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Dear Atkin's I am sorry, it is not you its me:P
Time number...I donno 4 ...5 with extended intro maybe more counting little starts here and there. I hate Atkin’s for this stall, always the fault of the stopped weight loss.... I have tried 4 times to break this stall..always the same number, the number where I first quit, like a taunting asking why did you quit, so at that time I give up its easier to just eat anything. Maybe I will go low fat...
So perhaps its 5 but it is definitely time 4 maybe time 6 but I will just hush hush... I realise its me not you dear Atkin’s..as denial runs so deep in my blood on the subject of food I forgot about science.
I always got sick of Atkin's, but just the routine, and the stall..the dreaded stall...the one thing that makes you forget if you spread your total weight loss out...your doing amazing, and the inch’s too. But the scale for me anyways is my accomplishment, I know it should be me, but I have been fighting with the thing so long it is nice when I can love it.
So why the title...well I am happy EXCITED and relieved....and when I cursed atkin’s and the body and all that stuff, I forgot about me....I flat stalled and would up and down pounds it has been over 3 weeks since I got anywhere but back and forth , and I'm like oh a stall a stall, and I quit everytime at that very spot between 260 and 250 where I would float.
Denial is a beautiful thing....not....so I figure, I am eating close to the perfects, not eating carbs, counting in my head, I am good at this, I have done it before.....I skip breakfast, then skip lunch, at supper I make a salad with protein and 3 cups of veg, my cheese too, have about 3-4 tears containing 2 splenda each and more cream then I wish to think about. I figure 20 carbs...it all works out, and I can get it all done in one meal.
Lack of eating, poor outlook, not to the plan but my version not right....in sets depression, anxiety, lack of sleep, my skin looked blah... but guess what!! everyone told me I was losing weight and noticed which is good but my secret...I told no one, so now I am stuck, not only in a rut, but with the pressure of now succeeding. This made me content with the above denial issue.
Three days ago I decided it is time to open my eyes, do I want this way of life....I was to get on the truck or let it go by, cause I was defiantly hanging on with a rope...barely. Also my mind, never let your self take over itself, never works out I am back in control.
So I am happy to say 2 days ago I started eating 3 meals a day, my water, my vitamins and got out of the funk, learned to eat even when I did not want to, and I felt a hunger pain this morning, haven’t had one of those in a month. I would have gave up food completely but I did not want to collapse.
This morning I stepped on the scale and I opened my eyes to see 247...I have been awaiting 249 for atleast 4 times now, the last time I seen that number you ask....I was 14 years old...10 years ago....always getting close...not getting through the stall any of the time, I was so tired of trying I forgot to try.
I am not here for thanks or joy of my accomplishment that is not why I write this however included and I am very proud of myself for getting through this bloody thing even though I the cause, this is more so for anyone wants to quit, you can but if you want, but if you give even a month, and be patient and make sure you are following it all, exercise too, and measurements are truly greater then lbs one you see on equipment the other everyone including yourself sees on you. .don’t give up, there is a reason you tried in the first place, and the second third fourth time...trust me is never as great as the first, because you expect much more.:P
I thank the people at work for noticing my secret and making me feel like I no longer had a choice as I cannot fail, but most of all I thank the people here who support everyone’s failures and success.
I write this because I am happy and I write if so if there is someone like me perhaps they will subside denial because it is not a beautiful thing.
Time number...I donno 4 ...5 with extended intro maybe more counting little starts here and there. I hate Atkin’s for this stall, always the fault of the stopped weight loss.... I have tried 4 times to break this stall..always the same number, the number where I first quit, like a taunting asking why did you quit, so at that time I give up its easier to just eat anything. Maybe I will go low fat...
So perhaps its 5 but it is definitely time 4 maybe time 6 but I will just hush hush... I realise its me not you dear Atkin’s..as denial runs so deep in my blood on the subject of food I forgot about science.
I always got sick of Atkin's, but just the routine, and the stall..the dreaded stall...the one thing that makes you forget if you spread your total weight loss out...your doing amazing, and the inch’s too. But the scale for me anyways is my accomplishment, I know it should be me, but I have been fighting with the thing so long it is nice when I can love it.
So why the title...well I am happy EXCITED and relieved....and when I cursed atkin’s and the body and all that stuff, I forgot about me....I flat stalled and would up and down pounds it has been over 3 weeks since I got anywhere but back and forth , and I'm like oh a stall a stall, and I quit everytime at that very spot between 260 and 250 where I would float.
Denial is a beautiful thing....not....so I figure, I am eating close to the perfects, not eating carbs, counting in my head, I am good at this, I have done it before.....I skip breakfast, then skip lunch, at supper I make a salad with protein and 3 cups of veg, my cheese too, have about 3-4 tears containing 2 splenda each and more cream then I wish to think about. I figure 20 carbs...it all works out, and I can get it all done in one meal.
Lack of eating, poor outlook, not to the plan but my version not right....in sets depression, anxiety, lack of sleep, my skin looked blah... but guess what!! everyone told me I was losing weight and noticed which is good but my secret...I told no one, so now I am stuck, not only in a rut, but with the pressure of now succeeding. This made me content with the above denial issue.
Three days ago I decided it is time to open my eyes, do I want this way of life....I was to get on the truck or let it go by, cause I was defiantly hanging on with a rope...barely. Also my mind, never let your self take over itself, never works out I am back in control.
So I am happy to say 2 days ago I started eating 3 meals a day, my water, my vitamins and got out of the funk, learned to eat even when I did not want to, and I felt a hunger pain this morning, haven’t had one of those in a month. I would have gave up food completely but I did not want to collapse.
This morning I stepped on the scale and I opened my eyes to see 247...I have been awaiting 249 for atleast 4 times now, the last time I seen that number you ask....I was 14 years old...10 years ago....always getting close...not getting through the stall any of the time, I was so tired of trying I forgot to try.
I am not here for thanks or joy of my accomplishment that is not why I write this however included and I am very proud of myself for getting through this bloody thing even though I the cause, this is more so for anyone wants to quit, you can but if you want, but if you give even a month, and be patient and make sure you are following it all, exercise too, and measurements are truly greater then lbs one you see on equipment the other everyone including yourself sees on you. .don’t give up, there is a reason you tried in the first place, and the second third fourth time...trust me is never as great as the first, because you expect much more.:P
I thank the people at work for noticing my secret and making me feel like I no longer had a choice as I cannot fail, but most of all I thank the people here who support everyone’s failures and success.
I write this because I am happy and I write if so if there is someone like me perhaps they will subside denial because it is not a beautiful thing.
Well done on sticking to it and rethinking your meal plans 
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Your story was a rollercoster for me while reading it and what a happy ending. Press on strong one and be proud. You can out think this and you did.
Now that's what i'm talkin' about!! Don't give up and dont give in!!
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