Can't seem to get back on

[Rockin]

I am still fumbling around with starting induction again. I wake in the morning and say I am going to, I have my eggs and bacon for breakfast but then ruin it at lunch time. I am still very depressed after losing my little brother last month. I really want to get back on the wagon, I am still losing slowly but am starting to get my gut back again even though I am losing weight. I don't want to ruin what I have done already. I have went from 190 at the first of Jan to 161 now. I started going to Curves again and that is helping but I keep getting depressed half way through the day and bury my head in food I had a chocolate chip cookie today with lunch. I know I can't keep getting away with this without the scale starting to go the other way. I am going to vow tomorrow to stick with the whole day.

[hulagrl1120]

I have a big problem of using food for comfort...now I've made sure I have something else to replace that need...whether it be knitting, reading, writing in my journal, drawing...anything but sticking that cookie in my mouth...it's a daily struggle and I hope that you can overcome it. :hug

[goneriding]

I, too, had a hard time sticking to it - first two weeks of induction was tough - but I made it with only a couple of minor cheats. Thank goodness I was accepted as a bootcamp recruit. It truly has helped me to fully get back on track. You can do this! I am sorry for the loss of your brother - exercising will help you get your mind off things, as difficult as that may seem right now. Take care of yourself.

[2big4mysize]

:hug I'm so sorry. that cheating by lunch is your Dr Brain trying to help you feel better because our remarkabkle minds store and cross reference foods and emotions and lots of things and it knows when you feel the way you do those foods it has you cheat with make you feel better because many foods minic the chemicals in our brains that effect happiness and calm. Chocolate is a very good example of that.

You know the fix is only temporary and need to tell your Dr Brain you want a second opinion and stay with your Atkins. Find something else that will take the place as your brain;s first med of choice. take a walk on your lunch hour, meditate, call a support buddy, anything but eat those foods. Pack your Atkins lunch from home and eat it as you are doing those activities. It will take time but you can change things. that is where that theory of exercising your willpower makes it stroinger as the old neropathways to the high carb foods is used less and less it weakens and the new substitute event or water or whatever thakes its place.

keep those pics of you at the smaller weight close by and ask yourself if what you are about to do is helping you get smaller or bigger. I ran from my 300+ pound former self several times in my Atkins journey.

Should you have a slip up do as they tell addicts minimize the harm and get back to your clean program ASAP not tomorrow but the very next bite!

You can do this and you know you want it.

[Rockin]

Yes, 2big I want it more than anything right now. I fooled myself for a long time telling myself that I didn't look bad, that I didn't look like I weighed as much as I did. It took me being told by my mother that I was fat and that I needed to do something, she bought me a membership to Curves and from that day I started going and started this WOE. I did great for a while I didn't have many cravings and the weight was flying off, I got over the hot flashes and my body trying to get me to eat the sugar and got passed it. I was feeling great and losing fast. Then when my brother died on the 10th of February I lost it. I flew to Montana and helped get things organzied over there and went to the funeral, I ate everything, I don't know how I didn't gain any weight. But since I have been back I have been telling myself every day for the past 2 weeks "today I am going to start again" and each day I fail miserably. You are right, by the middle of the day I start thinking about him and get upset and I turn to the food. In the refrigerator at the shop I have all my induction friendly food. But I have been going out to get something to get out of the shop for a little while. I have to stop!!! I have to get back on the wagon and stay there, I know I can do it, I did it before. And if I keep up like I am going I am going to start to gain the weight back. Thank you for all your support I needed to talk about it, holding it inside just makes me want to eat more. I wish I had a buddy to talk to but noone I know except on here agrees with the WOE and my mom works opposite hours than me so she isnt there to talk to when I am having a urge to binge.

[loonatika]

I'd find distractions instead of food, the exercise will help with the depression, but I don't envy you at all. I've only gotten out of my slump in the past few months and I still don't know how I did it. I think the self confidence from losing weight does help some, but you still need that gut determination to stick with the exercise and diet.

Maybe just taking it one day at a time will work, plus reward yourself for staying on plan. I don't mean with food, but maybe putting a dollar in a jar for each day on plan and then using that to buy some new clothes, or something like that?

Anyway, you take care and I have all my fingers crossed for you.