm still losing!!!!
Thanks again for the support! Week 4 here I come!
Kacey
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