wow im really depressed today then! i started at 194.5 and was down to 184 even! noe its 17 days on to induction and here i weighed my self to day and was at 189! i dont get it i am frustrated i been fairly good. i guess maybe this isnt 4 me due to i am not one that has time to measure,counting i dont mind but all the portions and things i have to do! i was so happy he 1st week! then im told dont eat the bars.
so i stopped then i have to come clean on sumthing. in the past
i was bulimic.
my most weight ever was 236 at 15 etc. i lost most of it i was down to 160 150 for a few years and maintained that for quite a few years.
we fluctuate tho!!!
i really let myself go this last year and pushed 194.5 i was devastated!
this was my last resort!
so now 2 days in a row i ate what i am required to etc. yet the last 2 nights i git major sweet cravings so i stuffed myself with brownies and sweet cereal and spit up. same thing the night b4.
i know its a awful disease yet i thought (oh ill get it outta my system b4 it hits my body)
yet thats wrong and i admit donig that! and now im up to 189 today!
i am aware that doing that your body thinks its starving so it retains what it has and stalls u!
i havent done that in years. all tho i did it 4 the 1st time the other night!
so i feel a tad better sharing that yet i just want sumones daily schedule on what times they ate and what they ate and what exceersize they did how long and what! i want to follow a routine this is not the track i want to go down again at all or anybody 4 that matter!
i am so afraid sumone plz give me a routine to follow asap????????
so i stopped then i have to come clean on sumthing. in the past
i was bulimic.
my most weight ever was 236 at 15 etc. i lost most of it i was down to 160 150 for a few years and maintained that for quite a few years.
we fluctuate tho!!!
i really let myself go this last year and pushed 194.5 i was devastated!
this was my last resort!
so now 2 days in a row i ate what i am required to etc. yet the last 2 nights i git major sweet cravings so i stuffed myself with brownies and sweet cereal and spit up. same thing the night b4.
i know its a awful disease yet i thought (oh ill get it outta my system b4 it hits my body)
yet thats wrong and i admit donig that! and now im up to 189 today!
i am aware that doing that your body thinks its starving so it retains what it has and stalls u!
i havent done that in years. all tho i did it 4 the 1st time the other night!
so i feel a tad better sharing that yet i just want sumones daily schedule on what times they ate and what they ate and what exceersize they did how long and what! i want to follow a routine this is not the track i want to go down again at all or anybody 4 that matter!
i am so afraid sumone plz give me a routine to follow asap????????






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