feel like garbage...

[KatHavlu]

i was doing so good last week, and i kept cheating and cheating because my strips were still pink. i totally fell off the wagon, and now I am having a hard time getting back into it. Somebody please help me, I keep saying tomorrow I will restart or today I will restart, but I dunno I cannot do it for some reason. I come on here every morning, for inspiration and I don't know I go somewhere and I ruin myself. Today I went to Disneyland, ate a churro I was so mad at myself I cried. I need serious help, I am so depressed looking like this, and not being able to run after my boys which should be all the inspiration I need, but for some reason it just doesn't. I guess I need someone or something to really motivate me, I went and bought clothes a size smaller so I guess we will see if that helps. If anyone on here see's that I am on here please instant message me. Maybe that will help.

[Ante_up]

KatHavlu,

You CAN do this you just have to make up your mind and don't look back ! I know its easier said then done but why not just look at it one day at a time one pound at a time. I find sometimes I get upset when it seems like I will never get to goal and it makes me want to "jump" of the wagon so to speak.
I find for me its pictures and music that help me stick to my WOE when I see a picture of me before I gained all my weight it makes me want to get my sh*t together and do what I need to in order to get healthy and to reach my goal and if I need alittle more motivation I put on some good tunes and day dream about what its going to be like once I am at goal and living healthy(normaly while I dance around doing housework :dancingb: LOL).

Anyway I realy hope this helps it works for me :flowerki:

[KatHavlu]

thank you very much!! and your right!!

[Arielle]

I think you can do it too, so, you've had a few bad moments. Those are gone now, and you can start fresh, today! I'm on induction right now, and every day is like day one for me. Just set a mini goal, you can do it!

[tammytomandgirls]

:hug The first thing that hit me while reading your post was that you were cheating because the sticks were still pink... :confused Honestly and truthfully..why would you do that? What is the benefit of cheating? Was the food really THAT good? Was it worth it? Was it something that you really felt you HAD to have or was it an emotional thing? I think if you can answer this question for yourself it may really help you on the road that you really want to be on.

Personally, I KNOW that I am an emotional eater - my daughter (12) was just pushing my buttons yesterday :anger and I SO wanted to run out and get some ice cream and drown my frustrations in it...but when I "thought" about it for a while and realized that I didn't really WANT the ice cream, I wanted the emotional feeling it gave me (for all of 2 minutes until I was done with it and then wanted to kick myself for eating it and beat myself up for DAYS, WEEKS after) and realized it really wasn't worth it at all. I did however buy some macadamian nuts and have just a couple of those but they really weren't all that I thought they were going to be after having that talk with myself about my emotional eating and how it really isn't helping me...

What is your reason for the self sabatoge? :hug

[not2late]

Just a word about the ketostix....

All they tell you is that you're burng fat. It doesn't tell you if that fat is the fat on your thighs or the fat you just ate. So it's very possible to test positive after eating a plate of french fries or some other greasy-carby food.

Another thing too is that the ketostix can test "falsely". Alcohol will yield a false positive because one of the by products of alcohol metabolism is similar chemically to the ketone body the stix tests. Some prescription medications also can give a "false positive".

So while the stixs are a a decent guide, they are not an absolute guide to weight loss or that you are in a body-fat burning mode.

[tabekat]

you are beautiful

i'm a newbie, and not an expert but i feel like i want to respond to you.

i have such empathy for you - I too have felt like "garbage" when I couldn't force myself to comply in a moment of weakness. unfortunately, the "garbage" feeling doesn't motivate me to change at all. its just another way of prolonging not loving myself.

I raised 4 kids in a heavy, heavy body. I remember taking them to the park and watching them play and feeling too exhausted to participate in their fun. So I can totally relate to your frustration.

Thinking of Atkins as a another diet didn't motivate me to change either. Thinking of Atkins as a permanent lifestyle however, did produce a major change.

I look at it this way. For whatever reason my body doesn't respond well to certain types of food. For me, those foods are bread, potatos, and high-carb desserts. I know I don't respond well to these foods because, A - I gain weight on them, and B - When I have a taste of them I can never get enough of them. The drive for them feels very neurotic.

I have been enslaved to these foods my entire life. I don't blame myself for the insanity these foods produce in me - I blame the mysterious negative chemical reaction. I am a perfectly intelligent, loving, sane human being most of the time until I eat those kind of foods. It was such a relief in reading the book to finally understand that I wasn't a bad person at all. And I'm hardly alone.

So shift the blame from yourself, put the blame where it belongs, and start eliminating the foods that have caused you such misery.

Up until now I have responded like an automaton to those high carb sirens. but they are poisen for me. I don't eat those high carb foods anymore and I don't miss them.

The reason that I don't miss them is that Atkins provides wonderful recipes that taste even better to me than my former high carb treats.
To me, the mock danish tastes better than any churro ever could.

I am eating such good food now, never hungry and always looking forward to my next meal. I don't have to feel bad about loving to eat anymore.

Just be very loving to yourself and eat the right foods with gusto.
I'm having a ball experimenting with the induction safe recipes on this site and other sites they recommended. Once you accustom yourself mentally and physically to bypass the trigger foods, and find appropriate substitutes, you won't miss them at all.

[tammytomandgirls]

BEAUTIFUL and SO TRUE post Tabycat!! :yes :hug

[Elizellen]

What an excellent insightful posting Tabekat.

thank you for writing it. :hug

[KatHavlu]

yes there is an emotional reason. long story short, i am married with 2 kids 3 and 8 months, beautiful boys.. the 8 month old just starting standing up, and my 3 yr old is an absolute maniac but i still love him, well my husband does not help me whatsoever.. he is to tired. i get so depressed and it absolutely kills me that he won't help me. these are 2 beautiful kids why wouldn't he want to spend time with them, get to know them you know, it just kills me. ie one time i asked him to take 1 of the kids with him to the auto store so i could kind of get a break, and he said "i cant carry him through a store are u crazy" that very SAME day he came home, told me he ordered the part and I would have to go get them for him Thursday. I said oh u can't handle one kid in a store but you expect me to take 2 of them in!! this is the kind of bs i put up with day in and day out. it is so depressing. but, i am going to do this diet come **** or highwater, i am doing it for me so I can chase my kids a little better and not feel like i am going to die. All of the words and pms i have gotten to this post were just the kick in the butt i needed. sorry for rambling on, and thanks for your responses they have truly helped me.

[Aussie_babygurl]

cheating happens all the time, dont beat yourself over it, just beleive that you can overcome it.

i have looked at carb food and been so tempted to eat it, and even had a bite but before i swallowed it i decided " stuff this" and spat it in the bin.

It can be so hard, but you have to think of your goals why u are doing this right as ur about to take a bite.. whats the food gonna do? yeah its yummy, yeah we love carbs. But i think we all will love the things we can do and the way we feel after we have reached our goal weight.

I beleive u will defintely get through it